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I woke up to the sun shining on my face through the window. I rolled myself out of bed and got ready for the day. I looked in my bathroom mirror, and memories of last night came to me. I touched my lips, and gave off a small smile.

Really, I hadn't planned on anything happening last night, but things did happen. I can't believe I got jealous when that blond bitch got in between Pauly and I. Yes, I'll admit that I had gotten a little jealous. That kiss when we got back though was unbelievable. I was sure my knees were going to go out. I really didn't like having these feelings though. They could lead to something dangerous. I don't want that. I went downstairs to the kitchen, and greeted my grandpa there. Which was rare, because he was usually still asleep or gone to who knows where right now.

"Good morning Grandpa."

"Morning Beanie." I rolled my eyes at the nickname my grandfather has always called me. I don't think I can recall there ever being a time he called me Carson.

"Will you ever stop calling me that?"

"Will you ever stop being my granddaughter?" I smiled and shook my head no.

"Then you'll always be my Beanie." I couldn't help but smile.

I kissed him on the cheek on my way out of the house. I was heading to Randi's for a relaxing girls day. I arrived at her house minutes later to see two other cars in her drive way. She must have forgotten about our plans. I parked my car, and went up to the front door. I went in without knocking. Randi and her family were used to it. I headed toward the living room. I entered it to see Randi, Jared, and Paul. I sighed to myself, and knocked on the banister to get their attention. They all turned to me. Paul's eyes and mine immediately met, but I quickly looked away towards Randi. She was avoiding eye contact altogether. Aha! She had forgotten about our plans. She was going to get an earful from me later. I sighed and went over and sat beside her on the couch.

"You forgot." I said in a monotone voice. I could see her nod. I sighed and got up, even though I had just sat down.

"Well I'll be leaving then." I got up to go, but Paul stopped me.

"Hey Carson can we talk really quick?" I nodded, and he followed me into the other room.

"So, about the other night.." He started off, but I stopped him there.

"We're not going to be together or anything." He nodded.

Does anything phase this man? I thought to myself.

"So where does that kiss leave us then?" I thought to myself for a minute. Then I had a brilliant solution come to me. Well it may not have been brilliant, but it was a solution.

"F.W.B." He looked at me questioningly.

"Friends With Benefits." I gave him a big smile. He looked at me like I was crazy.

"Are you sure that's such a good idea?" I nodded. I got close to him. I ran my hands up his chest, and grabbed him by the neck and pulled his lips to mine. I gave him a quick peck on the lips. I pulled away, but only far enough that when I spoke our lips still touched.

"What? You don't want to be my F.W.B.?" He sighed and shook his head. He pushed me away a little, and paced a little in front of me.

"It's not that, I just don't think this is the best thing to do."

"Let's go talk more about this at your place, because I think we have eavesdroppers here." I said with a smirk. We went around the corner to see Jared and Randi scrambling over each other, so that it didn't look like they were listening in. I couldn't help but laugh at the two.

"We're leaving." I announced as we left Randi's house.

I followed Paul in my car to his house. I parked behind his car, and followed him into his house. I made my way to his couch, and he started pacing in front of me again. I finally could no longer take his pacing, and so I stood up and stood in his pacing path. This stopped him, but only for a second before he figured out the path around me. I sighed and made my way back to the couch. I plopped down, and watched as his pacing continued.



This was not a good idea. I was trying to ignore this woman, and she was here proposing the idea of being friends with benefits. Last night should have never happened in the first place. Just her being my imprint made the plan to stay away from her so much more difficult. I was pacing with these thoughts going through my head. I saw from the corner of my eye just staring at me, watching me as I paced. I finally stopped my pacing and just stood there. We couldn't do this. I wouldn't do this. I turned to Carson, and saw that she was right there. Her arms were instantly around me, and her lips were on mine. I couldn't resist the urge to kiss back. Her lips moved to my neck, and I could feel myself about to moan. I quickly pushed Carson away.

"I'm sorry. We can't do this." I walked back to my room, and shut my door. I made sure it was locked for extra measure, this girl was really stubborn. After about a couple hours I was sure it was safe enough to leave my room. I went back out to the main room, and saw that she was still here. I sighed and shook my head. I went over to my couch, and sat beside her. She lifted my arm, and cuddled into my side.

"I don't want to be with you, but I don't want to not be with you. So I thought F.W.B would be the next best thing." I looked down to her, and sighed.

She got in my lap then, and looked me square in the eyes. This time it was me who was leaning in to kiss her. When our lips met there was no hesitation from either of us, and nobody pulled way. I wrapped my arms around her waist and hers came around my neck. I moved down to her neck. I heard her moan. I laid her down on my couch, and she went to lift my shirt off. I didn't stop her either. The urges within me were too powerful. I ripped her clothes off and she gave no objection either. She in turn ripped my pants off. This surprised me. Her strength was practically getting better everyday. I went back to her lips and sucked on her bottom lip. She was moaning into my mouth. She took her lips down to my throat, and that's when I noticed we were both completely nude. I stopped everything then. I looked down to Carson, and she stared back up with me. She gave me a small smile.

"Are you sure about this?" She nodded. I proceeded on.



I woke up to movement beside me. I looked down to the beautiful girl in my arms. Carson.

I sighed and shook my head. Even though I had thoroughly enjoyed what we had done, I couldn't help but think that this would lead to nothing but trouble. I had to finally admit it to myself that this girl was my imprint, and that being friends with benefits wouldn't be enough for me. I sighed and carefully got off the couch.

I picked up Carson and carried her back to my bedroom. I laid her down then went and took a shower. When I came back Carson was still sleeping. I decided to get back into bed with her. I slowly wrapped my arms around her, and she snuggled closer into my chest. She fit so perfectly to my form, it was hard to argue that we were meant for each other. I sighed enjoying this moment, because what I had learned so far about Carson was that this probably wouldn't last, and if I talked to her about anything more than this then I would probably loose her. I fell asleep with my imprint in my arms. I was happy, and that was something that I hadn't been in a long time.