A Physics Prodigy From Ukraine
23.
I didn’t go to school the day after that.
Or the day after that.
Or even the day after that.
To be fair;
That day was Saturday.
I was hardly proactive in extracurricular activities.
Brendon had visited.
But every day I had hidden.
Not under the bed.
No.
That was silly.
I could fit in the laundry basket.
Mum’s wardrobe.
Behind the shower curtain.
It was the most exercise I would get all day.
Getting up to hide.
Then mum would panic,
And Brendon would leave;
I went back to bed.
I went back to bed and slept.
I wasn’t even taking the Sertraline.
I was just tired.
Mum tried to speak.
I wanted to listen.
But I couldn’t do it anymore.
I’d worn myself out.
You can change.
But I couldn’t, I couldn’t.
I was so desperately lost, and I was drowning in tears, and deafened by sobs, and blinded by sadness. I was disappearing in darkness, and for some reason I couldn’t find my way out.
I just kept crawling further into this despair and I was dying and no one cared.
Or the day after that.
Or even the day after that.
To be fair;
That day was Saturday.
I was hardly proactive in extracurricular activities.
Brendon had visited.
But every day I had hidden.
Not under the bed.
No.
That was silly.
I could fit in the laundry basket.
Mum’s wardrobe.
Behind the shower curtain.
It was the most exercise I would get all day.
Getting up to hide.
Then mum would panic,
And Brendon would leave;
I went back to bed.
I went back to bed and slept.
I wasn’t even taking the Sertraline.
I was just tired.
Mum tried to speak.
I wanted to listen.
But I couldn’t do it anymore.
I’d worn myself out.
You can change.
But I couldn’t, I couldn’t.
I was so desperately lost, and I was drowning in tears, and deafened by sobs, and blinded by sadness. I was disappearing in darkness, and for some reason I couldn’t find my way out.
I just kept crawling further into this despair and I was dying and no one cared.