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Make It out Alive
Texan Tales
When Spencer and I checked into the hotel, I wheeled myself into the room, pushing myself out of the wheelchair and into the bed, I didn't even bother to take off my shoes, just putting my back to Spencer and burying my face in the pillow.
He placed a hand on my back, but I winced away from him. I sobbed into the pillow, my lung in agony as I took every breath.
My father had touched nerves that had been dead for years. I had buried things, and now they were rearing their heads once more. I sobbed for awhile, and when I couldn't cry any longer, I found Spencer sitting in a chair next to the bed, merely watching me with the expression of complete anguish. I pushed myself into sitting up, and patted the spot beside me.
He smiled sadly and sat next to me, cautiously opening his arms to me. I scooted closer. I placed my ear over his heart, hearing it beat calmly.
"You want to talk about it?" He asked.
"Not particularly," I answered. "Let's just watch a movie."
We decided on a romantic comedy that seemed acceptable. When a rather adult scene came on, I felt color rise in my cheeks, and hid my face in his chest. Spencer kissed my head, turning off the movie. His long, cool fingers traced a pattern on my hip.
"Er, Spence?" I said meekly.
"Yeah?"
"I've never been, well, I've never willingly, I've never been intimate with another person that I wanted to be with," I confessed awkwardly.
His voice was a bit higher than normal, meaning he was uncomfortable. "I'm not exactly experienced either. I'm a, well, I've never. I'm a virgin."
"You can't really call rape experience," I muttered.
"I won't make you do anything you don't feel completely okay with," he assured me.
"It wasn't just my father," I said after a moment.
"What?" He asked, his arms tightening slightly around me.
"High school boys are cruel when they know a single touch can paralyze you in fear," I breathed. His arms wrapped tightly around me, resting his chin on my head.
"I love you, Polly," was all he said.
I sighed. "I love you too, Spence."
He placed a hand on my back, but I winced away from him. I sobbed into the pillow, my lung in agony as I took every breath.
My father had touched nerves that had been dead for years. I had buried things, and now they were rearing their heads once more. I sobbed for awhile, and when I couldn't cry any longer, I found Spencer sitting in a chair next to the bed, merely watching me with the expression of complete anguish. I pushed myself into sitting up, and patted the spot beside me.
He smiled sadly and sat next to me, cautiously opening his arms to me. I scooted closer. I placed my ear over his heart, hearing it beat calmly.
"You want to talk about it?" He asked.
"Not particularly," I answered. "Let's just watch a movie."
We decided on a romantic comedy that seemed acceptable. When a rather adult scene came on, I felt color rise in my cheeks, and hid my face in his chest. Spencer kissed my head, turning off the movie. His long, cool fingers traced a pattern on my hip.
"Er, Spence?" I said meekly.
"Yeah?"
"I've never been, well, I've never willingly, I've never been intimate with another person that I wanted to be with," I confessed awkwardly.
His voice was a bit higher than normal, meaning he was uncomfortable. "I'm not exactly experienced either. I'm a, well, I've never. I'm a virgin."
"You can't really call rape experience," I muttered.
"I won't make you do anything you don't feel completely okay with," he assured me.
"It wasn't just my father," I said after a moment.
"What?" He asked, his arms tightening slightly around me.
"High school boys are cruel when they know a single touch can paralyze you in fear," I breathed. His arms wrapped tightly around me, resting his chin on my head.
"I love you, Polly," was all he said.
I sighed. "I love you too, Spence."
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