once.
o1.
today i stood in the bathroom
stared at every little piece of me, the distended tummy, the fat hips
the way my chest just hung, didn't look normal
and i shook my head as i glanced downwards
only once
maybe more acidic, maybe burned my throat
a shot of whiskey up instead of down
but it was the best burn in years
but i think that only once will turn into something more than once
because food tasted better the second time than the first.
stared at every little piece of me, the distended tummy, the fat hips
the way my chest just hung, didn't look normal
and i shook my head as i glanced downwards
only once
maybe more acidic, maybe burned my throat
a shot of whiskey up instead of down
but it was the best burn in years
but i think that only once will turn into something more than once
because food tasted better the second time than the first.