Your Love Is the Sweetest Sin
Its destiny, pure lunacy
Sitting on the white covers I look through the window keeping my eyes on the raindrops that slide gently “Sisky, why didn’t you say anything before?”
He’s sitting next to me holding his face between his knees, I wait for an answer, reassuring words that will encourage my love, but these don’t seem to come, “I don’t know if I’m going to make it without you” I manage to say between sobbing, again I wait for an answer, I start to mourn in silence, covering my face with my hands feeling him closer, he places an arm around me, I try to escape his embrace, but he pulls me into his arms and starts singing
"You and me,
Meant to be
Immutable
Impossible
Its destiny
Pure lunacy
Incalculable
Insufferable
But for the last time
You’re everything that I want and ask for
You’re all that Id dreamed”
I look up at him, he holds my face between his hands and wipes away the tears, looking deep in my eyes he continues
“Who wouldn’t be the one you love
Who wouldn’t stand inside your love
Protected and the lover of a pure soul and beautiful you
Don’t understand
Don’t feel me now
I will breathe
For the both of us
Travel the world
Traverse the skies”
Now he takes my hands and places them on his chest, right where his heart is supposed to be and without blinking he sings,
“Your home is here
Within my heart
And for the first time
I feel as though I am reborn
In my mind
Recast as child and mystic sage
Who wouldn’t be the one you love
Who wouldn’t stand inside your love
And for the first time
I’m telling you how much I need and bleed for
Your every move and waking sound
In my time
I’ll wrap my wire around your heart and your mind
You’re mine forever now
Who wouldn’t be the one you love and live for
Who wouldn’t stand inside your love and die for
Who wouldn’t be the one you love”
As I know how much he loves the Smashing Pumpkins I can tell it was not easy for him to do what he just did, but If he did it’s cause he meant every line, every single word and I believed everything, not knowing how to act I give him a smile
“Now you see why I’m just the bassist?” I chuckle and he leans to kiss the top of my head, “Now lets go to bed cause we gotta go to school tomorrow” He lifts the covers and I get under real quickly, he joins me and I cuddle up next to him “Adam?”
“What baby?”
“I’m sorry for doubting you”
“It’s ok, I should’ve told you before”
“I love you Sisky” I twist to fit the mold of his body
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Time flies by, faster than I would like. “Sisky hurry up! The guys are here,” I look through the window and see a van pulling in front of the house. I decided to stay, I think it would be harder to say goodbye if I went to the airport “I’ll go get the door while you finish packing your stuff.”
“Guys I’m going to miss you!” I scream from behind the door.
When I open it Mike tackles me into a big hug that causes me to stumble a few steps "Natty I’m going to miss you!”
“I will too Mike,” Mike was like my older brother, always there for me, giving me advice and making sure I was ok. “Make sure you call me”
"I sure will, and I’ll make your boytoy behave” I giggle and huge him real tight, this is the guy I’m going to miss most, after Sisky of course “You better do” I kiss his cheek
Tom embraces me with affection, “Take care Tommy boy” God this is so hard, I thought I could handle this, but with every hug it’s harder to hold back the tears, I look away so he can’t see my teary eyes “I promise we’ll be back soon” and placing his lips on my cheek he lets me go.
"No hugs for me?” Butcher demands sticking out his lower lip and placing his hands on his hips, I smile at the not so masculine pose “I’m going to miss your randomness Butch” The tears start sliding my cheeks. “Behave yourself and promise me you will eat cookies” I laugh and wipe the tears to kiss his cheek "Eww! Now I have your cooties!" He straightens up and hugs me tight.
I run to William‘s open arms “Don´t be so scared, it’s all for the best, I know” I smile at his lyrics " I will keep my eyes on Sisky for you, It will be over soon, " William says sternly “It’s going to be hard Billyboy” He looses his grip .
I jump to Sisky’s arms "You have no idea how much I will miss you" my dropping tears wet his shirt “It will be hard for me too, I promise I will call” I hate crying but I can’t help it, goodbyes are so difficult specially when all your friends are leaving you behind to do what they’ve always wanted, so I breathe deep and smile “and I promise I will feed Baby and Little girl”
Sisky chuckles “Don’t worry about the snake, Jason will come to take it while I’m gone” We walk to the doorstep, exchanging smiles, he rests his forehead against mine. “I love you Natalie” he whispers before kissing me pecking my lips softly. This is harder than I tought, he starts walking with the guys, they all wave before boarding. I watch without moving as the van disappears between the empty streets. "I love you too Adam" I whisper before going back to the house.
He’s sitting next to me holding his face between his knees, I wait for an answer, reassuring words that will encourage my love, but these don’t seem to come, “I don’t know if I’m going to make it without you” I manage to say between sobbing, again I wait for an answer, I start to mourn in silence, covering my face with my hands feeling him closer, he places an arm around me, I try to escape his embrace, but he pulls me into his arms and starts singing
"You and me,
Meant to be
Immutable
Impossible
Its destiny
Pure lunacy
Incalculable
Insufferable
But for the last time
You’re everything that I want and ask for
You’re all that Id dreamed”
I look up at him, he holds my face between his hands and wipes away the tears, looking deep in my eyes he continues
“Who wouldn’t be the one you love
Who wouldn’t stand inside your love
Protected and the lover of a pure soul and beautiful you
Don’t understand
Don’t feel me now
I will breathe
For the both of us
Travel the world
Traverse the skies”
Now he takes my hands and places them on his chest, right where his heart is supposed to be and without blinking he sings,
“Your home is here
Within my heart
And for the first time
I feel as though I am reborn
In my mind
Recast as child and mystic sage
Who wouldn’t be the one you love
Who wouldn’t stand inside your love
And for the first time
I’m telling you how much I need and bleed for
Your every move and waking sound
In my time
I’ll wrap my wire around your heart and your mind
You’re mine forever now
Who wouldn’t be the one you love and live for
Who wouldn’t stand inside your love and die for
Who wouldn’t be the one you love”
As I know how much he loves the Smashing Pumpkins I can tell it was not easy for him to do what he just did, but If he did it’s cause he meant every line, every single word and I believed everything, not knowing how to act I give him a smile
“Now you see why I’m just the bassist?” I chuckle and he leans to kiss the top of my head, “Now lets go to bed cause we gotta go to school tomorrow” He lifts the covers and I get under real quickly, he joins me and I cuddle up next to him “Adam?”
“What baby?”
“I’m sorry for doubting you”
“It’s ok, I should’ve told you before”
“I love you Sisky” I twist to fit the mold of his body
_______________________________________________________
Time flies by, faster than I would like. “Sisky hurry up! The guys are here,” I look through the window and see a van pulling in front of the house. I decided to stay, I think it would be harder to say goodbye if I went to the airport “I’ll go get the door while you finish packing your stuff.”
“Guys I’m going to miss you!” I scream from behind the door.
When I open it Mike tackles me into a big hug that causes me to stumble a few steps "Natty I’m going to miss you!”
“I will too Mike,” Mike was like my older brother, always there for me, giving me advice and making sure I was ok. “Make sure you call me”
"I sure will, and I’ll make your boytoy behave” I giggle and huge him real tight, this is the guy I’m going to miss most, after Sisky of course “You better do” I kiss his cheek
Tom embraces me with affection, “Take care Tommy boy” God this is so hard, I thought I could handle this, but with every hug it’s harder to hold back the tears, I look away so he can’t see my teary eyes “I promise we’ll be back soon” and placing his lips on my cheek he lets me go.
"No hugs for me?” Butcher demands sticking out his lower lip and placing his hands on his hips, I smile at the not so masculine pose “I’m going to miss your randomness Butch” The tears start sliding my cheeks. “Behave yourself and promise me you will eat cookies” I laugh and wipe the tears to kiss his cheek "Eww! Now I have your cooties!" He straightens up and hugs me tight.
I run to William‘s open arms “Don´t be so scared, it’s all for the best, I know” I smile at his lyrics " I will keep my eyes on Sisky for you, It will be over soon, " William says sternly “It’s going to be hard Billyboy” He looses his grip .
I jump to Sisky’s arms "You have no idea how much I will miss you" my dropping tears wet his shirt “It will be hard for me too, I promise I will call” I hate crying but I can’t help it, goodbyes are so difficult specially when all your friends are leaving you behind to do what they’ve always wanted, so I breathe deep and smile “and I promise I will feed Baby and Little girl”
Sisky chuckles “Don’t worry about the snake, Jason will come to take it while I’m gone” We walk to the doorstep, exchanging smiles, he rests his forehead against mine. “I love you Natalie” he whispers before kissing me pecking my lips softly. This is harder than I tought, he starts walking with the guys, they all wave before boarding. I watch without moving as the van disappears between the empty streets. "I love you too Adam" I whisper before going back to the house.
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He's gone! :'(Comments pretty please =)