Forsaken Dreams

My eyes burned from the crying. My jaw hurt from the smiling. It seemed everything ached. Even my heart. So many times, I wanted to run right back to that perfect white house and run into Kip’s arms. Tell him ‘I’m sorry.’ But every time, I hesitated. I told myself ‘no.’ I don’t need him. I’m not a little girl anymore that always needs protecting. As desperately as I want to be, I’m not. And I got to stop wishing that I was.

I don’t want to hurt him either. I know I will in the end. Its inevitably bound to happen.

This is for the best I think, lying to myself.

I sighed. I long sigh.

It had stopped raining, which meant it was time to climb atop buildings. It was still windy and cold, making my hands numb as I climbed. The wind stealing my breath. The branches of a nearby tree scratching my hands, and my face.

I reached the top.

Finally.