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A smile plastered on my face, almost painful. The tears fighting their way up. I walk up to someone i trust, the tears flow through. My voice cracks, my heart breaks, I barely choke out my pain. The arms wrap around me, hot breath on my shoulder, comforting words in my ear. My heart drops, No help. I've got to get out, away. Break free, breather. I can't handle it, I'm released. I run, away from prying eyes, society, my eyes blur with tears. My breathing becomes labored. breathe deep I tell myself, I try, I can't, no breath enters. I fall to the ground, the cold envelops me. Small breaths are all i manage. The pain becomes to much. My chest feels heavy, my eyes close. I don't want to live, just want to fall. My breathing becomes a lovely beat, my heart thumps to an irregular but familiar drum. My mind drifts to places unattainable, and finally I sleep.