Thinking Of You
"How many girls have you been with?" I asked, and he laid his head on mine with a sigh.
"Too many to count..." he finally said, and I squeezed my eyes shut for a second.
"Do you always drink?"
"And smoke... Yesterday at school, I was drunk. That's why I was a huge asshole. I'm sorry."
"That's not good... You should stop that."
"It's hard. You're the first girl I've never had sex with at a party. I'm such a bad person, but it is hard."
"Why do you do this?"
"It keeps the pain away."
"What pain?"
"My parents are divorced, my brother died in an accident years ago... My mom never knows about any of this. She thinks I'm her perfect little angel, but she doesn't know I lost my virginity when I was fourteen, and have been getting with girls once a week since."
"Am I just another one?"
"...No. You seem more special." he said hesitantly, then kissed my head.
"I don't want my heart broken."
"I know... All I can say is I'll try."
"Is that good enough?"
"No. But after tonight, if you're not mine it's gonna kill me."
"Do you know what this will do to him though?"
"But... I don't care. I don't care about anyone anymore."
"Then maybe you won't really care about me."
"Krys, whenever I saw you, I knew I had to make you mine. You're all I care about."
"Why me?"
"I couldn't tell you. But after I saw you stand up for yourself and everything. I don't know, you're a total hard ass. I knew getting you to be mine wouldn't be easy."
"If you know this isn't gonna be easy, then why try?"
"I need a challenge that will give me a reward worth loving."
"That's not me."
"Why say that?"
"Someone like you can't be in love."
"You're right. I haven't been yet. But maybe I could fall for you." he whispered, then kissed my head. I closed my eyes, then wrapped my arms around him.
"Too many to count..." he finally said, and I squeezed my eyes shut for a second.
"Do you always drink?"
"And smoke... Yesterday at school, I was drunk. That's why I was a huge asshole. I'm sorry."
"That's not good... You should stop that."
"It's hard. You're the first girl I've never had sex with at a party. I'm such a bad person, but it is hard."
"Why do you do this?"
"It keeps the pain away."
"What pain?"
"My parents are divorced, my brother died in an accident years ago... My mom never knows about any of this. She thinks I'm her perfect little angel, but she doesn't know I lost my virginity when I was fourteen, and have been getting with girls once a week since."
"Am I just another one?"
"...No. You seem more special." he said hesitantly, then kissed my head.
"I don't want my heart broken."
"I know... All I can say is I'll try."
"Is that good enough?"
"No. But after tonight, if you're not mine it's gonna kill me."
"Do you know what this will do to him though?"
"But... I don't care. I don't care about anyone anymore."
"Then maybe you won't really care about me."
"Krys, whenever I saw you, I knew I had to make you mine. You're all I care about."
"Why me?"
"I couldn't tell you. But after I saw you stand up for yourself and everything. I don't know, you're a total hard ass. I knew getting you to be mine wouldn't be easy."
"If you know this isn't gonna be easy, then why try?"
"I need a challenge that will give me a reward worth loving."
"That's not me."
"Why say that?"
"Someone like you can't be in love."
"You're right. I haven't been yet. But maybe I could fall for you." he whispered, then kissed my head. I closed my eyes, then wrapped my arms around him.
- There was a new girl in town
- Some days, they taste like lemonade
- All the boys are alive
- You're just a daydream away
- I think I'm caught in between
- The more you treat me cruel, oh it just adds fuel to the fire
- I didn't know, I never even saw it comin'... I'll wait all my life
- Girl, you know my love is alwasy on your side
- I'm caught up in you, and I don't know what else to do.
- I don't want anybody else if I can have you all to myself
- Just sneak out and don't tell a soul goodbye
- Cause you, a feeling I can't deny
- Your mother, she thinks that this is just a phase, I think that we should run away
- We had a good run, even I have to admit
- Best friends, ex friends till the end
- Party like It's not your birthday
- Sunlight, sunshine, all for you my daisy
- You look so cute when you get that mad
- That language your body's speaking, it makes me sick
- The story of your life is so twisted
- Do you want me, or do you want me dead?
- This is the end of you and me
- Call me crazy, but I'm thinking to myself that I can't do this anymore
- Kind of tragic that I left your side
- I'm ready to be sure that I never become that way again
- I fought you for so long, I should have let you in
- I'm flesh and bone, I'm a rolling stone
- Adding up all the days spent wasted
- Miss Flack, said I still want you back
- Kiss me like it's Christmas, hold it 'til we're breathless
- Who could deny these butterflies? They're filling his guts.
- Please don't let me go, I desperately need you
- Let's get these teen hearts beating faster, faster.
- With lust in my eyes, I'll be undressing you with every word
- If you ask me if I love him, I'd lie
- As pages fall, my heart falls too
- My friends are a different breed
- I'm losing the best of me
- I'm not coming back. I've done something so terrible, I'm terrified to speak...
- I hurt you again, I shouldn't lie tonight, so the next few words are true...
- We take sour sips from life's lush lips, and we shake, shake, shake the hips in relationships.
- I still get those stupid butterflies, but it's just what you do.
- Someday, Somehow, I'll make it home and I, I'll stick around.
- Oh, you're not alone, you still have a home
- I'm dead set on a getaway
- Words cannot describe how much I miss you.
- I'll build a to rocketship just to take me where you are.
- You need him, I could be him.
- The look on your face could light up a room...
- Say goodnight, don't say goodbye 'cause in the morning we'll... We'll see you around.
- I've fallen over you
- I know I'm not your favorite record
- I wanna see your face and know I made it home
- You're electric, I can't get over it
- If I were to pluck on your heart strings would you strum on mine?
- Livin in the radio, lost in the stereo sound
- Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
- I love her half to death, but she's killing me.
- I'm feeling you, are you feeling me? What exactly is holding us back?
- Time to lay claim to the evidence