Love the Loveless

I had woken up at about ten this morning to an empty bed. I sighed and shook my head getting up feeling alone again. I got up putting on A fir tanktop that had a pink wolf, a poofy black mini skirt, lace leggings, and lace gloves to cover my bandages. I sighed and sat on the couch a small pout on my face. I would play video games if Ronnie was here because I saw him an Ry playing and I wanted to challenge him but he wasn't on either. I walked to the front sitting in the passengers seat looking out over everything. The driver was asleep and, as Much as I wanted to wake him, I didn't. I started pacing the bus until I felt arms wrap around me from behind. I couldn't help but jump and squeal. I looked back and glared at Ryan, who happened to be standing there. He rolled his eyes and linked our arms.

"HAYDEN CMON I WANNA TAKE YOU SHOPPING!!" he squealed. I giggled a bit and followed him. "Alright... But why? I thought you wouldn't like shopping.". I said and he shook his head dragging me to the mall. It was a big mall too. I leaned into him yawning quietly and asked, "Where was everyone this morning?" he just shrugged and drug me into a Forever 21. I shot him another glare and he groaned walking out and going To a Hot Topic. Now this was more my style. He smiled and automatically started grabbing all kinds of clothes before shoving me into the dressing room. Most of the clothes were short shorts, skirts, and bikinis. I shook my head and put on one of the bikini tops, which was red polka dots on black, with black and red shorts. I will admit it didn't look half bad... If I was skinnier. I shook my head but stepped out.

"Oh my GOD you look beautiful!" Ryan squeaked. I shook my head and said, "no I don't I'm fat." he simply shook his head. "Hayden if that is fat then I don't want you to be skinny." he told me and I blushed. I looked in the mirror again and bit my lip. "I guess you're right..." I told him. I have only ever been told that I was fat so I didn't think much more. But I guess if I looked more I didn't have to much fat. I had that small V that any girl wanted hut I still had the scabs on my hips. I shook my head disgusted. I tried on the other clothes before throwing them in Ryan's face. He bought every outfit and I only shook my head.

"Why are you getting me all of this? You don't have to." I said and he giggled saying, "It's your birthday I want to... OH MY GOD IT'S A GIR BLANKET!" he said and then screamed. I gushed over it. It was GIR with a piggeh, and there was another that was him hugging a monkey. I loved the monkey one. Ryan smiled at me and bought both.

"Now we have awesome blankets." he said and I nodded. We linked arms and walked around for a few more hours. Eventually he drug me into a Spencers and made me try on something from the 'intimates' section. I glared at him. "Why do I need this shit?" I asked. "I think that the black one would look cute with the skirt and leggings you have on." he said. I rolled my eyes and he bought it, but I also made him get me a rainbow dick lollipop. He got one too. I was slightly taken aback by this. I still don't know weather or not Ryan is straight. Oh well they tasted AMAZING! It was about 7:20 when he drug me back to the venue. He put everything on the bus while I stood outside. He told me not to move and I groaned. I wanted to get ready for the show dammit! But I would only be in the crowed. This sucked. 

I sighed and jumped in a circle way to full of energy and jumped onto Ryan's back when he climbed off the bus. He took me backstage and told one of the roadies to watch me. I didn't need the constant watch now thank you! I groaned but only a minute later Ronnie came back and put a blindfold over my eyes. I tried to wiggle free but he lead me out to, what I was guessing was, the stage and I heard people singing happy birthday. He pulled off the blindfold and people started throwing glitter confetti. I looked out at all the people and tears slowly roles down my cheeks. Jacky walked over and was holding a microphone and said into it, "Happy birthday Hayden and any of you mother fuckers!!" I turned and kissed his cheek mumbling a quick, "Thank you." he nodded and kissed my cheek.

"You get your present when you get on the bus." he told me. One of the roadies came over and rolled the cake off the stage. Ronnie said into his mic, "Okay my pretties one more happy birthday for our favorite bitch, HAYDEN!!! Who will also be playing for us in a few shows!" everyone screamed and I smiled and waved at everyone silently saying thank you before skipping off the stage.

The show was awesome, as always, even if I didn't like the guy that was taking my spot. I was walking Charlie around the back waiting for the guys' signing to be over. I wasn't allowed onto the bus until they got back. There was a huge body guard that was blocking my way. I was lucky enough to get him to get Charlie for me. I groaned and sat in a shady area holding the dog in my lap. he barked happily and licked my face. That was until he ran off towards the gate. I looked over and saw the guys coming over. Charlie was jumping at his daddy's (Ryan for those that forgot) legs and he bent down and picked him up. I slowly stood from my spot and Walked over to them. Everyone gave me a quick hug and Ronnie tied the blindfold over my eyes again. I couldn't help but groan. I heard the cutest little laugh. Jacky...

They walked me onto the bus and I was sat on one of the couches. I heard rustling and my blindfold was pulled off again. In front of me Jacky was holding one of the most beautiful dresses I'd ever seen. I looked up at him and a happy tear rolled down my cheek again.
"It's beautiful.." I breathed out. He smiled a bit and gently laid it next to me. The others laid a few silver bags around my feet and I opened them finding, from Derek, some new makeup and CD; from Ryan, clothes for Charlie; and from Ronnie, a gift certificate to a guitar store that was some kind of credit card where he would pay it later. My eyes widened and I looked at Ronnie shaking my head.

"I can't accept this expensive of a gift! It says that I have to buy a guitar or bass with this." I said and he smiled patting my head and telling me, "Well we want our favorite new bass player to have one of her very own don't we? Besides that dress was probably most expensive." Ronnie said and I blushed. I kissed all of their cheeks and smiled wide. "Thank you guys. This was defiantly the best and most badass birthday I've ever had. But now I must go to sleep for I am tired as fuck." I said with a fake way girly lisp. They all nodded saying they'd clean up and we could have cake tomorrow. I smiled and walked back pulling on pjs that I got earlier and laid on the bunk pulling up my new blanket. 

Almost an hour later though I still wasn't asleep. I mean I was really tired. Jacky peaked in. My eyes were only cracked so I looked asleep. He smiled a bit and tucked my hair before pecking my lips. He whispered something that I could not make out  but he crawled into the bunk after finishing his whisper words. I cuddled into the new heat source. He chuckled wrapping his arms around me as I cuddled closer.

I was able to fall asleep after that peacefully into happy dreams that night.