If I Was Your Boyfriend

Paul ushers me down the red carpet as I go from paparazzi photos to fans. Back and forth. I try to spot Justin somewhere in the middle of this chaos but had little luck.

‘Chrissy!’ Chloe and Nikki flag me down scurrying over to me in their tall high heels.

‘You guys made it!’ I beam hugging each of them.

‘Of course we wouldn't miss it!’ Chloe smiles back.

‘How are you feeling?’

‘Nervous!’ I say with a nod looking around.

‘Just breathe! It'll be okay. Now you'll have to head over and do a few brief junkets with the press.’

‘Okay a few press junkets.’

‘Yeah just a few. It'll be okay! We're gonna go find our seats and we'll see you in a few.’

‘See you guys inside.’

My first stop with the press junkets was with preshow live stream.

‘We are here with Chrissy Thorton! How are you doing tonight Chrissy? And may I say your dress is gorgeous!’

‘Thank you so much! I'm doing very good.’

‘Who are you looking forward to seeing perform tonight?’

‘Imagine Dragons! I'm actually excited to see a lot of the performers tonight but when I came in for rehearsals earlier they were rehearsing and they sounded really good.’

‘Anything you want to say to your fans? Just look right into that camera and tell them how you feel.’

‘Thank you guys - for everything. I honestly cannot believe that I'm at an award show and I'm actually nominated. Your constant love and support is absolutely overwhelming. I love you each and everyone of you.’

‘It was so great to talk to you Chrissy. Have a good night and good luck.’

‘Thank you!’

Then it was on to Yahoo! Music.

‘Hello Chrissy! This is your first award show in which you are nominated - can you tell us what's going through your head?’

‘Excitement! For the awards - the performers - just everything. I can't wait to see what's in store for tonight.’

‘Who are you hoping to see win a moon man tonight?’

‘I can't choose! They're a lot of great actors and movies that are nominated. I think it'd be wrong to pick only one.’

‘Well played. Well played. One more question - how was the recent trip out of the country?’

‘I had a really fun time.’

And so the questions about Justin started. I then went on to Cambio.

‘Chrissy we really need for you to clear something up for us. You and Justin Bieber confirmed a breakup about a month ago now and recently you two were seen together in Italy. What's going on there?’

‘I'm just having fun right now and looking forward to the show.’

‘Okay, you're not going to budge on that one. How is it being nominated against your friend Tracey Ramirez? And Selena Gomez is actually nominated as well - have you guys texted each other wishing each other good luck?’

No they hate me and cornered me into a room forcing me to listen to my ex boyfriend's voicemail from the beginning of our relationship.

‘I really just wish everyone good luck in the category. It's going to be close I think.’

‘Last question - who are you going for, for movie of the year?’

‘They all were good movies so I really can't pick just one. Enjoy your night.’ I smile before walking away with Paul.

‘Hey Chris!’ Justin wraps his arms around me for a hug and I do the same. ‘You look beautiful.’

’You look great yourself. I see you added my recommendation.’ I laugh tugging at his white button down shirt.

‘Of course I did. Where's Danielle and Garrett?’

‘They went inside while I did a few interviews. Did Ryan come?’

‘Yeah he's inside with her girlfriend.’

‘They got together?’

‘Not quite. They're into each other so I'm just messing with them about it a bit.’

‘Of course you are.’ I laugh, ‘you wouldn't be you if you didn't.’

‘Justin! Chrissy! Over here!’ an interviewer from 411 called us over to their booth.

Justin begins to walk over to their booth so I follow.

‘Can we get a few questions for our website?’

‘Sure.’ We say at the same time.

Justin looks down at me with the smallest grin behind his laugh.

‘Okay - are you two an item again?’

‘I'm showing her the award show ropes.’ Justin says coyly.

‘Who is your top pick for any award tonight?’

‘I don't mind saying it that much so I'm really hoping Chrissy goes home with her very first moon man and award. She was amazing in Step Up, just saying.’

‘And you Chrissy?’

‘I've told all the other interviewers here that I really can't choose a favorite because they are all amazing movies and actors slash actresses up for the awards and that's the truth.’

‘She doesn't want to single anyone out.’ Justin speaks up slightly moving closer to me.

‘We'll let you two go because the awards are about to start and you need to get inside to your seats but we appreciate you coming to speak with us.’

‘Thank you.’ our voices chime in unison once again causing both of us to laugh this time.

Justin and I head towards the inside of the building with Paul covering our shadows. We wave as we walk into the double doors.

‘Just between me and you - you're rooting for Believe right?’

‘I will be cheering for you the entire show.’

‘Knew it.’ Justin places a hand on my back guiding me into the dark room. People had already started making their way to the seats and I needed to go backstage for the first award of the night. ‘Don't think about what happened at the Teen Choice Awards - just breathe and follow the prompter.’

‘Okay.’

‘I'll be right out front watching you.’

‘Okay.’

‘Good luck.’ Justin swiftly kisses my cheek and squeezes me tight.

‘Thank you.’ I say once he releases me.

The producer leads me through the backstage where everyone is scrambling around with headsets and clipboards. I watch and listen as the host, Conan, begins his introduction. He makes a few jokes before officially starting the show.

‘She's up for Best Actress - give it up for Chrissy Thorton!’

Justin's Point of View

Danielle sat in the empty seat beside me with her arms folded across her chest. Of course she was going to be pissed off at me - I mean she is Chrissy's best friend. She told me from the start not to hurt her best friend. From the corner of my eye I could see how she watched my every movement. I just hope she hasn't gotten the wrong idea about Nichole who was sitting in between Ryan and I. Chrissy was backstage getting ready to announce the first award so I was all by myself in this.

‘Hey guys.’ I lean over to say.

‘What's up man?’ Garrett says and Danielle shoots him a death stare for doing so.

‘Hey Danielle. Nice corsage.’ I nod my head at the flowered corsage on her wrist.

‘Thanks.’

‘This is my pal Ryan and his friend Nichole.’ I introduce them letting Danielle know that Nichole was not a threat to Chrissy and I.

‘What's up?’ Ryan nods his head over to them and Garrett does the same.

I watch as Danielle's features soften but not fully.

“She's up for Best Actress - give it up Chrissy Thorton.” I hear over the intercom.

I stand up from my seat clapping and cheering for Chrissy. She sees and shows off the biggest smile I have seen in a long time. Ryan, Nichole, Danielle, and Garrett all stood up with me cheering for Chrissy.

‘Tonight we celebrate some of the movies from the past year. These movies made us laugh. They made us cry. They also made us want to smash our heads into the wall. Here are tonight’s nominees.’

That definitely had to be MTV’s idea of a joke but I laughed anyway because it was Chrissy.

‘And your winner for best fight scene goes to Man of Steel.’ Chrissy announces perfectly as the main guy from that Superman movie walks up onto the stage. Chrissy hugs him before stepped back politely. The guy says his thank you’s and Chrissy is suddenly beside me. ‘How’d I do?’ she smiles.

‘I would say you redeemed yourself from the Teen Choice Awards thing. You nailed it.’

‘Thank you.’ She scoots over in her seat beside me.

‘This is Nichole and you know Ryan.’

‘So good to meet you.’ Chrissy waves at Nichole.

‘Same here. I’ve heard a lot about you.’ Nichole says in response as the host comes back out going on about something I didn’t care to listen to. I’m pretty sure he’s already jabbed me with a few jokes when the show started.

The show drags on and on before I sit up in my seat to hear the Best Actress award. Down the long row I could clearly see Selena sitting down with Tracey and that guy from London. Chrissy grabs my hand and Danielle’s with the other.

‘You got this.’ I whisper into her ear.

‘And the winner is – Chrissy Thorton!’ they announce.

‘What?’ Chrissy breathes out looking at me.

‘You won, Chris!’ I help her up and wrap my arms around her waist. ‘You did it!’

She hugs Danielle and Garrett before Ryan hugs Chrissy too and Nichole happily cheers for her. Chrissy clumsily and quickly makes it up to the stage.

‘Wow.’ She says into the microphone, ‘this is unbelievable! I honestly was not expecting this tonight. I can’t think the fans that voted enough. I know this wasn’t easy and it took you guys literally weeks and weeks but thank you for getting this for me. This isn’t my award – its’ ours. That sounds incredibly cheesy and cliché but you guys have made me the luckiest girl in the entire world. I thank each and every one of you. I love you all!’

From my seat I could see the tears welling up in Chrissy’s eyes. She walks over the stage holding her dress with one hand. I stand on my feet and hurry backstage since I was due to introduce Drake any minute and I wanted to tell Chrissy how proud I am of her. On the way backstage I pass Selena and Tracey who were muttering something as I walk by. I come to a stop and turn to face them.

‘You know she has put up with much more than she should’ve dealing with you. You’ve been treating her like she was nothing from the very start and for what? Because of something I did? Piss me off. Try to make me cry. I am sick and tired of you messing with her.’ I nod my head at Tracey, ‘and you. You pretended to like her for months and months just to turn on her? Are you lives really that sad and miserable that you have to bring her down with you? You can talk about Chrissy and try to sabotage her all day long but she was always have more talent in her thumb than the two of you combined. The person who was supposed to win tonight, won. Neither of you will ever, ever take that away from her. I swear if you even try to mess her again – I will be the one to step in and say something.’

‘Listen here…’ the British guy stands on his feet directly in front of me.

‘She’s still pulling you along until she gets bored? I swear if you come near her again I will make it the last thing you do. I don’t think you want to test me on that one.’

‘How about you back some of that up?’ he moves even closer.

‘Nicholas.’ Selena warns tugging on his arm.

‘I’m not the one you want to toy with.’ He scoffs in my direction as he takes his seat.

‘You’re not striking an ounce of fear from me.’ I say before heading backstage before I was escorted out of the awards before I had a chance to talk to Chrissy.

Chrissy’s Point of View

I just got off of the stage and Paul, Nikki, and Chloe were waiting for me.

‘Congratulations!’ each of them say.

Mom and dad both called before I had the chance to sit down. Justin waited patiently in the narrow hallway. His jaw was tight and clenched and his hands were at his sides. He tries to soften his features once we make eye contact but it was too late.

‘What’s the matter?’ I wonder holding his wrist.

‘It’s nothing that I can’t handle.’

‘What are you talking about Justin?’

‘Enough about me. You just won your very first award! Congratulations! I’m so so proud of you.’ he quickly changes the subject leaving me confused.

‘Thank you so much!’ I plaster a smile onto my face.

I wait backstage while Justin introduces Drake who was performing next. We head back to our seats and wait for Movie of the Year to be announced. It was the very last award and Justin bounced his foot up and down. I couldn’t tell if he was upset or nervous.

‘No surprise here, your Movie of the Year goes to Justin Bieber for Believe!!’ the announcers call out and Justin’s song starts to play over the intercom.

‘Congratulations!’ I snake my arms around him before he goes up onto the stage.

‘This is amazing! The best part about this award is that it comes from the fans! You guys are the reason I do this – I do it all for you. You never stop surprising me and never fail to keep a smile on my face. You are the best fans in the entire world. I want to thank Jon Chu for agreeing to do this movie with me. I want to thank Scooter and my team for doing this with me. Mom, dad, baby brother and sister I love you guys so much. Chris – thank you for never giving up on me. Everyone have a great night.’

After the awards things were just as hectic as when they started. People were everywhere and cameras were going off from every angle. Garrett, Ryan, Danielle, Nichole, Justin, and I all pile into one SUV and go out to celebrate. Instead of going to the club we ended up going to iHop and spent about two hours there. I don’t remember what time it was exactly when I finally made it home I just know the entire house was pitch black. I go up to my room to change out of my dress and wipe the makeup from my face. Just as I go to lie down I slid over to my window to close the curtains. A gasp escapes my lips as I look down into the backyard.

A man just stood there, his eyes focusing on my bedroom window.