Love, hate and forgiveness

Once again I was out in the rain and cold, today is not my day, I don't know why I bother. May as well just give up. My father hates me, my ma uses me as a toy, my friends abandoned me, I'm a freak in school and not even a beautiful girl cares. Sighing I plonked myself down on a bench head in my hands, why am I still sat here? If my family hates me do much why don't they just kill me, I'll do it for them, I'll disappear forever never to be seen again, yes that's what I'll do I'll spend my last day at school the only places can escape the world with music and art, then I'll say my final goodbye I think I'll write my note in geography.. Not that anyone will care.
Dressed in black blending into the darkness I shall walk as many miles until I reach the motor way where nobody can save me, for now I should probably settle down for the night. 
**times lap**
The sun blazed over me blinding me with its rays, damn sunrise! Quickly I changed into my uniform heading for my first and last day back in my old school the hell I call parents removed me from. I'll be known as the new kid all over again maybe this time I'll make a friend and I'll have something to live for. Oh shut up Zakkii you and I know that won't happen a voice inside my head growled, with that I stuffed my earphones into my ears and trudged to school.
**end of times lapse**