Even in Death We Can Find Love

How could he not fight for his life. I watched him listen to the rules and walk with his make up artist. He looked like he was think of other things. Why would he pick the life of a complete stranger. His parents died and he has to watch his brother.

I don't want to be here I don't want to kill anyone. I hate it. They think I'm this killing machine that I get some kind of sick joy of kill people my age and younger. It's sick... It makes me sick. I want to puke at the thought of.

But I need to bring home the pride of being a victor. I mean it's not like a choice. I brought shame to my family when I came out. I didn't realize it was such a big deal for someone in our district.

I just don't want to kill anyone especially Gerard.