Edge of Desire

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“Wake up sleepy head!”

I groaned

She jumped onto my bed and yelled wake up again, I grabbed her legs causing her to fall onto me.

“Ow!”

I laughed and my eyes met hers, “Good morning.”

“Good morning! Hurry up and get ready, we have things to do and breakfast is ready!”

I tucked a strand of hair behind her ear.

She bit her lip and got off the bed quickly.

“I’ll be down shortly.”

She nodded and left the room.

I laid in bed for a few more minutes before getting up to shower.

“Kendall! I said hurry!”

I walked out of the bathroom with just a towel on.

“Oh sorry.” She said as her eyes lingered on me.

“You’re fine, I’ll be down in a minute.”

“A-alright” She said and as she turned to walk out of the room she ran into the door frame.

I chuckled.

Blueberry waffles, my favorite.

“So what are the plans for today?” I asked shoving a piece of waffle into my mouth.

“We’re going to go into the city and make a day of it.” She said with a smile.

“Sounds great.”

We spent the day sightseeing, from Times Square to the Statue of Liberty, it really was an all-day event!

“Let’s go ice skating.” I said as we passed Rockefeller Center.

“No, no, no. I’m awful at it.” She protested.

“Oh come on, like I’m any better. It will be fun.”

“Fine” She said.

I grabbed her hand and led her on to the ice.

“Please don’t let me fall.”

“I won’t.”

Boy was that a lie, we both fell more times than I can count on two hands.

She was laughing hysterically and the next time I fell and I pulled her down to join me.

“You said you wouldn’t let me fall.”

I pulled her closer to me and kissed her.

“I said I wouldn’t let you fall while ice skating, I never said I wouldn’t let you fall for me.”

“Kendall.”

I sighed and helped her up, “Let’s go.”

She was keeping something from me.

It was late when we finally arrived home, I had bought some wine for us that night so I poured each of us a glass and we relaxed in the living room.

“Can I ask you a question?”

“Sure.”

“Who’s Jake?”

“Oh, nobody.”

“Jess”

“He’s just a friend.”

“What kind of friend?”

“Just a friend Kendall, drop it.”

We stood quiet for a few minutes.

“Is he the one you were on the phone with?”

She nodded.

“Are you seeing him?”

“Kendall, come on.”

“It’s a simple question.”

“I said drop it Kendall.”

“Why can’t you just tell me?”

“Yes Kendall, we’re fucking okay. Happy? I’m going to bed.”

I was angry, but more heartbroken, she didn’t want me.

I awoke to a knock on my door, “Kendall” She whispered, “Are you awake?”

I sat up, “Yea, what’s up?”

“Can I lay with you?”

“I don’t think that’s such a good idea.”

“Please?”

I sighed, “Come here.”

She hopped into bed with me and got as close as she possibly could to me.

“Hug me Kendall.”

“Jess.” I said with a frustrated tone.

“Please, I’ll talk you about anything you want to know.”

I sighed again as I wrapped my arms around her.

This girl had me wrapped around her finger.

“I’m sorry for acting the way I did before.”

“It’s alright.” I whispered.

“Kendall I am happy you’re here, don’t think otherwise.”

“Hard not to.”

She sighed and kissed my arm.

“I thought you weren’t ready for a relationship.”

“I’m not in one.”

“Jake?”

“It’s strictly…. you know”

“Why?”

“I told you Ken, I’m not ready.”

“So you can fuck some random guy, but not be in a relationship with me?”

“It’s complicated.”

“Jess how is it complicated, either you want to be with me or you don’t.”

“I do want to be with you Kendall, I just can’t.”

“Why Jess?”

She swallowed hard, “Maybe you were right, this wasn’t a good idea.” She tried to get up but I pulled her closer to me.

“Jess you can tell me.”

She began crying.

“I can’t.”

She got up and ran out of the room, what did I say to upset her? I got out of bed and made my way to her room.

“Jess?” I knocked softly at her door, of course, it was locked

“Jess, please let me in.”

She cracked her door, “Go away Kendall, I don’t need your help and I don’t need you here.”

She closed the door once more.

What the fuck? Why was she treating me this way?

“I’ll leave tomorrow Jess.”