She Killed My Brain

Jimmy had to go home after I got out of the tub. I walked him to the door and we kissed before he left. After he left I dried my hair and got dressed in comfy pajamas. I went into my room and put water in my snakes bowl. I fell onto my bed and grabbed my laptop. I was about time I checked my messages I guess, I don't know when the last time I was even on my laptop to be honest. I turned it on and waited for it to boot up, it got quiet and I knew it was almost done. I went to my browser and and went to my messages. I saw I had one from Danni. 'I should've known'. I opened it and read it to see what was going on apparently. I read it.

"Hey, I don't know what I've done. You honestly don't know how sorry I am for whatever I've done to hurt you babe. I will do anything to get you back. I know I probably blew it when I acted like that in front of you and your mom...and that guy. Just please call me, or email me back. I haven't been able to get in touch with you; your mom never really gives me an answer. I love you, babe."

See, this is what makes me hate you even more Danni! Seriously! I don't want you! Of course I will never get back together with him, I love Jimmy too much. Jimmy hasn't lied to me, and I don't believe he will. I didn't even respond to that message, there was no point, he'll get it eventually. I saw I had one more, and it was from a long time ago friend who moved. My best friend Cody. I instantly opened it and read it. I scanned the sentences, and then I did again.

"Nattie, I don't know why I haven't messaged you sooner. I really fucking miss you, a lot. I don't know how things are going with you, I know they have to be pretty good for you and Danni. I hate I had to move and not say anything to you. I wonder if you've completely forgot about me actually. I mean, I know things have to be going great in your life, I know you and Danni have to be happy. I know he had somethings planned before I left, I hope he's still going through with them... Message me back whenever you can, okay? Love ya."

I didn't know how I felt about that. I read it again, and a few more times to make sure I was reading it the right way. I'm not mad at him for leaving and not saying anything, that's okay. I know these things happen sometimes. I don't know what he meant by Danni had something planned. Him and Danni never liked each other. Mostly, Danni didn't like him for some reason. He was fine with everyone else except my best friend. I started to reply.

"Cody! I haven't heard from you in forever! It's totally okay what happened with you moving, I mean I understand that. I miss you sooooo much! I haven't forgotten you existed silly (Smiley Face). I hope you come to visit me sometime okay? And, I don't know what you mean by Danni had something planned. I don't talk to him anymore. Things started getting bad and I couldn't take it anymore. I would have to explain in very much detail whenever I saw you or something. I do have a new boyfriend though. I know what you're thinking, that was pretty fast right? Hahaha. I met him awhile ago, he was there for me for a lot of stuff. He even took me to the beach and we stayed for a few days, can you believe it?! I haven't been there forever! I hope you get this soon and message me back. I fucking miss you like hell! I love ya bro!"

I smiled as I hit the send button. I miss him so much, I wish I would've checked my messages sooner. I've been haven't so much fun with Jimmy I haven't even thought about it once. I closed the browser and went looking for some music on my laptop. I found something and put it on low volume so it wasn't too loud so I could relax. I don't know when my mom will be home, or what will happen when she gets home. I know Jimmy had to go to his house and clean or something, I don't quiet remember. I know he would never do anything to hurt me though, I trust him. I laid back in my bed and relaxed. I was so happy these days. It made them go by so fast, I want them to go by slow and much more calmly. I don't ever want to forget anything I do with Jimmy; he makes me so happy! I laid there and calmly listened to the music.