Physical Therapy

Roxy’s POV

After Jordan left I said I was tired and that my family should go get something to eat and go home for the night. I wasn’t tired at all I just wanted to know what the envelope had in it and wanted to be alone like he said. I ripped it open and pulled out the letter addressed to me.

Dear Roxy,

I am having Jordan write this letter for me so I can explain this the best way I can. I just want you to know how much I love you and would do anything for you. I miss you so much and the only thing I can think of is the last two times I saw you. One was the hurt look on your face with tears running down your cheeks and the other was you unconscious laying in a hospital bed and broken because of me. It kills me inside knowing I did this to you and if I could take it all back I would in a second.

What happened that day can be explained I just hope you listen and believe me. Before we got together, you know I had a girlfriend. Back in August I found the perfect Christmas gift for her back in Russia. I had it put on hold and when the time was right I had it set up to be delivered to her on Christmas. After we broke up and then we got together I forgot all about it and forgot to cancel it. So getting that call the other day was as big of a shock to me as it was to you. I should have cancelled it when we broke up and before we got together. I am such an idiot and I hate myself for putting you through all of this.

I really hope you understand but I wouldn’t be angry if you never wanted to see me again. I get it and I am so sorry.

I Love You So Much,

Ev

By the middle of the letter I was crying but by the time I finished it I was bawling and couldn’t believe how stupid I have been. I needed to talk to someone but it couldn’t be Jordan or my sister. I needed Geno but I didn’t know how to tell him I am sorry. I didn’t care I just needed him with me. I picked up the hospital phone from the bedside table because it was closer and dialed his number I memorized by heart and waited for him to answer.

“Hello?” I heard him answer

I couldn’t talk so I just sobbed into the phone for a few seconds.

“Roxy, that you?” he asked and I could hear the hope in his voice.

I cried and whimpered before say three words “I need you”

I heard shuffling and I knew he was getting his coat on and getting in his car. “I’m comin baby, hang on”

“I’m so sorry” I sobbed

“Shh baby, we talk in person” he said but never hung up the phone. I heard him try to sign in to come see me but they stopped him like I asked.

“Let me talk to them” I said and I talked to the nurse, she let him back and soon he was standing in the doorway with the phone still against his ear. As soon as I saw him I really broke down, dropping the phone, and crying harder than ever before.

“Baby” he said as he came into the room and shutting the door. He took off his jacket, scarf, and beanie before sitting next to me on the bed. I tried to throw my arms around him but the tubes, casts, and wraps on my body didn’t allow that, not to mention the pain.

“Will you lay with me?” I asked

“Of course” he said and we got situated. We laid there for about 20 minutes before he whispered “I miss you” and kissed the top of my head.

“I am so sorry, I didn’t let you explain” I said before he interrupted

“No, shouldn’t happen in first place” he said

“No I assumed the worst and never gave you a chance. The first thing in my mind was Ryan and what he did to me” We were quiet for a few minutes “I really liked my flowers”

“Good, I missed you” he said again

“I missed you too and I was so mad at myself because I thought you were screwing around on me” I said

“I wasn’t and I never will” he said and it brought tears to my eyes.

“I know and I always have deep in my gut I knew you would never do that to me. But when I heard her voice my insecurities came out and I doubted you.” I said and tried to get more comfortable but I bumped my ribs. I let out a hiss and sat up.

“Are you okay?” he asks and sat up with me

“Yeah just really sore” I said and took some deep breaths.

“It hurts me to see you like this because of me” he said and put his head in his hands.

“Your fault? No this was my fault” I said

“I should have stopped you”

“I should have stayed and listened” I said back

“Okay, both fault” he said

“Yeah it was”

“Promise me something?” he asked

“Anything”

“Never leave in middle of fight again” he says and looks me dead in the eyes. With that look I saw how scared he was.

“Never” I said back “As long as you do the same”

“I won’t leave” he said but the way he said it made me think he was talking about more than leaving during a fight and it gave me butterflies in my stomach.

“I am very sorry that I ever doubted you and I only have one more thing to say to you”

“What?” he asked a little hesitant

“I love you so much, can we get back together?”

He smiled the biggest smile I have ever seen and gave me a kiss. “I love you too, we never apart just a break”

“I don’t know how this is possible but I think I love you even more” I said “I guess they are right when they say absence makes the heart grow fonder”

“Me too” he said and gave me a kiss that showed me he missed me. he then pulled away to look at me face and injuries.

“Don’t look at me, it is so ugly” I said but he just shook his head and started at my hair line with the softest kisses I have ever experienced. He kissed each bruise, scratch, and mark on my face and neck.

“You are so beautiful” he said and tucked a piece of hair behind my ear.

Before I could say anything back I yawned as best as I could. “Oh, I don’t know where that came from”

“Sleep baby, I be here when you wake up if I not kicked out” he said with a smile and laid down on the bed again.

“Ok, I love you” I said as we got comfortable.

“Love you too, moy rebenok” he said back but I was already fading away to ask him what that meant. All I know is the dream I had was the best I have had so far. Me, Evgeni, and our two children sitting at the table for dinner; we were just talking about our days and how the season was going. It might sound boring but it sounded perfect to me and I really hope it comes true one day.