Three Cheers

I didn't feel any regret as we laid beneath my comforter, naked. Gerard had his arms around me, kissing my head. I felt content, I felt whole.

"I'm relieved." He said softly.

I knew what he meant.

"I'm sorry you went through that, Gerard." 

He sighed, "Things happen for a reason. I think God... Fate, whatever, wanted us to reconnect."

I had a feeling that he was right.

"For Busy." I added.

Gerard suddenly pulled me onto him, causing me to straddle his waist. He stared at my nude body, "I fucked up so bad. How could you forgive me?"

I licked my lips, "Well, because I love you. Whatever happened was in the past."

"Yeah," He started quickly, "But, I was such an asshole. I don't see how you could ever love me."

I took his hand, marveling my fingers over the scars on his wrist. I kissed then, then I put his hand on mine, "This is how I could ever love you. You and me are the same... We went through hell, and we were each others life boats."

Gerard ran his finger up my jagged scars, he traced the tattooed B placed in the middle. He smiled at the pink B, "How was it? When you had Busy, I mean."

I shrugged, "I don't really remember. I was in pain for like three days, she popped out and I fell in love with her."

Gerard shut his eyes a moment, "I should've been there."

"Yeah, you should have." I murmured.

"I'm so fucking stubborn... I really had myself convinced that you didn't love me, but you do. You had my baby and you raised her; she's an amazing little girl. Busy is pure and innocent."

"She makes me happy, Gerard. Nothing can make me sad because I know I have Busy. She is the sweetest thing on the planet."

Gerard kept rolling his fingers up and down my forearm, "Y'know, when Frank told me he saw her, and he was telling me everything about her, I was really happy I had gotten sober. I wouldn't have cared or remembered if I was still an alcoholic or taking drugs." His hands marveled up my hips, "I ain't mean all that stupid shit I said, I swear... I was jealous."

I smiled down at him, "Jealous?"

He nodded, "You're the only woman I ever had real feelings for." He squeezed my hips, "You with other guys... It don't seem right at all."

"So, what's right?" I challenged him with a smirk.

"You and me. We're connected, we're meant to be, we met for a reason... Let's not let it go to waste or ruin it."

I frowned a bit, "I didn't ruin it."

He sat up pulling me with him, "I know I'm the one who ruined it," He pulled me to his chest, hugging me, kissing my jaw in the processes, "I will never, ever fucking ruin it again... If you'll, y'know, take me back."

I hummed a moment, "Let's just take it slow, okay? Nothing serious."

He nodded, "Yeah, I understand. But, how more serious could we get? I mean, look at us." He chuckled softly.

I smirked slightly, sitting up, "Busy is gonna freak out."

Gerard smiled, "She is... Oh man. I might add, you should've taught her how to keep a secret."

I rolled my eyes playfully, "Busy just likes to please."

"She told my secret, didn't she?" He asked.

"About how much you love me?" I smirked still, he nodded, "Yep. She ratted you out."

"It was true. She told me how sad you were that I was with what's-her-face."

We both laughed, "Our kid is amazing." I said softly.

Gerard tugged at his bottom lip, "I'm glad she's the only one I got right now."

"You wanted her, you got her." I told him with a smile.

Gerard rubbed my hips with his fingers, "I wish I could take it all back, October." I think I saw tears in his eyes, he had adverted them down, "I wish I could start all over and be the man that you and Busy need."

I sighed softly, "You're here now, just be her daddy."

His eyes met mine, "What about you?"

I tweaked my lips, "I'm okay with having you around, making my baby laugh."

Gerard seemed to chewed at his bottom lip, "Let me do something for you."

"I'm good." I told him.

"You're good?" He smirked back at me.

I nodded, "Practically a saint."

He chuckled, "What I'm about to do ain't too saintly." He muttered.

I rolled my eyes, his hands tightened around my hips, he flipped us over. I smiled as his buried his face against my neck, kissing me gently. My body shivered, I sunk my fingers up his back and through his hair.

I bit at his ear, he groaned softly, murmuring my name. His hands on my body made me warp back again, like I always do whenever I was with him. I always remembered how life used to be, almost 10 years before.

"What're you thinking about?" Gerard had a little laugh to his question. 

I looked up at him, "I feel like I'm 16 again."

He smiled at me, looking at my body a moment, "You ain't built like your 16 anymore."

I smirked at him, "I didn't mean it like that."

He smirked back, "I know, I'm just saying... Pregnancy was good to you."

I didn't have a reply to that, I just kissed him, forcing him in his back. He tilted his head back, breaking our kiss, he had this hungry look in his eyes.

"I wanna hear something from you, Sugar." Gerard licked his lips.

"What?" I trailed my hands up and down his sides.

"Tell me you love me." His hands squeezed my waist, awaiting a reaction from me.

I bit at my lip, "That's what you wanna hear?"

"Tell me you love me. That's all I wanna hear from you."

I opened my mouth, my stomach squeezed and tensed. I didn't know if I wanted to say it, just because of our past. I do love him... I didn't want to become what we once were -all of the bad stuff.

"I love you, Gee." I murmured softly.

Gerard twisted us around, so he was on top and my legs were wrapped around him. I felt him ready to enter me, I held my breath a moment. Gerard kissed me, "Say it again." He said against my lips.

"I love you, Gerard." I said softly.

Gerard pushed himself inside of me, our eyes met, my heart hammered and I felt like I could barely breathe. This was heavier than any other moment together, aside from the first time we had sex. It was deeper and I didn't care about getting off, all I wanted was to be close to Gerard again. He didn't move for a moment, he just kept his eyes with mine. He leaned down and kissed me slowly, it was amazingly intimate.

Gerard pulled away, "I love you, Sugar. You're the only one that I want."

I held onto his shoulders and looked at him, "You promise?"

He nodded, "I promise. I'll never break my promise, I won't do it again. You believe me?"

Sadly, I didn't. Gerard is so unpredictable. But, I did believe that he wouldn't hurt Busy.

"Yes. I believe you." I combed my hand through his hair.

He kissed me again, forcing me back against my bed, and my hands to tug at his hair. Gerard slowly started to move, I really didn't care, I just needed him. All this emotion bubbled up in my body, and I almost start to cry. I needed Gerard so bad, and I had been hiding my emotion and the truth for so long. I wanted him to be with me, to be my husband again, even if before he was a drunken asshole; I love him more than I could love any other person -aside from Busy- on this earth.

I watched him, felt his body on mine, him inside of me, it built tension and my peak built up. It came over me quick that I was gonna explode with just thought of him there. I clawed at his back, I bit down on his shower, calming my screams.

Gerard and I came, holding each other and panted. He stayed on top of me, "Am I crushing you?"

"No, it feels nice." I told him.

He exhaled a breath, his lips kissing at my sweaty and hot skin. I felt naturally comfortable with him. I felt myself falling to sleep, I wrapped my arms comfortable around Gerard and rested my head against his.

"I promise I'll take care of you," I heard him whisper in my ear, "I promise."

I kissed his cheek, unable to answer. I didn't know how. I wanted to kiss him.