Love the Loveless

I couldn't help but sigh as the puppy was climbing over mine and Ryan's lap. Jacky was sat next to Ryan. My mind kept going back to the hotel. I can't believe what I did. I just wanted him to pay attention to me. It's not like I wanted to go much further then maybe making out but I just... I don't know. He probably thinks I'm a slut now. I was playing with my thumbs until I felt something warm and wet on my cheek. I looked over and saw the puppy. I smiles and kisses it's nose and pulled it into my lap. It was one of the cutest little things I've seen. I sighed again feeling like a dumb slut still.

I could never do anything right. I just want Jacky to love me back and I would do anything. If only to have him and I as 'us' for even just a day. Ryan laid his arm around my shoulders and I leaned into him. He kissed my head and I smiled a bit. It was nice to have someone that cared. He rubbed my arm and I cuddled into him more. I looked over and saw a semi-jealous Jacky. I couldn't help but smile as I saw the small amount of jealousy in his eyes.

He glanced over and caught my gaze. I blushed a bit but didn't break the gaze for a minute. I wanted to be curled up against him but I wasn't going to admit that out loud. I giggled and kissed Ryan's cheek just to see Jacky's reaction. It was priceless. My poor baby. Oh well he broke my heart so he deserves it. I can have a little bit of fun with him using Ryan.

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We pulled up to the next venue and me and Ryan ran off with the puppy bringing it to the grass so it could do its... business. I linked arms with Ryan and pecked his cheek watching our baby (yes we started to call it our baby) run around the grass. I giggled when it attacked a butterfly. Our little Charlie was so cute. I laughed at everything the little dog did.

Soon though the guys had to go on stage. I expected it to be slightly boring but I got to be backstage with them and Charlie. I was standing on the side of the stage holding the pup.

"Okay Motherfuckers we have a new experience for you! I got Jacky to agree to actually talk!!" Ronnie said with a chuckle. I looked at him with a confused look until Jacky walked to the mic with a blank face until he reached it and said with a goofy grin, "'Pip pip Cheerio OUCH Charlie bit my finger!!" I almost fell to the floor laughing. That is until little Charlie jumped out of my arms and ran to Jacky. My eyes widened and i squealed saying, "Charlie NO! Come back!!" I almost ran onto the stage to get him but stopped when he started to jump at Jacky's feet. I smiled a bit and tried to hold in giggles. Jacky bent down picking him up and said, "This is the cute fucker that bit my finger, and that,' he pointed at me continuing, " is his mom. Come here Hayden!" I hesitantly walked out onto the stage and took Charlie from him keeping my head hung.

Jacky smiled and grabbed my chin and kissed me. My eyes widened at the quick action but I kissed back leaning into him. There was an outburst of screams and he slid his tongue over my lips asking for an entrance that I quickly granted. He snaked my tongue in but then I realized where we were and i slowly pulled away looking up at him with happy but teary eyes. He smiled and touched our foreheads we moved away from the microphone, "I love you Hayden Murphy." i kissed him again tears running down my cheeks and i mumbled, "I love you too Jacky." he smiled and soon I pulled away walking off stage biting my lip.

Jacky said he Loves ME