Its my mistake, so don't say sorry

Sorry
what a word...
what does it mean...
it means
forgive me please I wont screw your life again
now if everyone used the word knowing this meaning you'll get your ass kicked
why the hell would someone forgive you after you screwed their life up huh?

then why the hell did I think he would forgive me
why didn't I move on
Why can't I move on......

I am a human
a living thing
that keeps making mistakes after mistakes
why would you want to be a human then
your just hurting people and especially yourself

Things happen
everyone understands
except me
cause i make a mistake and end up doing it again
who the hell wants a friend like that

I don't mean do cause anyone shit
it is an innocent mistake

if your reading
I don't want you guys to make an impression of me of
what a ass hole

please don't think that

i am a 15 year old girl who scared of life and can't handle it without friends

My best friend or sorry
used to be my best friend
he was amazing
I can tell him everything and
damn it i just regret it
but one thing I didn't do is

I didn't walk away you pushed me way
to far.........................I might not know how to get back