Suicide Season

The Kerrang! Awards arrived quickly and Oli had kept in touch with me a lot. I’d dragged Mel (Tom’s Girlfriend) with me to choose and outfit.
“You look amazing. I can’t believe he asked you out over the show through.” Mel was excited
“Yeah, I could have lost my job.”
“Is that why you didn’t accept on the show?”
“Yes, I could have cried when he asked me, though I so wanted him back. I was getting lonely.” Mel hugged me.
“I know Thomas told me everything that went on between the two of you. If this had happened to me and Tom, I’d be excited but skeptical.” She made me look at her in the eye. “You feel the exact same, don’t you.” I nodded tears in my eyes, she hugged me again. “Would it help if I told you that Oli may have confided in me about you while he was with Megan?” I nodded unable to say anything. “He said Megan was carbon copy of you looks wise but he missed your essence in his life. He said at Tom’s birthday he lusted for you. He misses you, your quirky ways, your intent fight to be independent even when you’re in a relationship, your mood swings and childish dirty mind; along with your humor and drunk persona.” I looked at her
“So he misses ME, not just my looks and personality. I knew she was a replacement, everyone knew.”
“What do you miss most?” she asked being cautious in her tone.
“Everything, his tattoos, his face, humor, voice, how protective and loving he is.”
“Awwwww!” she hugged me for a third time.

We brought the outfit I was wearing. I kept is casual ‘cause I knew I’d be seen by my colleagues. The night arrived, I spent most the afternoon pampering. Bubble Bath, painting my nails, face mask and a glass of lemonade and peach snapps. I then styled my hair in waves, dressed in lacy underwear, sheer black skinny jeans and ankle boots with a three inch heel; so I’d be the same height as Oli, the ankle boots were a suede feel and had studs on the back working down the heel. I chose a simple white lace leotard and a bra slip to cover my underwear and paired the ensemble with a black leather jacket.

I’d just finished doing my make up when the door went. I answered it. Oli was leaning against the wall opposite.
“Hey babe” his Yorkshire accent drifted.
“Come in baby almost ready.”
“Typical woman.”
“Don’t be mean,” he shut the door and the grabbed my ass ”Don’t. Be. Mean.”
“Sorry, you’re just too sexy in that outfit.” He span me and kissed me “However I’m better suited to leaning down to kiss you.” He looked me dead in the eye and I smiled at him.
I looked at his shirt
“What a way to endorse your own clothing brand.” I laughed tugging the shirt slightly.
“Says you, who’d wearing the Drop Dead earrings I gave her four years ago.”
“Before you turned hipster and it’s not like they cost you anything.”
“True, Now come here.” He brought me into a tight hug. “This is almost as exciting as when we first met. Only with a lot more personal dates.”
“We now live within driving distance of each other and one of us isn’t on tour all the time anymore.” I raised my eyebrows at him.
“And you aren’t nineteen anymore.”
“Thanks for reminding me.”
“It’s okay, ready?”
“I do believe so, let’s go.” I picked up my hand bag and took Oli’s hand and went to meet the taxi.

We arrived at the Kerrang! Awards and the guys greeted us. Jonah hugged me tightly “Hi guys” I got a kiss on the cheek from each one of them. We were met by screams as we walked towards the venue for tonight. Fans of so many bands screaming the names and Oli’s was the loudest at that moment. They stopped to greet fans, I waited and talked to Aly B and Dani.
Paul Harries and fellow photographer Lisa were stood at the black carpet taking photos of You Me At Six in front of us. Alex made a dig at the fact Oli had asked me out on his special and he was damn ill. Josh from YM@S waved to Oliveras he walked into the venue.
Oli greeted Aly B and Dani, took my hand and pulled me along with the guys. I had to wait again for Paul to take their shot.
"I'm sorry that you have to wait, you have me to yourself until we win."
"And you will, your fans are the best." I kissed him smooshing his face with my fingers as I did. A flash went off. "Paul!" I yelled
"It looked cute! Now Robyn there now!"
I took up the spot he pointed to. I put a hand on my hip and a modle look on my face, just as he went to click, I blew a kiss to the camera. I then took my place at Oli's side, where I belonged.

We were seated at our designated table to converse with what the were calling "the enemy" but they had a lot of friends in the rock scene like; Josh Francesci and Danny Warsnop. Who was with my lovely ex Benjamin Bruce. Josh was the forst one to come and greet us.
"Whoah, you actually took up his offer of a date Robyn?" Josh laughed sitting next to me.
"Yes, Jealous Josh?" I smiled at him clearly shooting down his dig.
"Anyone would be." I blushed
"Stop it Josh, no they wouldn't"
"So how does Oli compare to Ben Bruce?"He asked tilting his head to their table.
"Josh let's not get into that. Anyway I was here first shouldn't it be: How does Ben compare to me?" Oli argued.
"Stop it, the pair of you! I'm still friends with AA and I'm still friends with Ben, so its not fair that I compare. I had a relationship with him so what. I'm on a date with Oli now so it doesn't matter." I shot them both down.

We started drinking slowly. I wasn't working tonight but I was still causionary of me drinking so I didn't get hammered and get myself fired. Within an hour the awards were given out with Black Veil Brides, You Me At Six, Horizon and Asking Alexandria winning. The night was closed with Aly B confiming it was time to get "Fucked Up!"

I started to meet out other friends of the band and Oli introduced me as his girlfriend all the time, I loved it. Me and Josh had a good laugh and I spent some time on Black Veil Brides table as I'd interviewed them the day before hand. I sat with Lostprophets and The Blackout for our usual Welsh banter that always happened when we sat together. I got back to Horizon and "Dsnop" (He always insisted I called him that) was there with Ben and the rest of the guys. Ben said "Hi" then went back to talking with Lee. Danny however stood and kissed me! Full on the lips. I was too stunned to do anything, I looked at Oli after and Danny appologised. Oli kissed me to make up for it and sat me on his lap.

It was good fun. At about three o'clock we crashed through his house's door. His new house was huge and Oskar got all excited when he saw me. I picked him up and gave him a fuss. Oli poored me a glass of wine and pulled me upstairs, he sat on the bed.
I placed my hands on his shoulders and pushed him down. Putting my knees either side of his hips. His hands took their usual place on my ass and he smiled.
"Dman I missed you!"
"I fucking missed you, you took far too long to come back, now, take me." that was all it took for me to be quickly undressed and placed on bottone and we'd have the most passionate, lust filled sex ever. We fell asleep in his poofy white bed cuddled up while Oskar was curled up between our legs. This was what I wanted more than anything, hopefully soon I could move back in with Oliver. I loved him so much. I'd never really stopped. He was who I was meant to be with. I knew that. I loved him for everything he was and his mistakes made him even more loveable. Damn I had missed him.
I spent the day with him, while he nursed me with my doozy of a hang over the next day.