We'll Be Each Others Saviour

When I woke up, I was on the couch, head throbbing. The world spun around me and I could barley breathe. I slowly tried my best to sit up and saw Andy, Jake and Jinxx staring at me. "Are you okay," Jinxx asked as he pressed his cold hand against my forehead. I nodded slowly, "Yeah," I lied. "You sure, buddy? You look like you're about to faint. ...You're all pale," Jake said as him and Andy tried to push me back down. "I've gotta go get Destrey," I said softly. "CC went get him. We came to help you pack for tour, but we might have to cancel with the way you look," Jinxx said as he walked to the kitchen. I finally stopped struggling with Andy and Jake, forcing me to lay down again. Jinxx came back with a wet towel and placed it on my head. "We need to get him out that leather. It'll make him sicker," Jinxx said. Jake made a face. "What? We're just gonna help him take off his pants, take off his vest, and put him some PJ pants," Jinxx said. I never knew Jinxx cared enough to do that much.


"Daddy! You okay," Destrey said as he gave me a huge hug. "I'm fine," I said as he gave me a quick hug. "You need more sleep, Ash," CC said with a sigh. I shook my head, "I've tried. I just can't fall asleep," I said as Jinxx gave me another cold towel. I winced at the coldness of it. "Des, go get me a Jack," I asked. "No," Andy said from his place on the rug. He was sitting crisis-cross, watching a movie with Jake. "Why not," I asked, offended. Everyone knows you never tell Ash he can't drink. "You'll get sicker," he said as he leaned against Jake's shoulder. This is what we mean when we say we're brothers. I roiled my eyes before the medication Andy gave me took over and I was out.

When I woke, I felt a little better. I could walk around without the world spinning, but now I was constantly cold. I had on what seemed like all my winter clothes to keep from shivering. "You need to go to the doctor," Jake kept saying, but I just ignored it.

At about Mid-day. They decided they would all do two hours with me. Andy said he would take nights, making sure I didn't die or something. Which, to me, was just stupid. I walked outside where they put they dogs, Destrey following. It was Andy's turn and he would not stop talking about how it was my fault we couldn't go to tour tomorrow. "I'll be better. I promise," I kept repeating, but guess who didn't listen.

"Are you ready for tour," Andy smirked. "Yeah...uh, Marcy said I'll take Destrey when I'm home and She'll have him when I'm touring. I'm just happy she let me meet em'." I chuckled. "Are you too...together," He asked with a sad smile. The conversation was awkward. It had that weird atmosphere where you can tell one just didn't care about the other. I could feel the hurt threading to pour out my eyes. In his eyes I could see nothing. Nothing at all. "Well, yes. But, I really don't fine it's gonna last long," I said, swinging my feet, hands in my jacket pockets.

That night got more and more awkward as It went on. Destrey and I played video games while Andy took his shower. Which I lost. "Can't believe I lost to a 7 year old," I whisper shaking my head as I turned on the warm water. I looked in the mirror and was shocked at my reflection. No color in my face. I looked as pale as I do with my make-up on! My eyes were red, sweat covered my forehead, and my hair looked like I haven't washed it in weeks. I looked down and there was a photo of Andy and David. Andy's nuzzled in his neck while David smiled sweetly. My face broke as I cried quietly as best as I could. "You're hurting me Andy," I whispered. He left that so I knew he didn't love me anymore. I just knew it.

That night we called for pizza and I explained how I was going to visit my mother that next morning. Destrey smiled, while Andy just looked at me shocked.


I woke up the next morning and made sure both me and Destrey looked nice. This would be the first time I've seen her sober in years. I was extremely nervous. While Destrey ate his breakfast, I stared at Andy's sleeping face.I couldn't help but give him a kiss with all my love for him into it. I could tell he would wake up right after. For all I knew, he was awake, he was just pretending to be asleep. I thought I even felt him kiss back for a moment. I pulled away and whispered, "Thanks for the goodbye kiss...finally,". I kissed his forehead and went to the bathroom to fix my hair so I wouldn't think about the kiss. It just seemed like he was...awake.

Andy woke to see everyone here fully dressed. David insisted on coming. I just shrugged as he pulled Andy's confused self in the bathroom. You could hear their moans and Andy's yelps from downstairs. Which we all tried to ignore. I was just...hurt that he had the nerve to do it in my house just to rub it in my face. I hate them both. Well, I hate David. I only hate Andy at certain moments.

We finally got to the hospital on the tour bus, but I became extremal scared. We picked up Marcy earlier, and she looked absolutely slutty. Which, I obsessively liked. "M-maybe we shouldn't do this...," I said as I was pushed out the door. "Ash, you need to make it up to your mom," Jinxx advised. I shook my head, "No, she hates me enough," I said shakily. I was NOT. And I repeat NOT stepping in that door. "Ash, you gotta try. You want her to die hating you," Andy said as he helped them try to pull me to that front door. I never thought I could hold all of these people back. "No," I said. "Then go in that damn door," Andy said.

When we got to the room, I slowly knocked before walking in. My moms smile couldn't have made me happier. "Ashley! Come in, come in," she smiled. She looked so weak. She looked so fragile. I could see my dad in the corner. CC shrieked when he saw him. Yeah, he looks a little scary. "Why's dad here," I said as I stood by her bed and everyone crowded the room. "He came to visit isn't that great," she smiled. My dad's face changed completely when he realized who I was. "Ash," he said happily as he ran to me. We din;t give a handshake, but that loving family hug most people get all the time. My eyes watered and I could hear my dad, and my mom crying. "We haven't been in the same room in years," My dad said as he hugged me tighter. "I know...," I sobbed. He pulled away and I couldn't help but smile through my tears.

"There's someone I want you both to meet," I said as I pulled Destrey closer. "My son...has a child...with that," my dad asked. I nodded. "Well, at least you found it in your heart to trust her after what happened," he said with a sigh. I just nodded, leaning against the wall as mom and Marcy talked about Destrey happily.

When we left, everything was sorted out and we were all pretty much problem free for the moment. We dropped off Marcy and Destrey, dropping off David in the process. But, when we dropped off Marcy, that same boy she cheated on me years ago was waiting for her. "Marcy...," I said shocked, "You did it again" I screamed. "Yeah, I forgot to tell you...I'm done with you," she smiled. I ran back to the bus, Tears in my eyes as I ran back on. "What happened, bro," Jake said as he stood. "M-Marcy...Sh-sh-she," I stuttered. My heart was just plain shattered. "She," Jinxx asked. "She...cheat-cheated on me again," I said as I started heaving. The guys have never seen me this broken. They had no idea how to help. "It'll be okay, Ash," Jake said as he gave me a friendly hug.

That night, everybody went eat but me. I was still heartbroken. I had been in my bed for about three hours now crying. Andy came to help, but he only made it worse. "You did it too!," I shouted. "But, I didn't mean too," he smirked. "Just get out," I said as I tried to calm down. "Hey you're not the only hurt one!," Andy shouted, "David broke up with me! You don't see me crying," He yelled. That just broke the fucking line. "I don't care about you and David. I know you're over me. Don't lie. I heard you having sex in my house," I shouted back. He had nothing to say to that. He left soon enough, and I was left alone to drown in my own tears. Soon enough, I was tearless and fell asleep against the soaked blankets.