You Know Me Better Than I Know Myself.

"Guys do not send things like that to a girl they're just friends with!" Alex exclaim, with a face painted with anger and jealousy. I sigh trying to calm myself so I don't yell at him.

"Alex, he has been my best friend since I was 17 years old. he does this 'Coz that's what he do for his friends." I tell him calmly pointing at the box with the stuffed pink 'My Little Pony' teddy bear. me and my friend is fan of the new series with them and he claims that I'm like Pinkie Pie, 'Coz we're both pretty crazy. he has now send me a stuffed Pinkie Pie teddy bear, which send Alex over the roof. He's not used to a friendship like this, I guess.

"It's not normal... what have you two done when you were at vacation to Denmark?! are you cheating on me with him?! is that why he sends you those stupid gifts?!" I scowls and get up from my seat in the couch.

"No Alex, I'm not cheating on you! god! why do you get jealous over a stupid thing like that!" I tell him.

"'COZ IT'S NOT NORMAL! AND HE'S NOT YOUR BOYFRIEND!" he yells at me, then starts to walk out, probably wanting to escape the fight he started. I grab he arm scowling.

"just 'Coz he's not my boyfriend it doesn't mean he can't send me gifts! he's my best friend for christ sake Alex! I love you not him!" I tell him. he squeezes his eyes together looking into my eyes, trying to search for a weakness, so he knows what I've just said was a lie. but he can't find any. I know that he's trying to come up with a good comeback, he does that when he can't prove I'm lying.

"I don't know if you really do. you could be here for my fame and money." he tells me. I groans nearly going crazy inside my head. is he serious? apparently!

"give me a break! you're not that famous or rich. and if I did only loved your money and fame, don't you think I'd married you by now and divorced you again to get some of the money?" I ask him. he scowls pulling his hand away from me.

"you just had to rub it in, didn't you? want some salt and a knife, so you can keep cutting my back open and pour salt in to make it hurt?" he asks me, I shake my head sighing.

"Alex, you're being ridiculous right now." I tell him.

"and you're being a little cold bitch, like you always are." he tells me then leaves the room going upstairs to the bedroom, slamming the doors behind him. I sigh getting tears in my eyes, was I really being unfair and cold? but he started it all? I don't understand this at all.

I sit down and look at the box, if my friend just hadn't send the damn gift at all. Things would have been easier if he hadn't. I shake my head laughing quietly. It probably wouldn't have been, me and Alex would have fought today anyways. it would just have been a different kind of thing that ticked either him or me off. it's like this everyday, and I'm beginning to get tired of it.

sometimes I think about leaving it all and go back to Denmark, but my heart doesn't want to go. It wants to stay with Alex and the life we're building here. it has more patience than my head.

I sigh then get up and walks upstairs, one of us need to make it right again, and I have the courage to do it and admit my mistakes. I hope he can admit his too.

"Alex..?" I ask quietly, when I open the door to the bedroom. he lays in the bed facing the wall, tears streaming down his face. I walk over to the bed and get in it then cuddles into his back, hiding my face. we stay like that for a time before I finally break the silence.

"...I'm sorry for being so mean, I didn't meant to be." I tell him. he sigh quietly then turn around and face me, I look into his blue eyes gulping.

"I'm sorry too, for getting jealous over a stupid thing like that. it's just... I get scared when your friend do things like that..." he tells me, I look at him weirdly.

"why would you be scared of that? like I said, he's just my friend." I tell him. he sighs heavily.

"yeah I know. It's just... he lives in your home country, where your family and past are. I live here..." I look at him weirdly. he groans loudly.

"I'm scared you will fall in love with some guy back there and go home leaving me, I'm scared of loosing you, I love you so much Zette." he tells me, I smiles then leans in and kisses him, I pull back looking into his eyes again.

"Se eu quisesse sair, eu teria deixado de fora por agora. Mas você é o único que me conhece melhor do que eu me conheço." I tell him. he looks at me weirdly.

"what does that mean? I don't speak Spanish, or what ever language that is." he tells me. I laugh quietly, then move more into him.

"it's Portuguese, a Portuguese girl I met told me this, and told me it meant 'If I wanted to leave, I would have left out by now. But you're the only one that knows me better than I know myself'." I tell him, he smiles getting tears in his eyes.

"you really mean that?" he asks me, I nods.

"of course I do, I love you Alex, my life is here by your side." he cuddles into me, I lay my head in his chest and sigh with a smile on my face. he rubs my back quietly, and I feel my eyes starting to close, and myself starting to doze off. the lest think I hear before falling asleep is Alex's beautiful voice saying the words I love to hear.

"I truly, deeply and madly love you Annizette."