Love and Other Lies

She left. She said she couldn't even look at me. She came back for me? What have I done? I knew I should have found time to tell her of my past, now I have lost her. I shouldn't have brought her to New York. The tears wouldn't stop, sobbs wracked my body and I didn't even care that Jesse was watching me cry. I saw him move closer to me, soon enough he grabbed me into a hug.

"I can't loose her Jesse. I can't. She is my reason for living." I sobbed.

"I know man, I know. It'll be alright dude. She'll come around" He said, just then my phone rang. My mom was calling.

"Hello?" I rasped and cracked.

"Dimitri, what is going on?" She asked, not quite demanding but it was hinting on it.

"She left. She found my past and.. and mommy, she left." I broke down again.

"Shhh baby, it's ok. I'll call her. I'll talk to her." She said.

"I just need to know she's safe. I'm worried. What if she is gone forever. I can't loose her mom." I said, gaining some control.

"I know baby. I'll call you back soon, just stay where you are." She said

"ok mom" I replied, defeated.

"bye honey, I love you" She told me.

"bye mom, I love you too" I said, ending the call. Jesse just looked at me.

"Sorry man, I guess this isn't what you expected..... um, I guess we just hang out here..." I said trying not to let him know that i'm shattered inside. Devastated.

"Naw man, i'm just glad to have you back. Besides, drama has always followed you." He smiled, picking up papers and putting them back into the file. I just put my head down on the table.

"Tree-man" Jesse said, he sounded worried.

"Yea?" I asked looking up, his eyes were wide and he handed me a piece of paper. I started to read it, my blood becoming cold.

"How are you going to tell her? There is no not telling her either, infact I think you need to sit her down and tell her everything about your past." Jesse advised. It's true I needed to tell her everything... immediately.

"Bringing up my sister's death will get us nowhere... but I guess it's important for her to know..... I just can't believe they put her death in my file." I said, handing him back the piece of paper.

"The shit the pigs keep" Jesse replied putting the paper in the folder and setting it by the bed on the bedside table. I guess I have to find my balls and get to finding her. I'm tired of waiting for my mom to call back.... If she calls back. Anna, here I come and i'm gonna tell you everything. Good, bad and ugly.