Hotel California
Do you Feel like a Man?
When I woke up and noticed what was happening to me, it was too late. I couldn’t see anything, some piece of cloth was covering my eyes. My wrists and ankles where tied down and I couldn’t get up. I was trying to break free but I just couldn’t. I heard some noise and thought someone could be near me.
"Is someone there?”
I had no answer and I started getting nervous. The sound of footsteps was getting closer to me.
"Who is there? Please help me. This is not funny"
My patience was definitely out the door by now.
"calm down" I heard someone say really close to me, someone who by the sound of it got even closer to me and squatted next to me. A man.
"Everything is going to be fine, I’m not going to hurt you"
"What do you mean everything is fine! I’m tied down! Let me go!" I yelled at him.
"Shut up" he screamed at me, slapping my face. "You better stay quiet, because if you don’t…" I sharp cold object was pressed to my cheek, probably a knife or a razor. "Im going to have to use my little friend here"
"No please, don’t hurt me," I said scared.
"All right, then just stay quiet honey" I could feel his breath really close to my face, maybe just centimetres away. He then sat down on top of me, constricting my movements even more. I felt his hands move up my legs to my waist.
His lips where attacking my neck. He was sloppy in all his movements; he got to my ear whispering sickening words to me.
He took of my blouse with force, almost ripping it of me and fought against my bra for a moment, before getting it off and attacking my breasts, kissing them and biting on them with force.
His hands where busy trying to get my pants off me.
He suddenly got up which made me think he was leaving me there, or was going to let me go, so I started to move desperately trying to get away.
"Stay still" he said taking my face in his hand. "What did I say bout moving? I think we are going to have to teach you a lesson"
"NO!" I yelled desperately.
"I think we have too, your pretty face will have to suffer," he said while he cut my cheek. "Or maybe your pretty body" he took one of my breasts in his, and drew a profound line with his knife.
I was yelling from the pain while he covered my mouth.
"Shut up, or even more parts of you will suffer.” he said squeezing my other breast in his hand.
I was trying with all my will power not to scream from the pain. No matter how painful and terrible it was. I could do anything except cry.
"Stop please" I said slowly.
"Awe but we are having too much fun aren’t we?"
His hands went directly to my pants and started to pull it off. I started moving again trying to get him off me, but nothing worked. He was probably the double my size.
For the third time he got up, It was went I feared the worst. That he was going to hurt me again. I stayed quiet and still, trying to hear if he got his knife again. Nothing.
Until I heard the sound of his zipper. He was taking off his clothes. I was in panic.
He was going to rape me. I was still quiet, hearing his clothes hitting the floor. And the sound of a car pulling up. My opportunity.
"HELP ME! Get me out of here! Please! Help!" I started yelling with all my might, so someone could hear me.
"Shut up!” he yelled at my again, i didn’t let him get to me this time and continued yelling.
"HELP! PLEASE! "
He covered my mouth again, but almost instantly i heard the door of a car shutting.
"is someone there? " I heard someone else say. I was still trying to yell. But the man was still covering my mouth. The steps where getting closer to me, which made the man get up from me. I guess he took his clothes and ran.
"PLEASE HELP ME!” I yelled desperately. "HERE!”
I heard running footsteps coming over to me.
"Oh my god" said whoever was there. "Here Roberts, I need an ambulance. I found a girl" I didn’t pay attention to what he said. He was talking on some radio; I guess he was a police man.
When he finished with his radio, he untied me and took the cloth from my eyes. When I opened my eyes I saw that the officer had a flashlight on his hand. I was on some alley, everything was dark.
"God" he said taking off his jacket and covering me with it.
"What’s your name?”
"Alexandra… Alexandra York"
"All right Alexandra. The ambulance will be here shortly. Everything is going to be okay. Do you know what happened? "
"A man hit me. And when I woke up I was here. And I was tied up" the tears came to my eyes once more. "He started touching me and kissing me, I thought he was going to rape me." I said within cries.
Moments later the ambulance got there. The officer walked me to it.
They took me to the hospital; my head was thumping by the sound of the siren, and the voice of every doctor, paramedic and nurse asking all kinds of questions. I just wanted to forget all about it.
After a lot of questions and tests, stitching my breast and cheek, giving me clothes and getting me to a room, they finally left me alone to get some rest.
I was so tired, physically and mentally. I just wanted to sleep.
It was one in the morning when my mother went inside the room.
"My god Alexandra, I was so scared!” she said to me.
For once in my life I saw my mom actually concerned about me. "Are you all right? What happened? "
She hugged me but I couldn’t hug her back, I had no strength in me.
"Someone tried to rape me" I said flatly, tired of giving the same answer over and over again.
"It’s not posible! Who? "
"I don’t know mom, I couldn’t see him.
"But did you know his voice or something?"
"No mom" I was starting to get angry. "Please just let me sleep"
"But Baby"
"Please" I interrupted her. "Go home, get some rest"
"are you sure?”
"Yeah, just leave me alone"
"okay"
She kissed my forehead and left the room. Telling me she would be here tomorrow.
When she left the nurse came back inside, to check if everything was okay.
"Well darling. I know you want to go home. But you have to stay here for a while. Probably until tomorrow"
"It’s okay"
"Try to get some sleep you look really tired" said the sweet woman, she could be my grandma, with a little smile on her face. "I’m turning the light off, good night"
She turned the Light off and left the room.
The moonlight had half of the room illuminated. Resting on the bed I could only see the ceiling. I turned my body resting on my side. I look at the window, I could see how the light filtered thought it. I felt a cold gush of air. I hugged my knees trying to create a bit of heat.
Suddenly inside of me, I felt something break. I felt miserable. Like I smelt of that man. I started to cry. I wanted him off me.
I don’t know what hurt more, the pain I suffered or losing my dignity. I felt used. I was worth nothing now. I closed my eyes and I still felt his hands over me. I yelled desperately.
The same nurse that turned the light off, had to give me a tranquilizer, just so I could get some sleep. Even with that I could not go to sleep. I closed my eyes, and there was his voice. Over and over again.
"Is someone there?”
I had no answer and I started getting nervous. The sound of footsteps was getting closer to me.
"Who is there? Please help me. This is not funny"
My patience was definitely out the door by now.
"calm down" I heard someone say really close to me, someone who by the sound of it got even closer to me and squatted next to me. A man.
"Everything is going to be fine, I’m not going to hurt you"
"What do you mean everything is fine! I’m tied down! Let me go!" I yelled at him.
"Shut up" he screamed at me, slapping my face. "You better stay quiet, because if you don’t…" I sharp cold object was pressed to my cheek, probably a knife or a razor. "Im going to have to use my little friend here"
"No please, don’t hurt me," I said scared.
"All right, then just stay quiet honey" I could feel his breath really close to my face, maybe just centimetres away. He then sat down on top of me, constricting my movements even more. I felt his hands move up my legs to my waist.
His lips where attacking my neck. He was sloppy in all his movements; he got to my ear whispering sickening words to me.
He took of my blouse with force, almost ripping it of me and fought against my bra for a moment, before getting it off and attacking my breasts, kissing them and biting on them with force.
His hands where busy trying to get my pants off me.
He suddenly got up which made me think he was leaving me there, or was going to let me go, so I started to move desperately trying to get away.
"Stay still" he said taking my face in his hand. "What did I say bout moving? I think we are going to have to teach you a lesson"
"NO!" I yelled desperately.
"I think we have too, your pretty face will have to suffer," he said while he cut my cheek. "Or maybe your pretty body" he took one of my breasts in his, and drew a profound line with his knife.
I was yelling from the pain while he covered my mouth.
"Shut up, or even more parts of you will suffer.” he said squeezing my other breast in his hand.
I was trying with all my will power not to scream from the pain. No matter how painful and terrible it was. I could do anything except cry.
"Stop please" I said slowly.
"Awe but we are having too much fun aren’t we?"
His hands went directly to my pants and started to pull it off. I started moving again trying to get him off me, but nothing worked. He was probably the double my size.
For the third time he got up, It was went I feared the worst. That he was going to hurt me again. I stayed quiet and still, trying to hear if he got his knife again. Nothing.
Until I heard the sound of his zipper. He was taking off his clothes. I was in panic.
He was going to rape me. I was still quiet, hearing his clothes hitting the floor. And the sound of a car pulling up. My opportunity.
"HELP ME! Get me out of here! Please! Help!" I started yelling with all my might, so someone could hear me.
"Shut up!” he yelled at my again, i didn’t let him get to me this time and continued yelling.
"HELP! PLEASE! "
He covered my mouth again, but almost instantly i heard the door of a car shutting.
"is someone there? " I heard someone else say. I was still trying to yell. But the man was still covering my mouth. The steps where getting closer to me, which made the man get up from me. I guess he took his clothes and ran.
"PLEASE HELP ME!” I yelled desperately. "HERE!”
I heard running footsteps coming over to me.
"Oh my god" said whoever was there. "Here Roberts, I need an ambulance. I found a girl" I didn’t pay attention to what he said. He was talking on some radio; I guess he was a police man.
When he finished with his radio, he untied me and took the cloth from my eyes. When I opened my eyes I saw that the officer had a flashlight on his hand. I was on some alley, everything was dark.
"God" he said taking off his jacket and covering me with it.
"What’s your name?”
"Alexandra… Alexandra York"
"All right Alexandra. The ambulance will be here shortly. Everything is going to be okay. Do you know what happened? "
"A man hit me. And when I woke up I was here. And I was tied up" the tears came to my eyes once more. "He started touching me and kissing me, I thought he was going to rape me." I said within cries.
Moments later the ambulance got there. The officer walked me to it.
They took me to the hospital; my head was thumping by the sound of the siren, and the voice of every doctor, paramedic and nurse asking all kinds of questions. I just wanted to forget all about it.
After a lot of questions and tests, stitching my breast and cheek, giving me clothes and getting me to a room, they finally left me alone to get some rest.
I was so tired, physically and mentally. I just wanted to sleep.
It was one in the morning when my mother went inside the room.
"My god Alexandra, I was so scared!” she said to me.
For once in my life I saw my mom actually concerned about me. "Are you all right? What happened? "
She hugged me but I couldn’t hug her back, I had no strength in me.
"Someone tried to rape me" I said flatly, tired of giving the same answer over and over again.
"It’s not posible! Who? "
"I don’t know mom, I couldn’t see him.
"But did you know his voice or something?"
"No mom" I was starting to get angry. "Please just let me sleep"
"But Baby"
"Please" I interrupted her. "Go home, get some rest"
"are you sure?”
"Yeah, just leave me alone"
"okay"
She kissed my forehead and left the room. Telling me she would be here tomorrow.
When she left the nurse came back inside, to check if everything was okay.
"Well darling. I know you want to go home. But you have to stay here for a while. Probably until tomorrow"
"It’s okay"
"Try to get some sleep you look really tired" said the sweet woman, she could be my grandma, with a little smile on her face. "I’m turning the light off, good night"
She turned the Light off and left the room.
The moonlight had half of the room illuminated. Resting on the bed I could only see the ceiling. I turned my body resting on my side. I look at the window, I could see how the light filtered thought it. I felt a cold gush of air. I hugged my knees trying to create a bit of heat.
Suddenly inside of me, I felt something break. I felt miserable. Like I smelt of that man. I started to cry. I wanted him off me.
I don’t know what hurt more, the pain I suffered or losing my dignity. I felt used. I was worth nothing now. I closed my eyes and I still felt his hands over me. I yelled desperately.
The same nurse that turned the light off, had to give me a tranquilizer, just so I could get some sleep. Even with that I could not go to sleep. I closed my eyes, and there was his voice. Over and over again.
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kleenex anyone?