She Killed My Brain

I woke up with Jimmy around my body. I smiled remembering last night. I peeled him off of myself and went to the bathroom. After that I went to the fridge got a cold water out and took a couple of sips. I walked over to the front door window to see if mom was back yet. I didn't see anything and this started to worry me, she usually lets me know about these things before she does them. I went into her bedroom and the door was open and she was nowhere in sight. I signed having a bad feeling about this. I hoped in the shower and got dressed. Jimmy was still sleeping, I wanted to go look for my mom. I nudged him and he instantly opened his eyes, it creeped me out a little. He looked at me and smiled that smile I love. He instantly pecked me on the lips and that made me happy. The realization hit me though, we had to go look for my mom.

"Jimmy, my mom still isn't back yet. I have a bad feeling something happened, you wanna go with me to look for her." He jumped up very fast so he could go help me look. We bolted out of the house nervous of what could have happened. I was upset and I know Jimmy could tell I was. He grabbed my hand and we went to her friends house in Jimmy's car. I knocked on the lady's door urgently. She opened the door shocked by my pounding.

"Dear, dear, what is wrong?!" She asked so concerned.

"Have you seen my mom Ms. Vonda?! She didn't come home last night and I am extremely worried about her." She looked at me confused.

"I haven't seen her, I haven't talked to her in a few days either. If she were leaving or going somewhere I'm sure she would've told you dear." She stood staring at me confused. Then, she looked over at Jimmy.

"I'm really sorry, I didn't mean to beat on your door. I'm just worried. Thank you." I started running away before she could say anything. Jimmy was right beside me not worrying about the lady either. After that stop we went to three different other houses trying to figure out if she had gone somewhere and no one had heard from her or talked to her recently in the past few days. This isn't like my mom to not get in touch with anyone at all. I don't understand. Tears started welling up in my eyes and I didn't know what to do. Jimmy stopped what he was doing and held me tight in his arms trying to comfort me. There wasn't much he could do to help me at the moment. I'm too upset for words right now. I broke his embrace, I gave me a apologetic look, letting him know I mean nothing by it. I grabbed his hand and we were on our way again. We made it back to the house and I was very upset over everything. I don't understand what's going on. I went into my moms room to see if she might be back in there. I didn't see anything, not a letter, not a sigh she had even been in her room at all. It was so neat and clean. I just fell to the floor and started crying and couldn't stop. Jimmy dropped down so fast to get to where I was so he could hold me and rock me back and forth. He held my head tight in his arms, against his shoulder.

"We're gonna figure out what happened, okay? Calm down please." I couldn't calm down, I don't even know how he could say that right now. I don't know what to do and I'm scared to death and my mom isn't here to take care of me when I'm scared. She's the reason why I'm scared and no one can make me feel any better about it. I don't know what to do, I'm so fucking scared. After about 15 minutes there was a knock on the door. I didn't know who it was and I jumped up and ran to the door. I opened it to see one police officer and book in his hand. I didn't know what to say.

"Are you...uhhh...Nat...tii?"

"Nattie?!" I asked urgently.

"Oh, why yes. I'm sorry to inform you but, your mother has been killed." I couldn't speak. I couldn't move. I couldn't...

"What the fuck did you say?!" Jimmy rushed over behind me, not believing what he had heard. The officer was taking aback by his play on words.

"Excuse me?" The officer raised a brow.

"You heard me!" Jimmy raised his voice. "What did you say? What's going on?!" He was panicked. The officer wrote something in his little book.

"We found her dead in her car early this morning. It seemed to have happened earlier than that, but we can't quiet figure out the time on that yet." Jimmy just looked at the officer mortified. "We need you two to come into questioning so we can figure out this murder. Can you come now?" He asked looking at me. I couldn't move, I couldn't tell him yes; or no. Tears were over flowing in my eyes. I couldn't blink, I couldn't do any fucking thing but have puddles all around my feet. Jimmy tried to get a hold of me to calm me down some, I didn't know how to calm down, I don't know how to quite making rivers. I want to die. I don't want to go through this, I want to be out of this. This is the last thing I want to ever happen in life. This isn't real, this is a lie. A DREAM. It's not real, it's not real, it's not real...

"She can go in, I don't know if she will be able to speak or do much of anything." Jimmy was answering for me, he knew I couldn't squeal. "I can probably answer a lot. Can you just nod your head on the things I have correct?" I nodded my head so he would know. We started towards the car and Jimmy had to end up picking me up. I couldn't speak. We were in the police car and he just held my head as I teared all over his shirt. He let me flood him. He occasionally whipped the tear stains from my face with his hand. He rubbed my back the whole way to the police station. They got us into a questioning room to do all their business. I was sat in a chair, Jimmy was sat in a chair beside me, read to answer my questions. The man came in the room.

"Hello there, I am detective Will. I will be questioning you two about the past few days." Jimmy nodded. The man looked at me and shook his head. "So, who are you?" he asked looking at Jimmy.

"I'm James Euringer, I'm Nattie's boyfriend." Jimmy said pointing at me. He nodded and wrote something down. "I'll be answering the questions. I mean, I don't know if you can do that, but she can't talk. She can nod, but don't make her go through that." Jimmy said in a stern voice to the man. He nodded in agreement.

"Okay then, James. Where have you and Nattie been the past few days."

"We've been at Nattie's house." Jimmy answered. "Her mom was gone last night. We thought she probably went to a friends house. She didn't leave a note, and that's pretty unusual of her. She didn't return this morning and Nattie knew something had to be wrong, it isn't like her mother." He wrote more stuff down on his little note pad.

"I see." He said, making a fast motion with his pen. "Has anything happened in the past days, weeks, ect?" He asked.

"Actually yes, but I doubt it would have to do with what happened." The guy looked at Jimmy confused.

"Okay, go on ahead."

"Well," Jimmy started but coughed. "A couple of weeks ago, Nattie broke up with her long time boyfriend, things weren't going right and she didn't like it. He was in the house a couple of days ago in her room and we had to tell him to leave. We haven't seen him or heard from him since then." He looked at Jimmy questioningly

"So, she broke up with and and is with you now, correct?" he asked making sure. Jimmy nodded in agreement. "Okay, that's already a lead suspect right there. We'll look for him and see what we can get out of him."

"Thank you. His name is Danni Greer." The man nodded and sent us on our way. The officer drove us back to my house, where Jimmy packed my things in a bag and fed my snake for me so I could go stay at his house for a few days. He threw everything in the car and we headed to his apartment. He unloaded everything, then came and got me. He picked me up out of his car and headed me up the stairs to where he lives. It was a nice apartment, but it doesn't matter at the moment. He laid me down on the bed and covered me up. I have so much running through my head that I don't even know what to do right now. I have never; ever been so scared before in my life. There can't be anyway Danni would do something like this that would hurt me so. I can't believe it, I don't believe it. I'm going to get myself together when I can. I know Jimmy is here for me but I don't know what to actually do. Jimmy covered me up and laid beside me to be able to comfort me in the best way that he could. I felt empty inside.