Waiting for a Chance

*Flashback*
“You know the ceiling isn’t going to move, doesn’t matter how long you stare at it.” I pulled my fixated eyes away from the ceiling and towards my bedroom door. “Hey Lou.” I gave a half smile and sat up.

“Are you going to see her off then? Say goodbye before she leaves?” I let my shoulders shrug, Louis was the only one who knew about my “crush” on Gracyn; then again so did everyone else, however he was the only one I told willingly. “I’m not sure… I think she’s out tonight with Rylan.”

I mumbled under my breath and growled at the name. “Hazza, go see her. She’s going to be gone for a while and it’s going to eat you up if you don’t.” I took a deep breath like sigh out and stood up off my bed. “I guess your right.” Lou gave me an approving nod. “Atta boy. Anyways El and I are going to head out for some dinner.” I nodded my head back as I watched him disappeared into the hall.

Before I took off I walked over to my drawer and pulled out my favorite flannel bottoms, my keys, and headed out of Lou and my flat. Danielle, Eleanor, and Gracie’s flat weren’t that far away from where the boy and I lived.

As I pulled into the complex I couldn’t help but spot two figures in a heated conversation. I pulled in a little more, turning off my lights before doing so and parked. It took me a few seconds to realize who it was. “Grace” I breathed out, not wanting to intrude on their conversation I stayed in my car waiting for it to subside and for him to walk away…

I wasn’t so fortunate though. His face was mean and it was only seconds before he had raised his hand to her cheek. My blood boiled as I sat there flipping a shit. What was I going to do… if I got out she would know I had been watching and she would be mad at me for ease dropping. Grace was about to leave; I couldn’t have her leave mad at me.

So I watched helplessly as she ran away into her flat and he walked away, getting in his car and driving off.

In my mind I couldn’t believe what I had gotten myself into.



”Okay fine, how about this one. If superman and spiderman were to bare a love child what do you think he or she would look like?” I couldn’t help but let the tour bus fill with my laughter. “You’re an honest nut Harold Styles.” I shook my head and stared into my screen, I thanked god all the other dancers were out for lunch.

”You love me don’t deny it.” Rolling my eyes I sighed and his face fell. ”What’s the matter, tell your Hazza bug all about it.” I shook my head and looked down at my fingers. “Nothing, I’m missing home is all. I mean it’s nice to see my parents again and I’m sad my gran is gone but just being without you guys…. It hurts.”

I kept the tears to myself. ”Stop blubbering baby, you’re on tour with freaking Selena Gomez!” I shook my head and felt myself come back. “Speaking of which, the Biebs says he misses your sexy self.” I watched as Harry wiggled his eyebrows. ”Yeah well I’m glad Justin misses this bod.”

Giving a little wink he smiled, ”Well I must go. I have to be awake in a few hours.” I pouted and nodded. “Bye Hazza.” Before I knew it I was alone once again.



“Haz.” I flipped through my instagram mindlessly as Harry and the guys sat there intently watching the football game. “Yeah?” His eyes were glued to the TV. “Robin on meth.” I stated with a smirk.

By now I had his attention, “Excuse me?” His eyebrows were furrowed. “I realized I never answered what superman and Spiderman’s love child looked like. “Robin on meth.” I gave him a little smirk as he sat there dumbfounded, he didn’t remember. He turned his head away from me back to the tellie and I got up and headed out the door for a little walk.

When I stepped out I realized I had realized I was dressed for perfect weather, the sun was hot and it was scorching. I soon found myself on the trail, turning my phone on vibrate I slipped it into my back pocket and began taking in the fresh air.

It’s been awhile since I had time like this on my hands, it gave me time to really think. Collect everything that recently happened. Like the kiss… and Harry, it’s been two weeks since then. It was hard to wrap my mind around that, after it happened I kind of brushed it off as if it never happened.

That could be a reason why he had shook me off not too long ago. It was six months ago but the sting of the slap felt like just last night. Rylan and I had been together for three years, my sophomore to senior year of high school. He moved to England with me, he had given up so much… then again the last year of our relationship had become rocky.

I wish I had walked away earlier if I would of known, left him in America… but I loved him. I let my fingers run through my hair as I continued on the trail. There was a still a small part of me that loved him, a very, very small part. Then there was Harry, there was no doubt in my mind there was mutual feelings, he did kiss me and I kissed back after all. I was just lost and not sure why,



“What was that about?” The game was on commercial and the moment had turned to me. “I don’t know.” Honestly I could care less, not. “Haz she looked upset, go talk to her.” I ignored Zayn, and turned to my phone. I was upset with her right now, I didn’t want to have anything to do with her at the moment.

Call me harsh, call me an ass whatever it’s been two week since I made it known how I felt but obviously she didn’t feel the same. So I move on, end of story. “She’s fine, just being dramatic.” I mumbled as a sent off a text to Brigit a bird I’ve been talking to. “Harry…” I shook it off and moved on. “So do we have enough room for a friend of mine to come join us?” I looked up from my phone and smiled widely.