He Had To Pick Me

And then the doctor came in sat down and said.............

“Sorry it took me so long just making sure everything was done properly. As for the pregnancy I am very deeply sorry to tell you that you guys are not pregnant and thats why it took me so long because if you are not pregnant then you shouldnt be having these symptoms we will have to do testing on that but I understand this is a lot to take in so why don't I leave you two alone for some time and then maybe when can figure out what we need to do next"

When the doctor said I wasn't pregnant my heart dropped I could feel my world crashing down and I had to try my absolute hardest not to loose it right there and then. After the doctor left I looked over at Jordan who had one single tear rolling down his face. Jordan could act tough as much as he wanted but being a father was something he really wanted and got excited to be after I told him, and suddenly I felt so guilty, I shouldn't have told him until I was a hundred percent sure I got him excited for no reason I felt even worse now. I got up to hug Jordan but when I approached him, he simply got up and left the room, I was confused but was crying too hard to try and make sense of what just happened. After awhile of Jordan not returning the doctor came in and told me that I should go home for now but come back the next day to get all the necessary tests done. I walked out of the room hoping to see Jordan in the waiting room but he wasn't there I looked outside to make sure his car was still there and I saw Jordan sitting there in the front seat

I walked out of the doctors office and to the car. He looked upset, no he looked pissed. I knew I he didn't want to talk to me and I guess I deserved it too after everything I just put him through I was a terrible person. We drove to my house in complete silence I was still crying my eyes out and occasionally I would see Jordan wipe a tear off his face. I wanted nothing more than to hug him and say sorry but I knew I couldn't and he wouldn't want me to, but it still broke my heart to see my adorable funny and laughing Jordan crying. When we reached my house I got out and without saying a word walked to the door and watched as Jordan sped off.

Jordan's point of view
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After the doctor left the room Makayla came up to me but I needed to leave I couldn't look at her not now not after everything that just happened. How could she lead me on like that and get me to believe something that she knew wasn't true, girls can tell, she knew for a fact she wasn't pregnant, my feelings were just a game to her. I fucking hated her, and regretted the day we met each other. I left the doctor's office and went to my car I thought about just leaving that bitch there but my mom taught me better so I waited in the car for her to come. When she finally came she looked like a mess and I almost felt sorry for her but then I reminded myself that this was all part of her game and I could not loose. Not after I just lost so much in one day.

We drove in silence to her house, I almost wanted her to say something, anything that could make me feel better of our current situation. But she didn’t and I just kept driving she was still crying and as much as I tried not to I couldn't help but cry too, my heart was broken I couldn't stop thinking about how I wasn't going to be a father and that the girl I tried so hard to get wasn't the girl I thought she was. The girl I loved didn't love me, the girl I was so sure I was going to marry turned out to be nothing but a waste of time. I felt like I was nothing my heart was broken and I didn't think it was fixable, not this time. When we finally got to her house she just quietly got up and left. I needed to go somewhere, somewhere I could get away from my problem, my broken heart, and my thoughts.

Makayla’s point of view~
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I didn't want to think about anything right now, Jordan was being annoying as much as I understood this was a difficult time, I couldn't understand why he felt like he was the only person going through it I was hurting to as much as he was, maybe even more. But still I loved him and couldn't help but think he had to pick me, couldn't he pick a girl that wouldn't hurt him as much as I did.

After taking a shower and just clearing my mind a little I called the doctor to make an appointment to get the tests done for the next morning, after all that happened I didn't really get time to think about why I might be having these symptoms if I wasn't pregnant. I was sure I would be fine though it probably was just a little flu that I took the wrong way, right?

I guess I would have to do everything by myself because it was clear that Jordan wasnt going to be calling anytime soon. We were done.

I couldn't understand why it hurt me so much when I thought about it because it was all my fault in the first place, now I would have to live with the pain and regret. It was a very small punishment for such a bad doing.