Remember Me?

After not responding to Adam’s answer, he sighed heavily before standing up; disregarding his full cup of coffee. He left the room muttering something about needing a shower. I frowned as I watched him walk away. Everyday I feel guiltier for staying with Adam in a loveless relationship. Adam is obviously madly in love with me while I only love him as a dear friend. The only reason I stayed with Adam all this time is simply because I’m afraid that I’ll end up alone. Its completely selfish and mediocre but I can’t bring myself to end things with him. Adam and I have been together for almost six years; Will and I only spent about eleven months together within three years. Three of those eleven months were sexual while the other eight months were more lovey dovey. Come to think of it, the summer Will came back only consisted of sex.

In the beginning of August four years ago was the last time Will and I were intimate. I was lying on my bed in my lingerie while he stood at the foot of the bed, getting dressed.

“What are you doing today?” I asked.

“Probably shopping for school stuff,” he shrugged as he buttoned his jeans.

“You know sometimes I think you just use me for sex,” I teased.

“First off; that was completely random. Secondly; you know that’s not what this is about,” he smiled.

“Well maybe I’m just using you for sex,” I giggled.

“Yeah I know; you just want me for my sexy body,” he said cockily as he pulled his shirt over his head.

“Adam has a better body,” I smirked.

I squealed as he grabbed my ankle and drug me down the bed. I bit my lip and looked up at him as he hovered over me.

“Now I know that is not true because if it was, you’d be screaming his name instead of mine,” he smirked.

“I guess your right,” I smiled.

“Now I really have to go. I’ll send my parents out tonight and I’ll come pick you. We’ll have dinner at my place. Sound good?” he asked.

“I have plans with Adam tonight, sorry,” I muttered.

“Maybe another night then, I’ll see you later,” he smiled as he kissed me.

“I love you,” I whispered.

“Love you too,” he smiled as he walked out.

At the time, I thought Will really did love me; I was wrong though. He could never love me like Adam loves me. I still love him though for some reason. I think Adam knows that I’m in love with someone else though; thankfully he doesn’t have a clue who it is. It pains me so much to see the hurt in his eyes when I get in my depressive moods and totally ignore him. I’m waiting for him to give up on me completely and leave.

“God he deserves so much better than me,” I muttered to myself

A few minutes later I heard the water to Adam’s shower shut off. Without even looking, I knew he was wrapping a towel around his waist and preparing to brush his teeth. After he brushes his teeth, he’ll run a comb through his short hair and walk into our room to pull on the outfit he laid out. As I heard him do his normal routine, a revelation hit me like a ton of bricks. The reason I knew Adam’s routine was because I cared to notice. I knew him so well while I barely knew Will. I never really wanted to go on dates with Will, only Adam. Even after a wonderful day with Will, I would still want to fall asleep in Adam’s arms. Maybe, just maybe, I was still in love with Adam. Maybe that’s why I haven’t left him; because deep down inside I’m still in love with Adam.

“Reese you’re spacing out again,” Adam muttered as he dumped out his cold coffee.

“Oh, sorry,” I muttered.

“Look I’m going to the store. Do you need anything?” he asked.

I shook my head. He sighed and walked out of the kitchen. My eyes widened as I realized that I was walking on thin ice with Adam; at any moment he could give up on us all together.

“I can’t lose him,” I muttered.

“Adam!” I called as I jumped up.

I walked out of the kitchen just as Adam was opening the front door. He turned to me and I launched myself at him. I threw my arms around his neck as his tightly held my waist.

“What’s wrong?” he asked frantically.

I shook my head and gently kissed him.

“I love you,” I whispered.

He smiled lightly.

“I love you too,” he smiled.

“Pick up whatever you want from the store. I’ll make us a nice dinner tonight and we’ll have a nice, romantic evening,” I smiled.

“Really?” he smiled.

I smiled and nodded.

“I love you,” he grinned as he kissed me.

“I love you too,” I smiled.

He reluctantly let go of me and headed for the door.

“Hurry back,” I smiled as he walked out.

I walked back into the kitchen with a smile on my face. For the first time in a long time, I felt genuinely happy. I knew that Will would always have a place in my heart, but I also knew that he would never be able to take over my life again.

I quickly finished my coffee and walked into the bathroom to take a shower. I ran the water and stripped out of my wet clothes. I stepped into the shower and moaned as the hot water warmed me up and relaxed my muscles. As I stood under the water, I couldn’t help but let my thoughts wander back to this day four years ago when Will left.

Its been a week since I last saw Will. I was currently lying on my bed, debating if I should call him or not. Before I made up my mind, the doorbell rang. I sighed and trudged out of bed. I walked downstairs and opened the door. I was surprised to see Will standing there.

“Hey you,” I smiled as I leaned up to kiss him.

He turned his head and I got his cheek instead of his lips.

“What’s wrong?” I asked as I looked up at him.

“I’m leaving today Reese,” he muttered.

“Excuse me?” I spat.

“You heard me,” he sighed.

“So why are you telling me this now? You couldn’t of given me a heads up?” I snapped.

“I didn’t know how to tell you. We were having fun and I didn’t want to ruin it,” he muttered.

I frowned and stepped out onto the porch with him.

“When will you be back?” I sighed.

“I’m not sure if I’m coming back this time Reese,” he sighed.

“What? Why?” I shrieked.

“There is nothing here for me Reese. I’m not happy here; I’m not meant to be in one place for a long time. I want to finish up college and then I want to travel,” he answered.

“Okay but you won’t finish college for two years! You can come back during the summer and we can be together,” I smiled.

“Great so now I’m only allowed summer romances. That’s not going to work Reese,” he spat.

“What about this summer though? We fell in love Will!” I exclaimed.

“I love you Reese, I really do, but it isn’t enough to make me stay. I don’t want to be the other guy for the rest of my life!” he snapped.

“You won’t have to be! I’ll break up with Adam,” I suggested.

“No, don’t do that. He’ll make you happy and he loves you more than I ever could. Stay with him,” he pleaded.

“But Will I want to be with you! We can make this work! Don’t do this to us,” I pleaded.

“Reese there is no us! There’s you and Adam and I’m just the other guy. Not anymore though, I want to be the only guy in a girl’s life. I want her to love me and only me, not another guy,” he sighed.

“Why can’t I be that girl Will?” I exclaimed.

“Because you’re just a child!” he barked.

Even though I didn’t want to admit it; what he said hurt.

“I wasn’t a child when you were screwing me now was I?” I snapped, blinking back tears.

“Reese you’re sixteen; I shouldn’t be seeing you. You’re a minor and I want someone my own age,” he muttered.

“Well find someone your own age then! I never want to see you again you damn coward!” I spat.

“Don’t worry; you won’t see me again,” he sneered.

I couldn’t help but smile at the memory. That was the day that Will walked out of my life for good. It was the day that I was free from his charm. And now four years later, it’s the day that I’ve moved on from him. Now that these lingering memories and haunting feelings for Will are gone, I can finally move on and be happy with Adam.

“Finally,” I sighed blissfully.

A knock at the door interrupted my shower. I sighed, figuring that Adam forgot his keys and now he's locked out. I rolled my eyes playfully and turned off the water. I wrapped a towel around myself and walked out of the bathroom and down the hall.

"Forget your keys again?" I smirked as I opened the door.

The smirk left my face when I noticed that it wasn't Adam at the door. Standing there was the ghost from my past. He's changed quite a bit since he was twenty. His muscles were larger; they were bulging against his shirt. He had a few tattoos adorning his arms and he was dressed up a bit. He was wearing a light blue button down shirt with the sleeves rolled up to his elbows and a pair of khaki cargo shorts; an outfit he wouldn't be caught dead in four years ago.

"Did he get dressed up for me?" I thought.

His dark brown, almost black, eyes raked up and down my body. He caught my gaze and he sent me the smirk that would've made me weak at the knees four years ago.

"Remember me princess?" he smirked.