Your Pain Is What We Desire

It has been a whole week since I started Nightmare Academy, and my classes have been the same. Zacky and I haven't really converted, so it was very awkward in 1st period. Jimmy and Charlie had both became my new best friends, I'm always talking to them. But right now it was supposed to be third, and I was chilling back behind the fitness building, between the wall and the fitness building. They only way you're able to get to it were through bushes. I found it on Sunday when I was having a morning jog around the campus; try to avoid Shadows who also jogs. There is quite a few cigarette butts just lying on the ground so I figured it was the best place to smoke.
I was about halfway through my second smoke, when there was rustling through the bushes to my left. I flicked the cigarette into my mouth and closed it. I sighed in relief when I saw a pair of Chucks. I flipped the smoke back out of my mouth, between my teeth, and grabbed it with my hand.

"Aren't you supposed to be in class?" Zacky asked.

"Yes."

"Then why aren't you there?" Zacky raised one of his perfect eyebrows.

"Because, M. Shadows hates me." I said, as I took a drag off my Camels

"I see, well I'll let it slide this once. But promise me that you'll not cut class." He looked at me dead in the eyes. He had gorgeous eyes, blues and greens.

"I promise, I'm sorry Zacky."

"Good! So how did you find this place?" He asked, he pulled out a pack of Marlboros and placed one in between his lips. He pulled out a brass Zippo lighter and lighted it.

"Just Sunday when I was jogging, it's nice." I shrugged.

"Yeah, this is actually my secret hiding spot. I come here when I need peace and quiet." He took quite a long drag. He was sexy, no doubt about it, and those lips were absolutely tempting. With the silver rings, encircling his full bottom lip.

"Oh I'm sorry, if I knew I wouldn't have used it as my own." I looked down to my hand that has the cigarette.

"It's OK. You aren't bothering me, and I quite enjoy sitting here with you." He smiled. "Plus I thought I told you to cut back." His eyes shot towards the smoke.

"I was, I am! I'm still on my first pack." I blushed.

"Uh-huh. Don't let Shads catch you." He shrugged.

"I promise you that!" I smiled then doust the cigarette on my Chucks, and wrapped my arms around my knees. Then after that, there was silence. "So Jimmy and Professor Johnny stopped by last week." I said; I swear I could see a tint of jealousy in his hazel/blue eyes. But I by passed it.

"What for?" He asked.

"Well I think they were doing their rounds, and saw that Charlie and I were watching Harry Potter and they both decided to watch it, with us." I shrugged.

"Oh so what are you doing tonight?" Zacky met my eyes, once more.

"Nothing, as far, as far as I know. Charlie is going on a date and yea… I don't know." I shrugged, as I watched him doust the burning butt into the dirt.

"That's funny, 'cause Gates is going on a date too. You don't think? No!" He and I laughed. "Well he told the guys and I that he went to see Sweeney Todd, the same night. Jimmy was talking about it, and he just blurted about his date last Wednesday and all that."

"You don't think?"

"No!" We both said.

"Hey what if Charlie and Gates are together? And maybe they were the couple making out?" I said.

“I doubt it. Gates very uptight about the rules." Zacky smirked.

"You have a point there." I smiled.

Zacky looked at the watch that was wrapped around his wrist. "Well it is almost fourth, which means we both have to get to class." He smiled. "Meet me behind your dormitory, after dinner."

Then he left, I just stared at the bushes he went through. 'Did he just ask me on a date?' I thought blankly; a smiled formed upon my face, I was as giddy as a school girl. I felt as if I could fly, do back flips etc. Maybe Jimmy was right, and that it could happen. I know that it is illegal and extremely scandalous but it won't matter. I mean loom at Hugh Hefner, he is eighty-something and he has three or four girlfriends, who are all under the age of twenty-five; so it should be OK. God who am I kidding, it would still be illegal. I thought about all the possibilities on the walk to Photography.

"Lizvett!" I heard my last name called; I turned around to see Shadows stalking up towards me, and let me tell you, he didn't look happy. "Lizvett, you weren't in in my class today, where the hell where you?" He glowered down at me.

"I was helping Coach V. with something." I lied, technically.

"Don't lie to me." He hushed his voice to a slight growl. I simply just stood in front of him, in silence. "I shall ask Coach Vengeance. Now, get your ass to class!" He yelled, and pointed towards the. Photography class. I shot him a dirty look then walked to class.

Sixx was sitting at his desk editing some of his photos on Photoshop. I had finally filled up a roll of film, so now it is time for me to go into the darkroom and develop it. I stepped into the revolving door which sealed off any light. Once I got into the darkroom, I could smell the solutions and chemicals. I could also hear the sound of the flowing water from the rinser. I placed my canister into the film box, sealed it off, the stuck my arms into the armholes. I uncapped the roll of film, placed it in a roller then into a fluid canister, then sealed the cap on it. I took it out of the film box and put in non-diluted solution inside the canister, and left it for five minutes.

After I got all of the photos that had developed properly, cut and straightened up, I walked out of the dark room. I sat at my computer staring at the black and white pictures of Zacky, Jimmy, Charlie and I. Some were of Mufasa, or Malenko. Then my favorite one is the one I got of Shads, when he was lifting weights in the weight room. There pictures came out amazingly. I was hella excited for tonight; I honestly couldn't wait to see what Zacky was up to.

When the bell rang I put the photos in an envelope with my name on it, except for the pic of Jimmy's ass. I took that one and put in it my bag, then turned in the others. The reason why I have that photo is because Jimmy was waving it in my face, so I took a picture. He wasn't happy about it at first and then he laughed it off.
It was now time for lunch; students grabbed their lunch and sat at a table. The teachers were sitting at the head table, eating, converting, and keeping a weathering eye on the students. The first half of lunch I kept feeling as if someone was watching me. I turned around and see a pair of icy blue eyes boring into me. He had long black hair, past his ass. Black kohl eyeliner encircled his eyes and mouth. He was like a young, very familiar, creepy Ozzy. I turned around and started eating again. I still felt his eyes boring into my back all the way until the bell rang. Now that lunch was over, I walked to English class awkwardly, feeling as if I was being followed.

For the rest of the day I haven't seen Zacky or Jimmy, I was bummed. So after classes, I just sat in my, dorm reading Wicked Nights, till 'bout five when I have to get ready. Charlie left for her date around four. When it was time for me to get ready, I picked out an outfit, and then jumped into the shower. In the shower, I washed my hair with VO5 Strawberry Crème shampoo and conditioner, and then scrubbed my body with Vanilla scented body wash. Once I got out, I wrapped a towel around myself then to the mirror. I brushed my teeth then began to sweep powder foundation on my cheeks and forehead. With my eyes thickly outlined with eyeliner and pink tinted lip gloss sheared across my lips, I was done with my makeup. With my hair, I just put mouse in it then let it dry. I put on my 'Pretty Boy Floyd' tank top over a lacy black cami; black skinny jeans with Zombie blue platforms heals. Before I walked out the door, I put my cellphone, lip gloss and keys in my pocket. Then I grabbed my Tripp trench coat, and off I go down to the mess hall for dinner.

Through dinner, I could feel that same eerie feeling I had gotten during lunch; I looked around the room, but I couldn't find the guy that was staring at me. I look up towards the faculty table; I couldn't find Zacky, and also Professor Gates. 'Hm... What if Charlie is dating Gates." I thought, as I finished up my potatoes.
As soon as I finish my food, I got up and left the mess hall to behind the Dorms. The night was cool, and the sky was starry with only a dim crescent moon shining, so technically it was quite dark out here. I could hear an owl hooting off in the distance, and the wind rustling through the trees. I was partially to where Zacky and I were supposed to meet, when I heard someone or something behind me. "Hello Indika." I turned to the source of the voice; it was that familiar guy that was watching me during lunch. "I've been watching you, quite intriguing isn't it, I've disappeared to this school and you end up coming here, what are the odds." He chuckled maliciously.

"Do I know you?" I said in a monotone.

"Oh dear, poor, little, naive Indi. You don't remember your own fiancee? I'm crushed." He shot a wicked grin.

"Zayden? But I thought--" I was puzzled and scared.

"You thought they sent me to a reformatory. Well guess what honey, they sent me here." He paused, "You look good, so sexy, so tempting. How could you do this to me, such a tease." He stepped closer.

"Leave me alone Zayden." I spat.

"Come on honey, It's a wonderful night." He grabbed my arm, with quite a grip.

"Get you god damn hands off me." I pulled his hand off me, then kneed him where the sun don't shine, he knelt down with a grunt. I turned away and walked, suddenly I was tackled to the ground with a body on top of mine. Zayden grabbed the waist of my pants and yanked then down for the ankles, revealing my underwear. I felt the tears streaming down my cheeks.

"Mm...Your ass is so luscious." Zayden laid a hard smack across my bum, causing it to sting, and welt. I screamed loudly, before a hand went across my face.

"Shut up, you don't want old man Shadows to see your bare ass." He placed his mouth upon my neck. I started to scream even louder when I heard him unbuckle his belt and unzip his pants, with his knees holding me down.

~Zacky~
I waited where Indi and I were supposed to meet. I looked at my watch it was 7:20, twenty minutes late, and I was getting worried. "Hey Zack, what are you doing here?" Matt said, walking up to me.

"Just patrolling." I shrugged.

"Oh I see." I heard something else. "You know Zacky--"

"Shh... listen." I heard it again, it was screaming, Matt looked at me wide eyed. "Come on!" I ran to the opposite direction Matt had come. Around the corner I see someone being raped. Matt ran ahead of me and pulled the guy off, who had his pants to his ankles.

I ran to the side of the girl, she was on her stomach; I carefully flipped her around, to see that it was Indi. The emotions flooded me were confusing, I wasn't sure what came first: worry, anger or jealousy. "Zacky." She mumbled.

"You fucking ass!" I was angry; I got up and grabbed the boy by his hair and landed a huge punch to his cheek, and continued this process.

"Zacky! Zacky! Calm yourself. Take care of her, I'll take him to the head master." Matt pulled handcuffs off his belt and cuffed the boy. "C'mon Mr. McKenzie, you are in serious trouble. He pushed the boy to the main building.

"Zacky." Indi mumbled, I felt the sadness and the tears are at brink in my eyes. I took off my hoodie, draped it over her and picked her up in a sort of bridal style. Small tears began to fall down my cheeks, as I carried Indi to the infirmary.

"I'm sorry Zacky." She mumbled.

"Shh...Don't talk, save your energy." I told her, she had tear stained cheeks.

When I got to the infirmary, I laid her on the bed then called a doctor. I took off her shoes and coat, then covered her with a thick blanket. I sat in the chair that was sitting next to the bed; with her hand in mine, and just sulked. I don’t know what it is, this girl makes me a different man, she truly is something, and that asshole guy had to do this to her. She is so amazing, and she doesn't deserve this, at all. I hope Nikki and Matt give him the worst punishment that is ever imaginable.

"Zacky how is she?" Johnny walked into the infirmary.

"Hi Johnny." I wiped my eyes with the back of my hand, "how'd you find out?"

"Matt. Jimmy's on his way, he is really worried." Johnny sat on the other bed.

"OK." I felt a tear trying to break free, but I wiped it away.

Johnny took a deep breath, "You really care about this girl, huh?"

"Yeah, I guess I really do. I don't know why, but Indi makes me feel like I'm floating." I mumbled.

"It is love Zacky. You know Zacky, Matt may not approve of this."

I averted my eyes to Indika's sleeping form. "I know, shorty. But I love her." The doors swung open and in walked Jimmy flailing his arms around. The doctor was hot on Jimmy's trail.

"Okay, you gentleman need to leave. I've got to examine her." The doctor said, I didn't want to leave Indi's side. "I will let you know when I am finished.” She placed a hand on my shoulder.
Johnny walked out into the hall first, and then Jimmy, I stood there a moment, before being dragged out by Jimmy; we waited out in the hall for the doctor to finish up examining Indi.

I began to pace, until Jimmy placed his hand on my shoulder, "Dude you are wearing out a hole in the floor. She is going to be OK, and I know Nikki is taking a hella good care, of that asshole." Jimmy smiled meekly. I heard faint footsteps getting louder. I turned head to see Nikki and Matt walking with bleak Expressions. Upon their faces.

"What happened?" I urged.

"Calm yourself Baker. The kid had a restraining order against him from her, from two years ago. So now he is in Jail. The police had come and got him a few minute ago. But tomorrow they are going to investigate more." Nikki said.

"Yeah, the kid gave me one hell of a fight, but I've gotten it taken care of." Matt interjected. "Is she OK?"

"I'm not sure, I hope she is though." I mumbled. Then there was more footsteps, down the hall was Miss Vaghn running with Brian walking behind her.

"Oh My Gosh! I just heard! Is Indi OK? OMG!" I hope she is, she's like my best buddy!" Charlie was babbling furiously. I could see Nikki looking at Brian with his eyebrow raised. Brain smirked meekly, and then turned his attention way towards Charlie.

"Just hold on a moment, the doctor will come out and tell us what the situation is." Johnny said.

"It's fucking obvious! Indi had gotten raped, that kid has another thing coming! Indi didn't deserve this!" I had cracked.

"Zachary Baker! Get a hold of yourself man! What the hell is wrong with you?" Matt yelled in my face.

"I'm sorry Matt." I looked at my feet.

The door to the infirmary opened slowly, and the Doctor emerged. "Miss Lizvett is up and awake, I gave her a contraceptive to prevent any pregnancy. Even though it looks like her hymen isn't torn--"

"Which means?" Matt asked.

"She is still a virgin." The doctor rolled her eyes.

"Oh--I knew that." Matt's cheeks had gotten red.

"Other than that, she has a swollen lip and she is a bit shaken up." She looks at me, "It's a great thing you had gotten there in time, or that boy would have done some serious damage."

"Thank you." I lowered my eyes.

"I must be on my way, you may see her now. She's been asking for a Zacky." The doctor left.

I walked into the infirmary, every one followed me. Indi was propped up with pillows staring off into space. "Indi?" I mumbled, she turned to look at me, with watery green eyes boring into me.

"How are you?" I asked softly, everyone was standing a few feet away.

"I'm OK I guess.” She shrugged.

"Miss Lizvett, that boy is in custody right now, and the police will come by tomorrow to question you." Nikki interjected.

"Thanks, I guess."

"We will let you rest. You may stay here for the night if you wish." Matt said, and then turned to
walk out of the room. The others followed, I was the last of them before I past the threshold, I heard my name.

"Zacky, can you stay for a moment?" She asked.

"Yeah, of course." I turned back around and sat in the chair.

I sat there for a little over a few minutes before she said something.

"Zacky, I want to that you for being there when you were. Or Zayden would have gone much further." She grimaced, when she had spoken his name. "I was terrified, and I couldn't do anything about it, it was awful." Tears began to spill from her eyes. I got up and sat next to her on the bed, and wiped the tears with my thumbs.

"It's not your fault, Indi. McKenzie shouldn't have done that to you." I palmed her face.

"I know Zacky, but once Zayden sets his mind on something, he'll never stop until he gets what he wants. It's like a god forsaken nightmare." Her voice dropped to a near whisper.

"Don't worry Indika, he will never hurt you again. As long as I'm alive." I stated as I looked directly into those dazzling green orbs. Before I knew it, she had thrown herself at me, and enveloped her arms around my torso, burying her face into my chest. I was shocked at first, but then I just placed one hand on her back, and the other caressed her hair. Her two-toned hair was beautiful and soft, the black and purple wavy tresses where silk under my touch.

I only wish I could make her happy. I should have never let this happen, this is my entire fault. I shouldn't have asked her to meet me there. I should have met up with her at the Great Hall doors; I am so stupid.

"You should get some sleep Indi, you look tired." I released my soft grip, and lifted a small, meek smile.

"I'll try, I just...am quite scared." She mumbled.

"I'm always there for you Indika." I hugged her again then turned out the lamp that was sitting on the side table near the hospital bed.

"Good night Zacky." I heard her say before I left the room.

It has been a long night and I didn't want to sleep, I am way to worrieed about Indi. This girl means allot to me; I'm not sure why, she just does. It's like I have too. Jimmy could be right, I may be in love with Indika Lizvett. It is so wrong, Matt and Nikki has a very strict No relations with Students policy. And I am a man known to follow rules. So I just lay in my bed, staring at the ceiling until I drifted off the a eventful slumber.

"Zacky—y... Zacky—y!” Indi’s voice sang melodically.

“I’m here Indi!” I answered back. I was standing in a white chapel sermon room. A coffin was placed in front of the podium, the pews were empty. I walked slowly down the aisle, with my hands in my pockets. Once I reached the coffin, the lid was shut, placed atop the white enameled lid, was Indigo Iris petals, scattered and torn.

“Zacky! Zacky—y!” Her voice was louder; I reached out and wrapped my stark white fingers around the lid handle; my bottom lip trembling, as my eyes fixated on the lid of the casket. I lifted it slowly inch by inch; I inhaled deeply, and choked on a sob. There lying peacefully in the casket was Indi in a black dress with lacy Juliet sleeves. A mirror covered the other half of her face. She had smoky charcoal eye shadow dusted over her lids, and bright vibrant red lipstick, which contrasted on her grayish skin. She looked beautiful. I felt a single tear slide down my cheek, as a hard lump knotted itself into my throat.

Suddenly her eyes opened and she smiled maliciously, her arms raised to where here whiles hands where on the rim of the casket. “Zacky—y!” She said; she threw her legs over the edge and propped herself up, and stood on her toes in a ballerina stance. She was wearing silk, black, wrap around ballet shoes on her feet. I looked up to her face and see that half of it was torn away. So all I see was her right side, full lips and the left part of her cheek, forehead and eyes where a skull. The sight of her had taken the breath out of my chest. “Zachy—y! Look at me, Zachy, you did this. If would have stopped Zayden, and not let him attack me, I would still be alive. This is all your fault Zachary Baker. You killed me.” She frowned. She reached into the soft bedding of the coffin, and retrieved a large sharp Chef’s knife. “And now, I have to kill you!” She raised her arm, wielding the knife, blood began to leak from her tear duct. I backed away; now piled up on the pews were a bloody massacre, of bodies dressed in black.

The boys were there, alive, with blood on their hands and clothing. “Matt! Matt! You’ve got to help me!” I cried grabbing the lapels of Matt’s jacket.

“You should have never fallen in love with her. You knew it was wrong, but you did it anyways Zachy.” Matt’s voice was sheer monotone, the corners of his mouth turned up into an evil smirk. In his hand was a blood crusted, rusty butchers’ knife. The other four guys each raised their hands revealing assortments of red stained kitchen knives and straight razors.

“It was wrong Zachy, It was wrong Zachy!” The six of them came towards me, with their arms raised, fingers curled around the hilt and handles of the knives. Each of them hand a malicious grin upon their faces. I began to back up, and kept backing up. My back slammed against the door of the sermon room. I quickly turn around, and tried to jiggle the handles, but the door won’t budge. I let out a bellowing yell, and those menacing people came towards me. They were just about to come after me with the knives, as I watched in horror—”

I shot out of that horrible nightmare, cold sweat dripping down my spine. That was by far the scariest dream ever. Indi was dead, and murderous. Like almost a Zombie ballerina. And Matt and the boys, as he slaves in command. “That must be one hell of a dream.” I head a familiar voice, it caused me to scream and jump; before I realized who it was sitting on the foot of my bed, cross-legged.

“Jimmy!” I glowered at him. “What in god’s name are you doing here?”

“Well, I couldn’t sleep, like I tried everything! But then I heard you screaming, and be obviously thinking that you were in trouble, cause that’s just how I am; well any ways I walked down the hall, to your room, and since I have a master key, I opened the door and see you calling Indi’s name, and you were freaking out.” Jimmy explained.

“Well that doesn’t explain why you are still here?” I folded my arms.

“Well, you looked pretty funny. So I stayed and watched.” He shrugged.

“That’s a bit stalker. And how did you get a master key?” I raised my eye-brow.

“Well, I got a hold of Matt’s key and made a copy before the school opened.” Jimmy smiled.

“Uh huh…” I rolled my eyes.

“So can I stay with you?” He asked, practically begging.

“I don’t know… It’s been a long night.” He shot me his signature puppy dog eyes. “Fine!” I sighed.

“Yay! Sleepover!” Jimmy squealed.

“Please! Don’t! Do that again!” I growled.

“Ok!” He grinned. “So tell me about this dream of yours?”

I began to tell Jimmy about the dream, every single detail, how the pews where empty when I walked in, then they were filled with bloody bodies. How the boys became mass murders, and how Indi blamed me for killing her.

“—And that’s when I woke up and saw you.” I finished telling Jimmy my dream.

“Well it’s obvious that you are in love with Indi, and maybe you are seriously upset and scared about what happened last night... Then maybe you should confess your love to her." Jimmy stared at me all wide eyed.

"And you're not drunk?" I raised an eyebrow.

“Hehe, OK maybe a little smashed!” Jimmy grinned sheepishly.

I just rolled my eyes, “You are seriously nuts, Sullivan.”

“Why thank you!” He smiled then laid his head on the pillow next to mine, and then we both just drifted to a deep sleep.