Thin

A week ago, Tom, along with the guys, came to visit me as Oli was gone to Drop Dead. They rushed right in to the flat and Tom ripped the warm blankets from my body as I laid in bed. I continued to stare at the wall as the memory of murdering my chold ate at me.
"Yeh still haven't fuckin' told him?! Why are yeh bein' so selfish?! If yeh love him, yeh need teh tell him!" Tom yelled.

"C'mon, Ally, we love yeh, but yeh wrong about this. Yeh need teh let Oli know." Lee spoke as he sat on the edge of the bed and moved my hair out of my face. I had tears running down my face.

"I can't do it. I love him so much, ye don't understand. This is what will make him snap and leave. We've alreadeh put each otha through enough." I took a deep breath and closed my eyes as I felt the bed since under someone's weight, then a hand on my back.

"Ally, I don't think yeh understand.Yeh not around when Oli talks about yeh. There's nothin' in this world that will make him leave yeh, I promise. If I were in his place, I'd want teh know. I know it's hard love, trust meh, but yeh need teh tell him before it drives yeh mental." Vegan rubbed my back soothingly as he spoke. Jona and Mattie sat down on the bed and agreed.

"Stop fuckin' babyin' her! Look, yeh don't tell him, I will. Imagine how much worse that'd make it." I knew Tom was angry, but I still didn't doubt his words.

I paced the living room, trying to figure out how to word things, as I waited for Oli to come home. I stopped pacing and exhaled deeply as I stared up at the ceiling. There was no possibly way he would ever forgive me for this. I felt like I was going to puke.

I jumped slightly as the door clicked open and Oli walked in. there was a huge smile on his face until he saw how stressed I was. He shut the door and quickly walked over to me.

"Ally, yeh alright?" I nodded my head and moved a few steps away before he could embrace me. I pulled the sleeves of my sweater down over my hands because they were freezing. I raked my bangs back out of my face and gestured toward the couch.

"Yeh might want teh sit down, Oli." I watched as he took a seat on the couch and Oskar curled up on his lap. Oli mindlessly petted him as he stared up at me. I stood in front of him and fidgeted around nervously.

"What's goin' on, Ally?" He gave me a confused look. I started pacing again in front of him.

"Uh, well, I did somethin' bad, somethin' terrible, and I didn't want Tom teh tell yeh and make it way worse, even though it's already pretteh bad, so here we are." I laughed a little nervously as I finished rambling. I stopped pacing once again and faced him.

"Well, what is is, Ally?" I looked down at my still fidgeting hands.

"The first time we had sex, seven years ago, not in the past few weeks, uhm... I..... Yeh got meh pregnant..... Five weeks lata, I...... uh...... had the pregnanceh eliminated..."