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Skin and Bones
Twenty One
Garrett dropped me off later that afternoon, I wasn’t too enthusiastic about going home but there were things I needed to do and Garrett had some errands to run.
“What is he doing here?” I thought out loud on seeing Martin knocking on my front door as Garrett’s little yellow car parked up by my house.
“Do you want me to stay with you?”
“No I’ll send him away, I’ll text you.” I gave Garrett a thank you in the form of a kiss on the cheek and watched as he drove away.
“Erm…Martin?” I questioned when I was close enough so I knew he could hear me.
“Eva I was just wondering what you were up to.”
“That’s why we have phones Martin.”
“I just haven’t seen you in a while that’s all and…have you gained weight?”
“Probably.” Garrett and I decided to take the scales out of my house, I would only go by the weekly numbers Karen gave me, hopefully it would stop me from obsessing.
“I can tell, not to worry we can easily fix that.” I couldn’t believe he had just said that, we were both meant to be gaining weight.
“What do you mean by fix?”
“You don’t want to get too big now do you?”
“Martin I’m underweight, I need to gain more than a few pounds.” I was finding it difficult not to scream in his face, he was twisted.
“Oh no you’ve been listening to that Garrett again, not to worry Eva I can get you back on track. Just the two of us like how it used to be.”
“Martin you need to listen to me, your mind is warped. You’re not seeing what everyone else can see, this disease affects your mind as well as your body. It’s your mind which needs to get better and you’re still very sick.” I had a feeling he wouldn’t listen to me, I didn’t listen to anyone, you’re in compete denial about your illness. It took me twenty minutes to get rid of Martin, I told him numerous times he still needed help and that I couldn’t be friends with him until I was better. I let him poison my mind once I wasn’t going to let it happen again.
I had been here before, applying for jobs, looking for new apartments but this time it felt different, this time I was more positive, more determined. I certainly felt as if I had more energy, I didn’t need an alarm to tell me to eat and I heard my stomach grumble for the first time in months. It was such a simple thing; get hungry, eat, then feel full but satisfied but I felt marvellous. I had my independence back and felt as if I could climb Everest; the world was my oyster.
“Any luck on the job front?” Jared asked shoving a handful of fried in his mouth, getting sauce on the top of his lip in the process. The band, Tim, and I were at In n’ out, I couldn’t quite believe it myself even more surprisingly it was my idea.
“No yet, I think it’s the lack of experience which is putting people off but I’m not giving up.”
“ They guys need some promo shots, Dirk’s out of town I was going to ask him when he was free but if you want to take a stab at it, something for your portfolio too,” Tim shrugged between taking mouthfuls of his giant burger, he worked out a lot so it was fine for him.
“Are you serious Tim?” That’s amazing thank you so much I mean I’d need to get a camera first.”
“I’m sure we can sort something out.” Tim shot me a smile which I returned graciously. I had the best friends; I was an idiot to ever think otherwise.
“How’s your food Eva?” Kennedy asked after a few moments of rare silence.
“It’s good.” I had only eaten half of my fries and took three full bites of my burger before I had three further bites of just the meat. I left most of the bun and cheese but Garrett soon cleared that up for me.
“So do you guys have any plans?” If they weren’t touring I wanted to see what else they would do, I knew my boys weren’t the types of people to sit around and do nothing for too long.
“Might write a bit, lay a few tracks down we don’t know how serious it’s going to be. Things with the record company are still a little up in the air,” John replied while wiping his hands with a napkin.
“I don’t understand why you don’t just go it alone.”
“It’s gone through our minds but I don’t know if we can afford to do it financially especially touring like we do.”
“You guys need an accountant, there must be some way.”
“You know what I was saying the other day about you supporting us and everything? Prime example.” I turned to Garrett and sent him a huge grin which he returned.
“Get a room guys!” Pat shouted from across the table, causing me to blush profusely.
“Pat what are you talking about?” Garrett laughed taking a drink from his soda.
“The puppy love look it’s disgusting,” he shouted a little too loudly, what was he talking about?
“Whatever you say man,” Garrett replied with an eye roll but his neck turned a bright shade of red. Why was he embarrassed? Garrett was pretty quiet after the exchange with Pat, the car ride home was silent except for Wilco playing from the speakers. From the route I could tell we were going back to Garrett’s house which pleased me. I hated my place, places were expensive though and my lack of employment was seriously hindering me.
“What is he doing here?” I thought out loud on seeing Martin knocking on my front door as Garrett’s little yellow car parked up by my house.
“Do you want me to stay with you?”
“No I’ll send him away, I’ll text you.” I gave Garrett a thank you in the form of a kiss on the cheek and watched as he drove away.
“Erm…Martin?” I questioned when I was close enough so I knew he could hear me.
“Eva I was just wondering what you were up to.”
“That’s why we have phones Martin.”
“I just haven’t seen you in a while that’s all and…have you gained weight?”
“Probably.” Garrett and I decided to take the scales out of my house, I would only go by the weekly numbers Karen gave me, hopefully it would stop me from obsessing.
“I can tell, not to worry we can easily fix that.” I couldn’t believe he had just said that, we were both meant to be gaining weight.
“What do you mean by fix?”
“You don’t want to get too big now do you?”
“Martin I’m underweight, I need to gain more than a few pounds.” I was finding it difficult not to scream in his face, he was twisted.
“Oh no you’ve been listening to that Garrett again, not to worry Eva I can get you back on track. Just the two of us like how it used to be.”
“Martin you need to listen to me, your mind is warped. You’re not seeing what everyone else can see, this disease affects your mind as well as your body. It’s your mind which needs to get better and you’re still very sick.” I had a feeling he wouldn’t listen to me, I didn’t listen to anyone, you’re in compete denial about your illness. It took me twenty minutes to get rid of Martin, I told him numerous times he still needed help and that I couldn’t be friends with him until I was better. I let him poison my mind once I wasn’t going to let it happen again.
I had been here before, applying for jobs, looking for new apartments but this time it felt different, this time I was more positive, more determined. I certainly felt as if I had more energy, I didn’t need an alarm to tell me to eat and I heard my stomach grumble for the first time in months. It was such a simple thing; get hungry, eat, then feel full but satisfied but I felt marvellous. I had my independence back and felt as if I could climb Everest; the world was my oyster.
“Any luck on the job front?” Jared asked shoving a handful of fried in his mouth, getting sauce on the top of his lip in the process. The band, Tim, and I were at In n’ out, I couldn’t quite believe it myself even more surprisingly it was my idea.
“No yet, I think it’s the lack of experience which is putting people off but I’m not giving up.”
“ They guys need some promo shots, Dirk’s out of town I was going to ask him when he was free but if you want to take a stab at it, something for your portfolio too,” Tim shrugged between taking mouthfuls of his giant burger, he worked out a lot so it was fine for him.
“Are you serious Tim?” That’s amazing thank you so much I mean I’d need to get a camera first.”
“I’m sure we can sort something out.” Tim shot me a smile which I returned graciously. I had the best friends; I was an idiot to ever think otherwise.
“How’s your food Eva?” Kennedy asked after a few moments of rare silence.
“It’s good.” I had only eaten half of my fries and took three full bites of my burger before I had three further bites of just the meat. I left most of the bun and cheese but Garrett soon cleared that up for me.
“So do you guys have any plans?” If they weren’t touring I wanted to see what else they would do, I knew my boys weren’t the types of people to sit around and do nothing for too long.
“Might write a bit, lay a few tracks down we don’t know how serious it’s going to be. Things with the record company are still a little up in the air,” John replied while wiping his hands with a napkin.
“I don’t understand why you don’t just go it alone.”
“It’s gone through our minds but I don’t know if we can afford to do it financially especially touring like we do.”
“You guys need an accountant, there must be some way.”
“You know what I was saying the other day about you supporting us and everything? Prime example.” I turned to Garrett and sent him a huge grin which he returned.
“Get a room guys!” Pat shouted from across the table, causing me to blush profusely.
“Pat what are you talking about?” Garrett laughed taking a drink from his soda.
“The puppy love look it’s disgusting,” he shouted a little too loudly, what was he talking about?
“Whatever you say man,” Garrett replied with an eye roll but his neck turned a bright shade of red. Why was he embarrassed? Garrett was pretty quiet after the exchange with Pat, the car ride home was silent except for Wilco playing from the speakers. From the route I could tell we were going back to Garrett’s house which pleased me. I hated my place, places were expensive though and my lack of employment was seriously hindering me.
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