Once Again

I sighed as I looked out the window of my condo home that looked out to the beach below. I watched as the waves crashed into the shore, making little children and teenagers squeal in excitement as they ran away from the waves. As I watched this unfold before me, I couldn't help but remember. Remember when things were so simple for me. When I was with the love of my life surrounded by our crazy, yet lovable and caring friends. I was suddenly brought out of my thoughts by the sound of little feet walking my way. Turning, I looked down and smiled at the small person standing before me.

"Mama, I'm hungry," my baby girl said, looking up at me with those hazel eyes. Eyes that she inherited from her father.

I smiled at my baby and extended a hand towards her.

"Then let's get something yummy in that tummy."

Ember giggle as she placed her small hand in my own before heading into the kitchen. As I lifted my daughter up to get her seated into on of the stools on the island, I couldn't help but smile in seeing her hazel eyes brighten in excitement in seeing how high up she was. Placing a kiss on her forehead, I walked to the other side of the island,towards the stove, and got the ingredients out to make her a grilled cheese sandwich.

As I was just flipping the sandwich to its other side, my cell phone began to ring. Reaching into my pants pocket, I pulled out my iPhone 4S and looked at the screen. I smiled in seeing who's picture popped up.

"Hello nurse," I said as I answered my phone and placed it on speaker.

"Hey sexy. How are you and Ember doing?" my gay best friend and secretary asked.

"I good, uncle Billy!" Ember called out.

I laughed along with Billy.

"I should have known I would be on speaker," Billy said around a giggle.

"Well, of course. What else would you have expected?" I asked as I got out a plate.

Billy just laughed before saying," Well, the reason I am calling you is because there is a band in dire need of a new manager. Their old one quit on them and they heard from a little birdie that you are the best of the best."

I laughed and shook my head," Billy, I don't know if I'm the best."

Billy scoffed at what I said before saying," Honey, you ARE the best of the best. Your going on tour with H.I.M this summer. You manage so many bands, sometimes all at once, and you don't even break a sweat. Now, you have to promise me now that when I mention the name of this band, you will not back down whatsoever."

"Alright," I said with a sigh," I won't back down when you mention the name. Now what is it?"

There was a moment of silence before he said," Avenged Sevenfold."

In the mention of that name, my breathing stopped and my heart rate sped up. Looking over my shoulder, I saw my baby looking at me with curiosity filled eyes.

"Emmali?" I heard Billy's voice call out to me.

Looking back at the stove, I shut it off before sliding Ember's sandwich on the plate. Grabbing a knife, I cut it diagonal before placing it before my daughter. Ember thanked me before digging in.

"Emmali? Are you still there?" Billy's voice called out, full of concerned.

"Y-Yeah," I choked out," I'm still here."

"So," Billy said slowly," What are you going to do?"

I looked down at my counter, not really looking at it. Do I really want to see the man that tore my heart apart?

"Yeah," I finally said, taking a deep breath," I'll do it."

"Good," Billy said in relief," Oh! And I was told my a specific drummer that you better bring his god-daughter along too."

And with that, Billy hung up. My phone beeped, indicating that he sent me the time they were going to be coming in. Sighing, I placed my elbows on the counter before placing my head in my hands. I cannot believe I agreed to this, I thought as I ran my hands though my naturally red, burgundy, hair. I should have known something was up, but I couldn't back out now, that'll make me look weak.Sighing, I scratched the back of my head before taking a deep breath and standing straight before looking at my daughter.

My daughter. My baby girl. The one thing that kept me in this world. That kept me sane. Aside from her, her godfather also kept me sane. When he found out what my baby's father did, he really, with out a doubt and hesitation, knocked the shit out of him before coming to see if I was alright. That's when he found out I was pregnant. Ember's godfather stayed with me and helped me out throughout the whole thing. Hell, he was even there in the hospital, along with the rest of the guys, excluding Ember's father, and was the one who cut her umbilical cord.

"Mama?" Ember's little voice hit my ears.

Taking another deep breath, I looked over to see that her hazel eyes, eyes that were so much like her fathers, looking at me with concern.

"Yeah baby?" I asked, smiling at her.

Ember smiled back, making the dimples that she also inherited pop out," What we doing tomorrow?"

Sighing, I ran a hand through my hair and said," We're going to see you godfather and your uncles."

Ember squealed in excitement and bounced in her seat before going back to eating.

I hope things go alright, I thought as I took a seat beside my baby.