Hotel California

"God Alex what did you do!?!" Mikey ran to me.

I felt sleepy, and I didn’t want to move, or talk. My eyes were half open and my hand was touching the floor was dripping blood. I think I went over the board this time. Because this time I had cut too deep.

The next I remember was waking up in a hospital room, when I opened my eyes Mikey was there maybe it was worse than I thought. For me it was only seconds of pleasure, but it was hours… and I was starting to lose a lot of blood. When Mikey saw I had opened my eyes, he looked at me.

"Alex" he said with his voice breaking up.
"What are you doing here?" I asked with no emotion whatsoever.
"I brought you here. When I got to your house your mom was about to leave, and she told me you had locked yourself in your room. I knocked and you didn’t open so I used my key. And you where not in the room but I saw the bathroom light on, and I knocked again and when I didn’t hear anything I opened the door." His voice was breaking up again "and I saw you in the floor, covered in blood." Mikey's beautiful eyes were filling themselves with tears. "I thought that you were dead Alex! I was so scared!" he took my hand and I took it back quickly.

"Don’t touch me"
"What’s wrong?" he asked worried.
"You shouldn’t be here. Resides no one cares if I die, right? I mean I wasn’t even trying to kill myself if that’s what everyone is thinking"
"What do you mean no one cares?" he cried hysterically "I care Alexandra! I care a fucking lot! You are the only good thing in my life how could I not care!?! "
"I saw you! With her! With Greta, you were kissing her! "
"She kissed me!"
"Yeah that easy huh? She kissed you and now what? Are you her little boyfriend now? And you're going to leave me for her friends, right? “Now I was crying too.
"Of course not! I would never leave you… and I told here I didn’t want to do anything with her. "
We kept quiet for a while trying to get our breath back.
"You said no to her?" I asked astonished.
"Yes I did, I don’t like her."
"Are you crazy? She is the girl everybody wants… who everybody dies for! "
"Of course not, I wouldn’t die for her."
"Then for who?"
"For… for… " He kept quiet again breathing hard. " I’m sorry Alex; it wasn’t my intention for you feel like that"
"I just don’t want to lose you"
"And you won’t! I will always be by your side. "
"Promise?"
"Yes I promise" he took my hand again, and this time I held him tight.
"Don’t ever do that again Alex," he was crying again" I was so scared. "
"I know, it got out of control. I never had an accident like that"
"You’d done this before?"
"Yeah a couple of years back, to forget about the pain. But I didn’t need anymore… until today… I felt alone and it hurt so much, I thought it was the only way to forget or at least… mild it down a bit. "
"I had not idea, but please… please promise me Alex that you will never do it again. It’s too dangerous. "
"I promise."

I held his hand tightly and he hugged me. I so needed that hug, feeling he was there for me. We both smiled and in that moment my mom came inside.

"Alexandra! What the hell were you thinking about! “She started yelling at me.
"Obviously not about you" I answered truthfully and sarcastically at the same time.
"I’m not I’m the mood for your jokes Alexandra. Micheal called me, I was very worried. "
"if you were so worried, why did I take you hours to get here"
"I had things to do"
"More important things than your daughter?"
She kept quiet as always.
"Do you want to talk about it?"
"No, I already said what I had to"
Mom left the room leaving us alone again.
"I don’t think that what happened with me and Greta is the only thing that bothered you." said Mikey trying to coax it out of me.
"That jerk left me for his football buddies!"
"Who could he do that? He said that his friends didn’t matter anymore and all that shit about caring for you"
"I know, but he was lying all this time… and I believed him" I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, trying to contain the tears that knew where coming.
"It’s alright" he took my hand again. "Just forget about it."
"I can’t! I feel so stupid. I fell into his game. Yeah right, he wanted to be my friend. Yeah right he like me! I’m so fucking stupid"
"You’re not; he is the one that played with you"
"I don’t want to see him again… and to think I thought I liked him"
"I know. But he is an asshole; I mean he plays football! He is made from the same material as the cheerleaders. "
"By the way you’re sating that, I’m thinking you still have something left to tell me about what happened with Greta"
"The thing is that in her note she said she wanted to talk to me behind one of the trees in the yard. I went there and she started telling me that after working with me she had felt really attracted to me and that she had discovered how attractive I really was and that she had broken up with her boyfriend so she could be with me and after that she kissed me, which was the part you saw. Then I pushed her back and told her I didn’t like her. Then she started yelling at me, calling me names I hadn’t heard before, telling me that I was going to be sorry I ever said that and blah blah. "
"What a bitch!”
"I know and obviously I didn’t believe one word of what she said. She is as fake as her orange makeup…"
"Yes, I believed tom because at least he was a bit more convincing but now I know all he ever said was a lie.”

Mikey stayed hours with me, he even made a trip to star bucks and brought me coffee and I did need it! I could go home that night, but still I wouldn’t go to school the next day. I didn’t want to face tom. I don’t think I really could. So Mikey offered to spend the day with me.

That kid was an angel. How could I ever doubt him?