Why Don't We Just Let This One Take Care of Itself?

It used to be the rivers that would take us away...

When the beaners left, I picked up my phone to call Scott. 
"Scotty baby," I said after he answered on the third ring.
"Hi babe, what's up?"
"I have some news; good and bad. Which do you want first?"
"Good news."
"Okay...so you remember the merch girl interview I went to a few days ago right?"
"The one from Pierce The Veil, yes. You have told me a million times how you hoped you'd get the job."
"Well babe, I got it. I got the job."
"Really? That's fantastic. I'm really happy for you."
"Now for the bad news."
"Oh geez."
"Well we have to hit the road. Tomorrow. At 4 am."
"Yep. It's just so short notice. They just told me like thirty minutes ago."
"Oh they called you?"
"Um...no. They came over, I gave them my address. Along with my number."
"So anyway," I brushed off his silence, I was in no mood to argue," will you be okay? I mean, I don't want to leave you alone..."
"Maya, I know much more than anyone how badly you wanted this job. I will be okay. Of course I'll miss you, but I'll deal with it. I'll deal with it because I know you'll be happy."
"Oh my gosh, I just realized something."
"What is that, babe?" he asked sounding a little concerned.
"I have the best  boyfriend ever!!! You'll drop me off at the tour bus, right?"
"Darling, I'll wake you up, he chuckled.
"Aww, more mushy lovy stuff. Okay well time will you be home? I have to wake up at at least by 3 am. And I have to pack."
"I'll be home in about thirty minutes."
"Alright, oh and one more thing. You don't have to dress up or anything but please don't look like a hobo tomorrow. I want to introduce you to them."
"Ou sweet! Okay, sweetie, I have to go."
"Okay honey, love ya!"
"Diddo!" and with that, he hung up.
When I hung up the phone, I couldn't help but have this feeling. A wrong feeling. But I brushed it off, I had to start packing.
I woke up at 3:15 am, to the sound my iPod alarm. It was my voice yelling,"GET YOUR ASS UP! YOU'RE TOURING WITH PIERCE THE VEIL!" as a reminder not to put it on snooze.
     I picked up the alarm, rolled over and put it near Scott's ear. He woke up after 'GET'. As he and I sat up, I turned of the stupid alarm and took a quick shower with Scott. I thought it would be nice and romantic, but instead it was sort of...awkward. I thought it was because we were just tired. 
After we got out the shower, we dressed in silence. I put on a Sleeping With Sirens t-shirt and an oversized. It would be Scott's but he's thinner than me. Some dark skinny jeans, and I slipped on my black Toms. I put my hair in a ponytail and I wore my glasses. 
"Babe, are you ready?" I asked Scott.
"Yeah hun, just gotta put on my shoes." 
While he did this, I went to the bathroom and put in my piercings and plugs. When I walked back out, Scott was ready and holding my bags. I gabbed journal, books, iPod, cellphone, and small box which held my other plugs and piercing rings. 
 We stuffed my two book bags of clothes, and other stuff in the back seat of the Mustang we owned. It was 3:55 when we left and it took Scott thirty minutes to drive to the tour bus. I looked out the window, and drifted into deep thought. I thought about my job at HotTopic, about how much fun we were gonna have on tour, I thought about Jaime and how much fun we'd have, then about me and Scott. Our relationship, what it was turning into. Don't get me wrong, I loved Scott, and I was pretty convinced that he loved me too. But lately, things between us have been seeming so...distant. 

"Babe," he said to me, I jumped at his voice. I forgot where I was for a second.
"Yes, hun?"
"What are you thinking about?" he asked in a soft voice.
I didn't want to tell him the truth, not just yet. I was tired, he was tired. And maybe I would just be too dramatic,"I'm thinking, this shit better be worth waking me up this early." but I knew it was, it's PTV. 
He just laughed at me and continued to move along in silence. Something was really wrong. We never went so long in silence before. Our minds were both in completely different places.

But I was too afraid to say anything.
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