I Gave You My Heart

I guess I should be ashamed of myself

But I’m really not

I like Justin, so what? I don’t see the big deal. He’s nothing but a quickie, a way to blow off some steam

Don’t get me wrong, he’s a sweet kid and deserves the world when he isn’t higher then a kite…which is rare. But he’s just not my type. I wouldn’t be able to get within like ten feet of him anyway. Not in public at least, the entire neighborhood is against him.

And I like PDA, I’ll be damned if someone doesn’t know that whoever is mine

But I cant help but feel bad, guilty if you will

Because its kinda like I lead on Aiden. Only I didn’t, I enjoyed our time together. I almost died with happiness when he kissed me and being held by him outside the hospital was the best fifteen minutes of my life. And I wouldn’t take them back for the world. I really, really, really like him.

And now John and Cidney are beyond fucking pissed at me, because they saw me talk to Justin, flirt with him really, and take his fries. Thankfully they were already blinded by rage that they didn’t see me kiss him.

And I got to live with John for another three days. No doubt they are going to tell Aiden about this

What is he going to do? Is he going to flip? Ignore me? Act like he doesn’t care anymore

Will he go back to the old uncaring and cold Aiden he was when we first met, before he held my hand?

I’ve a feeling that either way, this isn’t going to end well

And truth be told, I’m scared. I really like Aiden. And I don’t want to lose him over something like this

God, why do I have to be so stupid?

This is all Amaria’s fault!

She’s the one that got me thinking. Uck who am I kidding? I just need some coffee before I go to John’s. This is going to be one hell of a headache.

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Walking through John’s front door, which after knowing him for at least a week you know is never locked, I was enveloped with screams

Not screams towards each other, but screams of frustration. Like someone was trashing a room in anger, throwing shit around and screaming just to let it all out

And maybe they were?

Growing increasingly curious and worried, I ran up the stairs and waited atop of them to see where the noise was coming from

It sounded like Alden’s room

“Aiden just calm down please! We told you so you wouldn’t react like this when you found out!” A feminine voice screamed over the ruckus, the sound of something shattering causing everything to become eerily quiet

“So I wouldn’t react like this? Are you fucking serious? HOW DID YOU EXPECT ME TO REACT CIDNEY! Did you want me to smile like everything was alright? Like I didn’t like the boy? Like I didn’t already know and threaten Justin to stay away from him?-”

So Aiden was the one who threatened him! I probably should of known that

“-wait, are you telling me you freaking knew about all of this?-”

John’s question was lost behind another crash

“Damn it Aiden stop breaking shit!”

And with that the bedroom door slammed open, revealing not only a completely trashed room complete with the bed turned and light broken, but a very angry Aiden.

Its been awhile since I seen him this pissed off, perhaps…I don’t even think I’ve seen him this mad before

His eyes locked with mine, becoming increasingly hate filled as he glared

“You,” he seethed, making his way towards me

Needless to say I was scared at that point, rooted to the ground in my own fear. He was going to hurt me, I could feel it

Aiden, as gentle as he could be and as sweet as he is, once he lost his temper…he lost it. Literately. There was really no controlling him and I’ve a feeling I’m about to pay for my actions

“…me?” I ask meekly, attempting not to show to much fear as I back myself into a wall

I needed some kind of stable ground so I wouldn’t fall down the stairs which I am like a foot away from

“Yes you, you little fucker”

Aiden suddenly grabs my shirt collar, hoisting it in between his fingers as I feel my feet leave the ground. My back meets the wall rather harshly, my head following only seconds later

I groan in pain, momentarily closing my eyes before re opening them to come face to face with Aiden

Fuck, that hurt

“Hi?” I try to say tio him, only making him growl and hold my shirt a little tighter between his fist

Shit, did he just growl at me?

“Aiden…Aiden come on be cool man. Don’t hurt the kid” John sounds kind of scared, moving closer towards the two of us. Can’t say I blame him

“Fuck off Jonathan”

And he did

Thanks for trying though John

“AIDEN TWISHT! Let him go right fucking now or so help me god you will never see daylight again” Cidney attempts to come to my rescue, standing right beside Aiden, looking equally as pissed

At who? I don’t really care at this point. I just wanted my feet to touch the ground

Cidney bravely puts a hand atop of Aiden’s clenched one, squeezing slightly from what I can see

“Down Aiden. Now”

He doesn’t budge, keeping his gaze locked onto my scared face, eyes flickering from him to Cidney

Heaven help us

“I mean it Aiden, put the fucking kid down right now and walk away. He isn’t worth it.”

Her words kind of hurt, I’m not worth it? And I don’t even have name it seems anymore.

Buit that doesn’t matter right now. I’m shaking and loosing feeling in my neck

With one last harsh look at me, Aiden lets go

“Thank you” Cidney sighs, grabbing Aiden’s arm and trying to lead him away from me, John not to far behind

Only he resist, turning back to me and looking at me for a hard second

Suddenly he raises his fist and before Cidney could re-grab his arm. He strikes

I crumble to the floor.