Slightly Bruised and Broken From Our Head on Collision

The day seems to drag after that and for once in my life; maths is not interesting to me in the slightest. At the end of the day we all meet up, I say I just need to pop into my house to grab some stuff then I can go to Jack’s house, Alex says the same, Rian and Zack agree and Rian volunteers to drive, and again I realise that I genuinely like him. He’s a sweet guy.

When we pull up outside my house to find it empty it doesn’t surprise me, although it seems to surprise Jack, I open the door and run upstairs to grab some stuff while the boys make themselves comfortable round the TV. I’m messing around in my draws trying to find my best black and white jeans, when I hear footsteps. I turn to see Alex in the doorway looking kind of embarrassed,

“What’s up Hun?” I ask him and he blushes deeper and says,

“I wondered if I could use your toilet.” I smile and show him where it is and he says shyly,

“That t-shirt in the drawer, the black one with the white writing? I think that one will look the best.” I thank him and go to pick it up, shove it into a duffel bag along with my jeans and a change of clothes, scribble a note to my parents and then go downstairs to wait for Alex to re-emerge.

“Home alone?” I ask watching the film on the screen,

“Of course” Jack says, I look to Rian for an explanation but he just rolls his eyes and goes back to watching the DVD. I flop down onto the sofa and wait. Alex wanders down the stairs

“Ready to go?” I ask to the group, and Alex and Rian nods and Zack sort of grunts taking that as a yes then, I repeat to Jack and he nods but doesn’t make an effort to move. I bounce up switch the TV off and leave the note on the side, then to Alex’s apparent shock I open the cupboard grab a bottle of vodka and say,

“Does this count as a present?” the guys agree and I shove that into my duffel bag as well and then we’re off, stopping of at Alex’s house and dropping Rian and Zack of at Zack’s house.

When we get to Jack’s a little girl runs up to him and starts grabbing at his knees, he picks her up and starts making funny faces and smiling at her Alex simply says

“His little sister “we smile and omigosh he’s going to be a brilliant father. Jack puts her down and then we go to get ready, Alex seems to know where everything is and runs to the downstairs bathroom shouting “mine!” Jack shows me upstairs and I thank him and I lock myself into his en-suite, and look at me in the mirror, everything in my mind says you don’t deserve these people as your friends.
But I smile at myself, hold back tears and whisper

“You’re going to be fine.” Fine is my mantra, I look in my bag and search for my tablets and after scrambling for a moment, take two. “You will be fine.” I run my hand over my scars on the insides of my wrists and hope for the best, I’ll be fine. Just as I’m putting away my clothes I wore for school earlier, there’s a knock on the door.

“Just coming” I shout through, and unlock the door. I bend down to get my bag and I hear the door open then close again, and I turn to come face to face with Jack. He leans forwards and kisses me and murmurs,

“I love you”

I kiss back hard. I’m not going to let a little "us" time slip away. Seconds turn into minutes and we hear a knock at the door.

“DUDE IF YOU DON’T HURRY THE FUCK UP I’M LEAVING YOU TO WALK” Rian shouts at us through the bathroom door, Jack smirks and leans in to kiss me again. I let him kiss me for a moment before I break away and say

“I love you to you douche bag but I need to go and make sure Rian is still fine with giving us a lift.” He smiles kisses me again, and we walk out just in time to hear Alex shout

“Is getting drunk on red wine more sophisticated than lager and beer, or will I end up just needing to pee?”

I love these people.