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I Have a Daughter?
Miss You
When we got home that night I went straight upstairs. I was really tired and just wanted to sit at the window and look out into the night sky. I sat down under the window and looked up into the night sky just like I did last night. I got up and grabbed my guitar and notebook and wrote down the song for my passed mother. I picked up my guitar and looked down at the words written on the paper and began to play and sing out the words.
I miss you
Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
And we'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends
I miss you, miss you
I miss you, miss you
Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick, strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted the webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight?
Stop this pain tonight
Don't waste your time on me you're already the voice inside my head
(I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already the voice inside my head
(I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already the voice inside my head
(I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already the voice inside my head
(I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already the voice inside my head
(I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already the voice inside my head
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
I ended the song and looked up to see Matt in the doorway. He was smiling at me and I couldn't help but blush. I set my guitar down and he came over and sat down in front of me.
"Storm that was amazing! You have a real talent."
"I'm okay. I wouldn't call it a talent." I said looking down at my hands.
"You are gifted with a beautiful singing voice and amazing playing ability on the guitar. I think you could take Syn." I shook my head and laughed. I knew I wasn't as good as him.
"Alright. Let's see....Do you know Beast And The Harlot?" I nodded.
"Play it and I'll tell you. I'll sing it okay." I nodded and picked up my guitar. I began to play and he sung the entire song. I was mesmerized by the way he sung and it was oddly familiar to me. It kind of sounded like me but in a guys voice. I smiled as I ended the song.
"See you are way better then him." he said and I seen the door open.
"Who's better than who?" Brian said and I laughed.
"What's so funny?"
"Oh nothing." I said winking at Matt. Brian looked so confused but I couldn't help but laugh.
"Anyways, Val said everything is ready so come down and eat." he said before leaving the room. Matt took my hand and lead me down the stairs. I sat down at the table with all the guys and ate the delicious food. I finished up my plate and set it into the sink and waited for everyone to be done so I could help Val do the dishes. When all the guys finished, the guys went into the living room.
Val! Storm! We're starting a movie okay!" Matt yelled.
"Alright!" Val yelled back. I helped her put away the rest of the clean dishes and we walked into the living room. I walked passed Brian and he pulled me down onto his lap. I sat there watching the movie until my eyes grew heavy and I fell asleep cuddled up into Brian's shoulder.
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I felt each thud as my body hit the ground over and over and over again. I knew my ribs were hurt and my legs were broken but all I wanted was to save my mother. I crawled down to the car and seen her mangled body and I knew I was too late. I propped my back against the car and watched as the paramedics came down to the wrecked car and checked on me but I told them to get my mom first. I already knew she was dead but I wanted a trained professional to tell me.
The funeral service was amazing. I stood off in the distance and watched the people who knew her put flowers on top of her casket. The people all started to leave and I just stood there looking down at the casket as it was lowered into the deep 6 foot grave. I held my head up high and did know what I should do. Should I go down there and pay my respects or just leave it alone all together?
I sat up quickly in bed and the sweat poured off my forehead. I wiped it away with the back of my hand and I knew I wasn't getting back to sleep now. I looked over at the clock and it was 3 in the morning. I sighed and walked into my bathroom and slung cold water on my face. My complexion was haggard and I knew I needed to make peace with my mother. I need to tell her the things I never got to tell her when she was alive. I walked out of the bathroom and exited my room and went into the living room and sat down on the couch.
The darkness covered me and I just thought about my mom. Why did she leave me this early in life? Was I destined to find my father this way? No one would be able to answer those questions. Even if someone could, I wouldn't be able to believe them. I got off the couch and went into the kitchen and grabbed me a soda and sat down at the bar in the dark. The dark is something I loved to be in. Dark represented my dark past of my mother's death in such a horrific event.
I looked up at the clock on the microwave and it was now 6 am. I looked out the window and seen the sun rising so I went back up to my room and grabbed my cigarettes and headed outside. I sat down on the porch watching the sun rising over the horizon and breathing in the most generous stress re-leaver. I heard the door open and looked up at Brian.
"What are you doing up so early?"
"I've been up since 3 this morning." I said inhaling the cigarette.
"What for?"
"Nightmares." I said simply.
"Oh...of your mother?" I nodded and flicked my cigarette into the driveway. I pulled out another one and offered one to Brian. He took it and I lit mine and his.
"Usually my nightmares wake everyone in the house. Several times my foster parents or Jack and Jason but mostly Jason had to come into my room and wake me up because I was screaming." I said taking a puff off the cigarette.
"That's crazy."
"Yeah I know but I cant control my dreams. As much as I wish I could I just cant." I said looking down.
"I know." he brought me closer to him and kissed the side of my head. I knew Brian is my dad's best friend but it felt so right being at his side. I know I haven't known Brian for very long and I've messed up his relationship with his now ex-girlfriend Michelle but I really think I'm starting to fall for him.
I miss you
Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
And we'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends
I miss you, miss you
I miss you, miss you
Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick, strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted the webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight?
Stop this pain tonight
Don't waste your time on me you're already the voice inside my head
(I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already the voice inside my head
(I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already the voice inside my head
(I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already the voice inside my head
(I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already the voice inside my head
(I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already the voice inside my head
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
I ended the song and looked up to see Matt in the doorway. He was smiling at me and I couldn't help but blush. I set my guitar down and he came over and sat down in front of me.
"Storm that was amazing! You have a real talent."
"I'm okay. I wouldn't call it a talent." I said looking down at my hands.
"You are gifted with a beautiful singing voice and amazing playing ability on the guitar. I think you could take Syn." I shook my head and laughed. I knew I wasn't as good as him.
"Alright. Let's see....Do you know Beast And The Harlot?" I nodded.
"Play it and I'll tell you. I'll sing it okay." I nodded and picked up my guitar. I began to play and he sung the entire song. I was mesmerized by the way he sung and it was oddly familiar to me. It kind of sounded like me but in a guys voice. I smiled as I ended the song.
"See you are way better then him." he said and I seen the door open.
"Who's better than who?" Brian said and I laughed.
"What's so funny?"
"Oh nothing." I said winking at Matt. Brian looked so confused but I couldn't help but laugh.
"Anyways, Val said everything is ready so come down and eat." he said before leaving the room. Matt took my hand and lead me down the stairs. I sat down at the table with all the guys and ate the delicious food. I finished up my plate and set it into the sink and waited for everyone to be done so I could help Val do the dishes. When all the guys finished, the guys went into the living room.
Val! Storm! We're starting a movie okay!" Matt yelled.
"Alright!" Val yelled back. I helped her put away the rest of the clean dishes and we walked into the living room. I walked passed Brian and he pulled me down onto his lap. I sat there watching the movie until my eyes grew heavy and I fell asleep cuddled up into Brian's shoulder.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I felt each thud as my body hit the ground over and over and over again. I knew my ribs were hurt and my legs were broken but all I wanted was to save my mother. I crawled down to the car and seen her mangled body and I knew I was too late. I propped my back against the car and watched as the paramedics came down to the wrecked car and checked on me but I told them to get my mom first. I already knew she was dead but I wanted a trained professional to tell me.
The funeral service was amazing. I stood off in the distance and watched the people who knew her put flowers on top of her casket. The people all started to leave and I just stood there looking down at the casket as it was lowered into the deep 6 foot grave. I held my head up high and did know what I should do. Should I go down there and pay my respects or just leave it alone all together?
I sat up quickly in bed and the sweat poured off my forehead. I wiped it away with the back of my hand and I knew I wasn't getting back to sleep now. I looked over at the clock and it was 3 in the morning. I sighed and walked into my bathroom and slung cold water on my face. My complexion was haggard and I knew I needed to make peace with my mother. I need to tell her the things I never got to tell her when she was alive. I walked out of the bathroom and exited my room and went into the living room and sat down on the couch.
The darkness covered me and I just thought about my mom. Why did she leave me this early in life? Was I destined to find my father this way? No one would be able to answer those questions. Even if someone could, I wouldn't be able to believe them. I got off the couch and went into the kitchen and grabbed me a soda and sat down at the bar in the dark. The dark is something I loved to be in. Dark represented my dark past of my mother's death in such a horrific event.
I looked up at the clock on the microwave and it was now 6 am. I looked out the window and seen the sun rising so I went back up to my room and grabbed my cigarettes and headed outside. I sat down on the porch watching the sun rising over the horizon and breathing in the most generous stress re-leaver. I heard the door open and looked up at Brian.
"What are you doing up so early?"
"I've been up since 3 this morning." I said inhaling the cigarette.
"What for?"
"Nightmares." I said simply.
"Oh...of your mother?" I nodded and flicked my cigarette into the driveway. I pulled out another one and offered one to Brian. He took it and I lit mine and his.
"Usually my nightmares wake everyone in the house. Several times my foster parents or Jack and Jason but mostly Jason had to come into my room and wake me up because I was screaming." I said taking a puff off the cigarette.
"That's crazy."
"Yeah I know but I cant control my dreams. As much as I wish I could I just cant." I said looking down.
"I know." he brought me closer to him and kissed the side of my head. I knew Brian is my dad's best friend but it felt so right being at his side. I know I haven't known Brian for very long and I've messed up his relationship with his now ex-girlfriend Michelle but I really think I'm starting to fall for him.
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