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What's in a name. A story of First Love.
Part 3.5 of 5: The Emails
The Letter I sent to Kate:
~Gifts meant for you~
Hey Kate! Uhm.....let's see.....I've had this topic on my mind for a
while and didn't know what to do with it or rather handle it. I didn't
want to wait cause that'd take years, so I'm doing it through email.
If you don't understand.....yeah, I'll clear it out right now.
Back in 2006, this was when we.......uhm, were together *blush*, I had
gone for the summer to vacation to the Philippines with my family.
When I was there, I was given some spending cash and was SUPER excited
about it, cause I wanted to get a bunch of stuff! BUT....I didn't
really think of myself first, You came to mind.
Now note this was back in 2006, I'm not trying to write this as a get
back together thing through email anything. You have a totally good
thing in Italy going, and I'm still stuck in San Diego. Were world's
apart.....well, back then it was miles......Ahh, getting off topic,
back to the story.
Yea so I thought of you. I thought that when I saw you again, and I
was hoping it'd be on your birthday or even Christmas....,I'd give you
something....something special.*sigh*. I was at the mall looking for
what was the right thing....and then I stumbled onto this doll store.
And I saw it right there in the background. It caught my eyes. I swear
to God I'm not lying, as soon as I saw the monkey, I knew THAT was the
one. I don't know why but It brought out this HUGE overwhelming
feeling that I was meant to give it to you. When I came up to the
cashier, I looked at the monkey and saw there was a small smudge on
it. So I asked her if they had any more of the monkeys. The store only
carried one. I smiled. The idea that this was the last monkey, made it
feel even more special to me. And I thought because it had a smudge,
you might not have wanted it so I promised (I REALLY promised a doll)
that'd I give it the utmost care. And while I was at a different mall,
I checked up this store called the Comic Alley to buy myself some
awesome toys and such. I didn't buy anthing for myself. I saw this set
of Final Fantasy box filled with a ring, necklace, and I believe a
mail cutter. Looking at the Final Fantasy 8 box, with the words on it,
how cool it looked, and how I felt that it "connected to us"....I had
to get it for you. I got myself the FFX one cause it had Tidus'
necklace (Yours has the Lionheart) and a thicker ring so that was
instantly mine. I kept both of them safe and hadn't worn them since.
Well until I decided to wear Squall's necklace to Six Flags this year
for good luck *so sorry.* I decided not wear them until I gave you
yours and thought, Oh how romantic and cool it'd be if she wore her
necklace and ring and I wore mine at the same time.....so yea, it's
cheesy, I know. And the funny part is I still am =P
Well now is 2009. A lot of things didn't go as I hoped. I never really
did see you again... and we both kinda, went our seperate ways. And
since then I've had both the monkey and box in great care.
Alright! Prepare for a LOOOONG story, I hope you love to read cause my
hands won't stop me from writing it. Back when I was juvenile hall
(for a crime I never commited), I was thinking, Ah MAN! it's gonna be
great when I get out. I'm gonna go back to school, join the debate
team, get buff, and finally have the balls to talk to Alisha the
president of the Japan Club so I can make her my girl. Cause whenever
I was in eye contact of her, I got so nervous and just did something
stupid to embarass myself just to get her attention. I'd have my
friend punch me, I'd trip, I'd talk loud..... I suck. Never really
could be myself. Anyway, when I was in Juvie, I grew this new sense of
toughness, more manly. Heheh....my plan was that I'd talk her
everyday, be close to her, and on Valentine's Day I'd give her
chocolates and....A PRESENT! I didn't know what I'd give her, so the
images just stopped and then out of nowhere, I imagined giving her the
monkey....I thought about it...How she'd smile....But it felt wrong. I
didn't like the scene I was painting in my head. THEN I started
thinking about giving the monkey to other girls. I thought, Woah,
something's wrong here, this monkey's soo cute, I'm giving it to all
these hot girls but WHY does it seem so wrong? Then you popped into my
mind. I was lying on my med in Juvie picturing the same scene I
imagined putting the other girls in. The back of my school, Sitting
near a tree, wind blowing.....and as I'm handing you Valentine's
chocolates and reveal the monkey from behind me.....it felt soo right.
I don't know why. Maybe it's cause they were meant for you and only
you. That monkey holds something special from me to you!....*You can't
imagine how I'm feeling writing this. I think I'm gonna cry*, and
after 3 years.....it's still there! I don't know why...
When I got out, and was sent to a different Highschool, I was put
under probation to not use a computer outside of school use. I broke
that rule as I was at my friend's house searching you up on Myspace
using his account cause mine was under government supervision. I tried
sending you a message saying, "Hey how's it going. Um, I've been
meaning to give you something, would you want to meet up? etc.". I was
never able to send you the message cause I had to put your name or
email. I remembered your name, typed it out but for some reason it was
wrong. So a couple months later, after highschool ended, I'm cleaning
up my room, and there I notice the monkey and the Final Fantasy boxes
carefully tucked in my closet. And once again you came on my mind, and
with me having already created a Facebook....I searched you up. That
kinda covers why I added you as a friend out of nowhere all of a
sudden.
It's funny.....I started this email....as just a small thing but here
I am "opening up to you"....Gahd, whats wrong with me.....I had the
thought that'd I give it you when you came back to visit so I could
also hand you my DVDs to borrow but that felt too long of a wait to
hold something I've kept for years. And so I decided upon this. Giving
it to through email. Something in me needed....wanted you to know what
I've been holding for so long....I couldn't wait. I, just couldn't.
We have always been....thing...we've always been far apart. And
whenever we were together, it wouldn't have lasted even a day. I felt
that, once I gave you these in person....We'd have that day. *Now I'm
getting all teary...* It's very cliche, very cheesy, very true. And
It's not meant to have any effect on you. This is just a letter,
right?
I hope you don't find these things as throw away items, and if you do
please don't tell me. They meant.....mean so much to me. I don't know
why, they just do. I'm no freak or anything, I'm not bringing myself
down at all....
I'm simply telling you, These precious items of mine are for you,
always were, and always will be. Try not to find simplicity in them,
cause I haven't in it. There's a piece of my heart in them and I KNOW
that might sound like a joke but it's not I swear to God. I'm freakin
crying.......and I don't know why.
*sniffs* Heh, I bet you didn't expect to come home reading something like this.
P.S. I write truthfully, when I put the "**" Those are ACTUAL
reactions to what I'm doing as I'm writing....and these gifts of yours
will be ready for you take when you come back to visit. ^_^
****************************************************************************************************
Her Response:
aww, chris. that's so nice. actually, it did have effect on me, (believe it or not). i never knew that you thought of me that much.:) i always thought of you whenever it came to final fantasy. the first thing that always popped up was: Chris, and the song, "someday" by nickelback.(it's on my iPod xD). You thought of me, even when you weren't supposed to? oh, chris. i don't know what to say. i'm kinda speechless at the moment. lol. it doesn't matter if i'm in italy or not. there's a thing called "webcam" or "mail" xD you're so silly.
don't worry. ;) i do like to read, and i don't think that this letter is cliche or cheesy, in fact, i think that it's really sweet. i mean, a letter is so not cheesy if the person who is writing it, is actually pouring out their feelings and thoughts. they're not afraid to say what they feel and that's actually brave. xD
actually, i'm saving up money to visit san diego on my own. that's why i'm working. i'm saving money for my visit and part for college. i'm going to study to become a pharmacist and try to work in san diego. :3 i'm hoping that i can visit san diego soon so i could see my cousins, friends, and you.
lol. you're right. i was not expecting this. it came out of nowhere, but it was really nice of you to send me this email. :) i was wondering...if i could have your address so i can actually write you a letter and send you something (secret!!! xD you have to wait!)
~Gifts meant for you~
Hey Kate! Uhm.....let's see.....I've had this topic on my mind for a
while and didn't know what to do with it or rather handle it. I didn't
want to wait cause that'd take years, so I'm doing it through email.
If you don't understand.....yeah, I'll clear it out right now.
Back in 2006, this was when we.......uhm, were together *blush*, I had
gone for the summer to vacation to the Philippines with my family.
When I was there, I was given some spending cash and was SUPER excited
about it, cause I wanted to get a bunch of stuff! BUT....I didn't
really think of myself first, You came to mind.
Now note this was back in 2006, I'm not trying to write this as a get
back together thing through email anything. You have a totally good
thing in Italy going, and I'm still stuck in San Diego. Were world's
apart.....well, back then it was miles......Ahh, getting off topic,
back to the story.
Yea so I thought of you. I thought that when I saw you again, and I
was hoping it'd be on your birthday or even Christmas....,I'd give you
something....something special.*sigh*. I was at the mall looking for
what was the right thing....and then I stumbled onto this doll store.
And I saw it right there in the background. It caught my eyes. I swear
to God I'm not lying, as soon as I saw the monkey, I knew THAT was the
one. I don't know why but It brought out this HUGE overwhelming
feeling that I was meant to give it to you. When I came up to the
cashier, I looked at the monkey and saw there was a small smudge on
it. So I asked her if they had any more of the monkeys. The store only
carried one. I smiled. The idea that this was the last monkey, made it
feel even more special to me. And I thought because it had a smudge,
you might not have wanted it so I promised (I REALLY promised a doll)
that'd I give it the utmost care. And while I was at a different mall,
I checked up this store called the Comic Alley to buy myself some
awesome toys and such. I didn't buy anthing for myself. I saw this set
of Final Fantasy box filled with a ring, necklace, and I believe a
mail cutter. Looking at the Final Fantasy 8 box, with the words on it,
how cool it looked, and how I felt that it "connected to us"....I had
to get it for you. I got myself the FFX one cause it had Tidus'
necklace (Yours has the Lionheart) and a thicker ring so that was
instantly mine. I kept both of them safe and hadn't worn them since.
Well until I decided to wear Squall's necklace to Six Flags this year
for good luck *so sorry.* I decided not wear them until I gave you
yours and thought, Oh how romantic and cool it'd be if she wore her
necklace and ring and I wore mine at the same time.....so yea, it's
cheesy, I know. And the funny part is I still am =P
Well now is 2009. A lot of things didn't go as I hoped. I never really
did see you again... and we both kinda, went our seperate ways. And
since then I've had both the monkey and box in great care.
Alright! Prepare for a LOOOONG story, I hope you love to read cause my
hands won't stop me from writing it. Back when I was juvenile hall
(for a crime I never commited), I was thinking, Ah MAN! it's gonna be
great when I get out. I'm gonna go back to school, join the debate
team, get buff, and finally have the balls to talk to Alisha the
president of the Japan Club so I can make her my girl. Cause whenever
I was in eye contact of her, I got so nervous and just did something
stupid to embarass myself just to get her attention. I'd have my
friend punch me, I'd trip, I'd talk loud..... I suck. Never really
could be myself. Anyway, when I was in Juvie, I grew this new sense of
toughness, more manly. Heheh....my plan was that I'd talk her
everyday, be close to her, and on Valentine's Day I'd give her
chocolates and....A PRESENT! I didn't know what I'd give her, so the
images just stopped and then out of nowhere, I imagined giving her the
monkey....I thought about it...How she'd smile....But it felt wrong. I
didn't like the scene I was painting in my head. THEN I started
thinking about giving the monkey to other girls. I thought, Woah,
something's wrong here, this monkey's soo cute, I'm giving it to all
these hot girls but WHY does it seem so wrong? Then you popped into my
mind. I was lying on my med in Juvie picturing the same scene I
imagined putting the other girls in. The back of my school, Sitting
near a tree, wind blowing.....and as I'm handing you Valentine's
chocolates and reveal the monkey from behind me.....it felt soo right.
I don't know why. Maybe it's cause they were meant for you and only
you. That monkey holds something special from me to you!....*You can't
imagine how I'm feeling writing this. I think I'm gonna cry*, and
after 3 years.....it's still there! I don't know why...
When I got out, and was sent to a different Highschool, I was put
under probation to not use a computer outside of school use. I broke
that rule as I was at my friend's house searching you up on Myspace
using his account cause mine was under government supervision. I tried
sending you a message saying, "Hey how's it going. Um, I've been
meaning to give you something, would you want to meet up? etc.". I was
never able to send you the message cause I had to put your name or
email. I remembered your name, typed it out but for some reason it was
wrong. So a couple months later, after highschool ended, I'm cleaning
up my room, and there I notice the monkey and the Final Fantasy boxes
carefully tucked in my closet. And once again you came on my mind, and
with me having already created a Facebook....I searched you up. That
kinda covers why I added you as a friend out of nowhere all of a
sudden.
It's funny.....I started this email....as just a small thing but here
I am "opening up to you"....Gahd, whats wrong with me.....I had the
thought that'd I give it you when you came back to visit so I could
also hand you my DVDs to borrow but that felt too long of a wait to
hold something I've kept for years. And so I decided upon this. Giving
it to through email. Something in me needed....wanted you to know what
I've been holding for so long....I couldn't wait. I, just couldn't.
We have always been....thing...we've always been far apart. And
whenever we were together, it wouldn't have lasted even a day. I felt
that, once I gave you these in person....We'd have that day. *Now I'm
getting all teary...* It's very cliche, very cheesy, very true. And
It's not meant to have any effect on you. This is just a letter,
right?
I hope you don't find these things as throw away items, and if you do
please don't tell me. They meant.....mean so much to me. I don't know
why, they just do. I'm no freak or anything, I'm not bringing myself
down at all....
I'm simply telling you, These precious items of mine are for you,
always were, and always will be. Try not to find simplicity in them,
cause I haven't in it. There's a piece of my heart in them and I KNOW
that might sound like a joke but it's not I swear to God. I'm freakin
crying.......and I don't know why.
*sniffs* Heh, I bet you didn't expect to come home reading something like this.
P.S. I write truthfully, when I put the "**" Those are ACTUAL
reactions to what I'm doing as I'm writing....and these gifts of yours
will be ready for you take when you come back to visit. ^_^
****************************************************************************************************
Her Response:
aww, chris. that's so nice. actually, it did have effect on me, (believe it or not). i never knew that you thought of me that much.:) i always thought of you whenever it came to final fantasy. the first thing that always popped up was: Chris, and the song, "someday" by nickelback.(it's on my iPod xD). You thought of me, even when you weren't supposed to? oh, chris. i don't know what to say. i'm kinda speechless at the moment. lol. it doesn't matter if i'm in italy or not. there's a thing called "webcam" or "mail" xD you're so silly.
don't worry. ;) i do like to read, and i don't think that this letter is cliche or cheesy, in fact, i think that it's really sweet. i mean, a letter is so not cheesy if the person who is writing it, is actually pouring out their feelings and thoughts. they're not afraid to say what they feel and that's actually brave. xD
actually, i'm saving up money to visit san diego on my own. that's why i'm working. i'm saving money for my visit and part for college. i'm going to study to become a pharmacist and try to work in san diego. :3 i'm hoping that i can visit san diego soon so i could see my cousins, friends, and you.
lol. you're right. i was not expecting this. it came out of nowhere, but it was really nice of you to send me this email. :) i was wondering...if i could have your address so i can actually write you a letter and send you something (secret!!! xD you have to wait!)