Just Listen
Prologue: I want to forget to remember
Can you imagine what your life would be like if you forgot everything? What if you couldn't even remember your name, or you couldn't remember who you loved, or what you loved? I can tell you one thing - it's not easy. Amnesia is a constant struggle to live with. I developed amnesia from what is believed a defense mechanism - my mind shut itself off from everything when I was dealing with too much trauma. I now have to live with hardly knowing anything about myself.
Over the past week, small bits of memories have found their way to the surface of my mind through nightmares, horrible nightmares. There are some things I wish I didn't have to remember but are now haunting me through my nightmares and in my daily thoughts. I don't remember much, so it's hard to think of anything else - unless I really wrap myself up in other things - and it's tearing me up inside.
Over the past week, small bits of memories have found their way to the surface of my mind through nightmares, horrible nightmares. There are some things I wish I didn't have to remember but are now haunting me through my nightmares and in my daily thoughts. I don't remember much, so it's hard to think of anything else - unless I really wrap myself up in other things - and it's tearing me up inside.