Unholy Confessions

The sun rose over the glittering water,signaling morning...I had been at the beach, sitting by the shoreline,for nearly 9 1/2 hours,trying to clear my head & figure out what I was gonna to do.The boys had gone out drinking last night and Val & Gena were too buisy getting their drunk asses home,to bother checking on me.Adult or not,if they knew I had been out all night,I'd be in for some serious trouble..

My problem at hand,was I had nooo clue what was I gonna say to Jimmy the next time I saw him...It's not like I could just avoid him.That man was at my house almost all the time(which isn't a bad thing in most cases)..Maybe Jimmy would forget everything that happened...And maybe hell would freeze over!Two things that would most likey not happen..

Meaning,I'm screwed.

I sighed heavily and brought my knees to my chest,resting my head on them..Maybe some shut eye would help..I was exhausted..My brain was too fuzzy from sleep deprevation,to come up with anything.Not that it helped much when I was wide awake..I shook out the sand from in between my toes and stood up,feeling my knees pop and crack.Holy crap,was I sixty?Ugh,I was becoming an old woman..I turned to leave & I nearly jumped outta my skin when I did!

"Holy Hell!"I gasped,clutching my chest.Standing about 10 feet from me was Jimmy.. He was the last person I expexted to see right now..And the last person I wanted to see right now...

"You just about gave me a heart attack!"

"Sorry,didn't meant to."he chuckled.

"Umm...what are you doing out here?"

"I could ask you the same thing.."Touche..

After a moment of intense staring,he gave in."I woke up on the living room floor,after Brian kicked me off the couch.I tried to go back to sleep,but couldn't.So I downed three cups of coffee,took a shower, then went to check on you.."he began, shifting his feet."But when I poked my head in your room,you weren't there.I searched the entire house and couldn't find you.So I grabbed Matt's keys and was going to go look for you,but as soon as I got to the garage,I looked up and seen you sitting out here...Just wanted to come and see what you were doing on the beach at almost seven o'clock in the morning.."Jimmy explained..

Crap..I didn't wanna lie to him.Lying was something I was not capable of ,nor good at doing.

"Well?"he asked,crossing his arms..

"I just had...alot on my mind.."See,not a lie.The complete truth..

"Why?"Damn...Uuum..

"Just do..from stress,ya know..."Ha!Once again,not a lie!

"Uh huh..I see...how long have you been out here?"

"Since about 9 something last night."

He looked wide eyed at me."You've been out here all night!?"

I nodded."Yea..So what?You guys left at 5,stayed out till 4 a.m and came home plastered..I got bored.."

"Yes,but we weren't some young,beautiful girl,sitting by herself at the beach in the middle of the night,where some pyco could have easily taken you and raped you."

I couldn't help but laugh at that."Ha!That's a little extreme,don't ya think?"I searched his face for a hint of humor,but found his expression void of it..He was completly serious.

"Oh.. you're serious?"

"Yes I'm serious!"he shouted,taking a step closer."I know you think your super human,or some shit,but news flash,your not..."

"Jimmy,I-"

"No Leigha,I don't wanna hear your excuses!Could you imagine,if Matt came home,and found something
had happened to you?He would never,never forgive himself!And neither would I.."I raised an eyebrow.

"You-"

"I'm serious Leigha..You're an adult.So act like one for once and think of someone other then yourself.You're so selfish!"

Was he serious right now?Me?I'm selfish!

"Selfish?Selfish?I'm selfish..Fuck you bro!"I spat,stomping past him.

"That's it Leigha,throw a tantrum like a 3 year old.It's what your good at.."Uugh!The nerve of that fucker!I had half the mind to punch him in his fucking face!

I spun around and glared at him.

"What.the.fuck.is your problem?!" "You,you are my problem."

"Oh really?"

"Yes really.You have been acting like a bitch to me the past couples days."

"Excuse me!"I was utterly insulted."I've been a bitch?"

"Yes.."

"Right,and you have been a fucking saint!"

"What the hell have I done?"

"I could ask you the same question!"

"You could ask what I've done?"

"Shut up,you know what I meant!"

"Do I?"He was seeeriously pissing me off.

"Jimmy stop!"

"Stop what?"

"You know what?!I haven't done anything to you!"

Jimmy scoffed,leaning his head back while doing so.

"So you didn't scream in my face last night and the night before?I would say that's being bitchy.I didn't do anything to and you just totally act like you started your period!"

"Screw you!"

"Go ahead.."

I froze.."....what?"

"You heard me.."

"G-gross,I,I don't want to screw you.."lie "That's just nasty.I mean for goodness sakes Jimmy,you're not even actractive."lie."You've lost your mind if you think I want you like that."lie.."Please,pssh,as if.."

Jimmy smirked at me..a smirk that freaking sent shivers up my spine..

"Who are you trying to convince?Me...or you..."

"Are you fucking bi-polar?"

"Are you?"I groaned loudly.

"Are we back to this again?"

"I don't know are we?"

"Jimmy!"I shouted,overly annoyed.

"Leigha.."

"Stop!"

"Stop what?"

"That!"

"What?"

"That!!!Stop turning everything I say into a damn question!"he smirked that sexy smirk again..

"What do you mean?"

"AAHHHHHH!!"I shouted,pulling at my hair.He was driving me nuts..Why was he...Wait...........thaaat
fucker!..He was just trying to get a rise out of me.

"You son of a bitch.."

"What?"

"You fucking asshole!You've been fucking playing me this whole time!"

"Whatever do you-"

"Oh don't give me that,you know damn well what I mean!"

Yet again,he smirked at me.Then laughed maliciously..

"That thing about you acting bitchy to me is true,but I knew why..It took a minute for it to click,but
after last night,It finally did....."

Mo-ther fucker...

"What clicked?I don't know what you're talking about,Jimmy."

"Ha!Bull.shit."I rolled my eyes and started walking away.

"Whatever."But before I got very far,Jimmy grabbed me by the hips and spun me around into him.My heart was pounding like a mother fucker gazing up into those crystal blue eyes..Everything inside of me quivered,as his grip on me tightened.I was desperatly trying not to let it show.This jack ass wasn't going to get the reaction he wanted from me.

"You know exactly what I mean.."his voice was barely above a whisper..

"Tell me you don't want me...."

"Jimmy I-"

"Tell me you don't need me....."my legs were growing weaker by the minute..fuck he was sexy..I could
just...mmm..

"Tell me...you don't love me."his low voice was growing husky..

I was speechless..How was I suppose to react to that?

He smiled and leaned in.His lips so close,I could feel his hot breath.I closed my eyes and prepared for
the thing I've been waiting a life time to do...But that fucker ruined it,the moment I heard him giggle.My eyes shot open as he was pulling away. "Mmhhm..That's what I thought."he grinned like an idiot as he headed back for the house.

If I could move,I would've knock his ass out!But for some reason,I immobile..My stomache was doing so many sommersaults,I could have thrown up...What the hell did he just do to me?

"Jimmy..."I called breathlessly..He turned around for a brief moment to wink at me,before continuing on his way.

The moment he was out of sight,I dropped to my knees,shaking like a leaf...No matter how much it affected me,I knew that attitude like the back of my hand.. There's only one person he could have learned that from...Brian..I was going to kill them both if it was the last thing I did....