Suicide Season

Me and Oli fell back asleep after watching a bit of TV.
Waking in the morning, I counted my cash and checked my monthly train ticket. Mum and Oli were laughing at me as I hurried around the appartment in search of my keys, work pass and essentials. I kissed mum on the cheek and Oli on the lips lightly, saying I'll be back before he knew it but to expect me late and left.
My journey to work was my time to myself when Oli was home. I got the train on time and chose a nice seat, plugged myself into my Iphone and listened to tunes on the hour and ten minuet ride to Birmingham. I was dressed in my new jeans and white docs as well as my new t-shirt. I got to the office buiklding and smiled to myself as I walked into the offices on the umpteenth floor of the Kerrang! Media buildin, past accounts, past the magazine but under the TV floor.
I said "Hi" politely to the receptionist as she told me the details of my day. I had a meeting with the boss James, then I had to spend the day with Alex Baker and Kevin Hindley for their show at 10-12 as I was replacing an ill Hayley. I got to my office table, it faced Alex's, he was my idol when I was a teenager. I was his PA and helped him with a lot of things. I let out a deep sigh as I sat in my office chair. It was a sigh of contentment that also told Alex to listen if he was dareing enough to ask,
"That bad eh?" dareing was his style today. He was one of the only people to know I was with Oli.
"Alex, he got a blow job off a groupie! He practically cheated on me and I stayed."
"You love him though," he countered.
"Everyone makes mistakes, this is the first one he's made with me."
"You're dating a rock star. What do you expect, roses and chocolates? The majority do it."
"I know" i sighed again "and nah U get Doc's and new clothes." I laughed
"Wow he treats you good." we giggled and got to paper work and planning for our shows. Letters or emails Alex wanted were scribbled in his ben in black ink messily, they were for bands he wanted to interview.

At ten Kevin walked in all beaming and happy, like he always it.
"Yo Kevin. Looking happy today." Alex drawled, I was making us tea.
"I am indeed, Robyn make me one please?"
"No problem Kev."
"Oo, Robyn and Kev." Alex sang
"You're just jealous Alex because we're all spoken for so you can't get me." I laughed batting my eyelashes. "Here's your tea, anymore bands you want?"
"Yes, Bring Me The Horizon." He beamed, my face fell. " Or I could get them on your show." He beamed brighter. I almost slapped his glasses right off his smug face. I didn't as I would have been sacked.
So I resided to "I hate you sometimes." I spoke under my breath
"Yet you still have to work with me." He laughed
"What's with teh whole teasing thing with Bring Me? Don't you like them?" Kev asked completely clueless.
"It's-" I cut Alex off.
"It's not like that, it's nothing really." I said before Alex could say anything.
I walked off to pick up paperwork for Alex and get ready for the meeting. I walked into the part glass conference room, slamming the brown folder in front of Alex. "Sorry I'm late." I said to James and sat opposite Alex and the meeting went on.

Next I had lunch with Alex and Kev and Danielle Perry. I got a phone call off my mum, I excused myself and took it. It was menial she just said how she liked Oli and that they'd gone for coffee and spoken about a lot of things. Oli ended the phone call by telling me to have fun in work and be safe on the way home, he loved me and missed me, in his cute voice. I took my place back at our table.
"You look stressed." Kev obsserved
"Oh deffinitly, afterhaving an argument with my boyfriend the other day, my mother turned up. And my boss hates me." I looked at Alex pulling puppy dog eyes. "He works me too hard and beats me."
"The only beating you'll get is off my computer mouse and your pay packet if you keep complaining." He poked hi tounge out to show he was kidding.
"Oh you had a fun day off then." Danielle pointed out.
"Yes." We laughed
"Anyway Al, did you get hold of Bring Me The Horizon's booking manager?" Kev asked seemingly excited he might meet them.
"I don't need to." They looked questioningly at him "I have my slave Robyn to do that." I knew exactly what he meant
"You are so demoralising and dehumanising of me sometimes Mr. Baker, you wouldn't survive without me." I laughed
"True that. True that." we all laughed.
After doing the show and working thing out for my next day while Alex and Kev did the introduction to the podcast. Me and Alex walked to the train station together we said bye and parted to get on seperate trains. It was now one in the morning and I was one very tired young lady but this was my job and I wouldn't have changed it for the world.
I walked through the front door and could hear the TV on in our room. I checked on my mum who was sound asleep and got myself a two o'clock snack and walked into my room. I stripped bollock naked as Oli dozed, I turned off the TV and got into bed with him. The bed was warm but comfortable with most of the heat coming from the body of my lanky, heavily tattooed, screamer boyfriend who smelt like he'd been drinking. He wrapped his arms around my cold body and squeezed
"You're freezing." he sleepily observed.
"It's two o'clock in the freaking morning! Of course I'm cold." I turned and snuggled into him.
"Dee said he had an email from you."
"It couldn't have been from me. Alex didn't ask me to email Dee, he just said to ask him to book you for Kerrang!"
"Still teasing you then." Oli had a smile on his voice, I simply nodded as I yawned. "Can I tease you?" He smiled wikedly
"No Oli, I'm tired, when mum goes home next week okay?" he kissed my cheek, turned to lie on his back and let me fall asleep on his warm chest keeping me wrapped in his arm.
I awoke still on Oli's chest, I could feel the vibratiosn of his voice, he was on the phone but trying to keep his voice down so he wouldn't wake me. It was something about arranging studio time in a far away country, that he should get right on to writting when they had finished their touring schedual and then switched to a convo about their tour in the USA. My heart sank knowing he'd be that far away and that far behind time wise. I moved slightly getting comfy on him again, he took a deep breath waiting for me to mumble something
"Don't go, please stay." I mumbled pulling him closer to me even though he was as close as possible.