Next to Me
I used to cry
Every time I would walk past the bathroom I would think to myself, I could do it. I could walk in there, stick my finger down my throat, and be done.
If I wasn't so disgusted by throwing up, I would do it. I absolutely can't stand throwing up, though. Ever since I was young, the thought of getting sick would scare the crap out of me. It still does. So making myself throw up was out of the question.
I starve myself sometimes. That's easier and less disgusting. It doesn't last long, maybe a day and a half before I give in and eat everything inside the food cupboard.
Nothing seems to work, no matter how hard I try. I just end up giving in to my hunger.
If I wasn't so disgusted by throwing up, I would do it. I absolutely can't stand throwing up, though. Ever since I was young, the thought of getting sick would scare the crap out of me. It still does. So making myself throw up was out of the question.
I starve myself sometimes. That's easier and less disgusting. It doesn't last long, maybe a day and a half before I give in and eat everything inside the food cupboard.
Nothing seems to work, no matter how hard I try. I just end up giving in to my hunger.
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