My Only One

Lexie had the very top bunk on the right hand side and Isabelle had the one opposite and they were both laying up there talking when they heard more people coming on the bus. Curious, Lexie jumped down and walked into the front lounge.

Rian, Jack and Zack were seated in there and Rian was with a girl who she could only assume was Cassadee. The show must be over. Their first day of tour went amazingly well and everybody was having a great time so far. Alex was still pointedly ignoring her though.

Lexie went and sat down on the couch next to Cassadee.

"Hey, I'm Cassadee," she said smiling. She had brown hair and an infectious smile.

"I'm Lexie," she replied, smiling back.

"I know, I've heard a lot about you."

"Do I even want to know what they've been saying?" she asked.

"Don't worry, it's been good things," she reassured her.

"Well that's good then," Lexie replied, chuckling.

Isabelle then came down and sat herself on Lexie's lap, crushing her.

"Izzy... can't... breath," she choked out. She heard Isabelle laugh, then her weight was removed from her and Isabelle was sat on the floor infront of her.

"What are you all doing out here?" Isabelle asked.

"We were about to watch a movie," Jack said.

"Ah, movies bore me. I'm going in the back lounge," Isabelle said, standing up and walking away.

"I take it that was Isabelle?" Cassadee asked.

Lexie nodded, "She's my best friend. She's also kind of insane."

Cassadee laughed, "I think surrounded by all these guys, she'll seem perfectly normal."

"Hey!" Jack said, then stood up and walked out of the front lounge.

"I think a certain somebody has a thing for Isabelle," Zack said laughing.

Lexie bit her lip anxiously, "I noticed that too. I kinda hope nothing happens between them. Izzy can be kinda... flakey."

"What do you mean?" Rian asked.

"I mean that she'll probably date him for a little while, then when she gets bored, she'll move onto someone else," Lexie said. "I don't want him to get hurt."

"He'll be fine," Rian reassured her. "He's not a kid anymore."

"I know," Lexie said sighing. "It's weird being with you guys as adults since I knew you as teenagers."

"It's weird seeing you all grown up too," Zack said.

"Yeah, and you're engaged," Rian added.

Instinctively, Lexie looked at the ring on her finger and Cassadee grabbed her hand to get a closer look.

"It's so pretty," she said happily.

Lexie just smiled in return. She wasn't really in the mood to discuss her engagement... not when she was starting to have doubts about it.

"When's the wedding, again? I forgot," Rian asked.

"2nd of April," Lexie replied, hoping that her tone would make it obvious that she wasn't in the mood to talk. Apparently not.

"Are you nervous?" Cassadee asked.

Lexie opened her mouth to answer when Alex walked onto the bus and the room went silent and tense. Alex appeared not to notice and he went into the fridge and got a can of soda out. He popped the can open and leant against the counter, not speaking.

The room was becoming increasingly awkward and then even worse when Alex turned to them and said, "Don't stop talking about the lovely wedding plans on my account. It's not like my feelings matter or anything."

"Alex, that is --" Lexie started to say but she was cut off.

"I don't really care what you have to say," Alex said sharply and went to his bunk. Everyone was looking at Lexie with sympathy written all over their faces. Exhaling, she got up and walked over to his bunk.

"Alex, you can't just --"

"Yes I can," he said curtly and pulled the curtain on his bunk over, effectively ending their very brief conversation. Sighing, Lexie climbed into her own bunk as well, though she could not sleep and when she did sleep, it was not dreamless.

Her arm was linked with her brothers, as they began walking down the aisle in the church, her long white dress trailing along the floor. Noah was dressed in a sharp suit, looking grim.

"What's up?" she whispered to him.

"This is all wrong, Lexie. You know that," he replied and walked faster so that she was now at the altar and infront of her was Jonathan. He was unclear through the haze of her wedding veil, but it was definately him.

"I'm so glad you chose me," he said, smiling, taking her hands. But it was not a nice smile.

"What are you talking about?" she hissed but he just held up a finger to his lips, a gesture to get her to be quiet. Then the ceremony started.

The vicar said all the typical vows and Lexie repeated them robotically, almost as if she was not aware of what she was doing. Something was seriously wrong here. What was going on?

She was snapped back into reality, when he said, "You may now kiss the bride."

She looked over at Jonathan, who stood closer to her and lifted her veil back from her face and when he did, she gasped. Standing infront of her was no longer Jonathan, but Alex.

He trailed his hand along her cheek. "I'm so glad you chose me," he said in her ear, just like Jonathan had said. Then he kissed her.

Lexie woke up, startled by what she had just dreamt. It seemed that even her dreams were confused about what she should do. She looked at her phone and saw that it was 5am. She was never going to be able to get to sleep again now.

She slid out of bed and went into the front lounge where she put the TV on, but very low volume so she didn't disturb anybody else. She wrapped herself up in a blanket and layed on the couch, feeling more confused than ever about her relationship with Jonathan... and Alex. What was she going to do?

***

The first week of the Dirty Work Tour went very smoothly. The bands were amazing every single night and almost every night there was a party on one of the tour buses, which Lexie attended but stayed away from alcohol. Alcohol was not her friend.

The only problem at the moment was Alex. He was doing his best to ignore her but during those times when he was forced to speak to her, he was ice cold. It also didn't help that Lexie had been having the same dream about the wedding every single night, making her feel worse. She woke up at the same moment every night, leaving her tired all the time as she wasn't getting enough sleep.

Today was a day off from tour though, so Lexie, Isabelle and Cassadee were all going to the mall for some girl time and shopping. They were also all going out tonight, so they needed to buy something awesome to wear.

"You look tired, Lexie," Isabelle said, looking at a purple leopard print dress in one of the stores. Cassadee looked up as Isabelle said that. Clearly she had noticed too.

Deciding that there was no way around it, Lexie told them both about the re-occuring dream she was having and how confused she was about her feelings.

"Wow," Cassadee said. "What are you going to do?"

"I have no idea," Lexie said sighing, looking through the rack of dress absently.

"Well do you love Alex?" she asked.

"Yes," she said quietly, kind of guilty for the way she felt.

"But you love Jonathan as well?"

"Yes."

"Who do you love more?" Cassadee asked.

"I don't even know," Lexie confessed. "I love Jonathan, I do, but Alex was my first love, and -- it doesn't really matter though, Alex hates me."

"No he doesn't," Isabelle said. "He's just pissed off."

"Izzy's right," Cassadee said. "He loves you, he's just hurt."

"Well he's being a right bastard about it," Lexie muttered.

"Of course he is!" Cassadee said. "He doesn't want you to see how much he's hurt by it."

"I just wish he would talk to me about it," Lexie said. "I didn't get engaged purely to hurt him."

"He's a man. Men do not talk about feelings. You need to force it out of them," Isabelle said, then got a glint in her eye. "You could always try and make him jealous."

"I think he's jealous enough, don't you?" Lexie said.

"I don't mean of you and Jonathan. I mean, you dress up and look all smokin' hot and see how he reacts. You could do it tonight!" Isabelle said excitedly.

"That's not making him jealous! That's making him..." Lexie trailed off, unable to think of the right word.

"Horny?" Cassadee supplied.

Lexie laughed, "I don't know. I feel like I'm cheating..."

"No you're not," Isabelle said. "Don't worry about that. You're just flaunting what your good momma gave you. It's not your fault if your sexiness attracts loads of guys... or even a certain guy."

"Come on, Lexie," Cassadee said, nudging her arm, grinning. "It'll be fun."

"Alright," Lexie said, in defeat. "But you're both getting just as dressed up as me!"

***

Everyone from all the bands and their crew were coming out tonight; the local club was having a very cheap drinks night, so naturally everybody wanted to go and get drunk.

Lexie and Isabelle got ready on Hey Monday's bus with Cassadee. Isabelle seemed to think that Alex would appreciate her outfit more if he didn't see her getting into it, funnily enough. Lexie also had a feeling that she was dressing up for Jack, they had been developing a bit of a close friendship so far on this tour.

Cassadee was wearing a blue dress that went to her knees with small heels. She said she never was that big of a dressy person. Isabelle bought the purple leopard print dress she saw in the shop. It was strapless and went to mid-thigh and she wore her black knee high boots with it. How Isabelle could walk in them, Lexie would never know.

Lexie was wearing a plain black dress with halter straps, that made her boobs look bigger than they actually were and the dress came to about mid-thigh just like Isabelles. She put on a pair of black heels and allowed Isabelle to do her hair and make-up. She ended up doing it curly, but styled it so that it was all gathered on one side. Her make-up was a bit more done up than usual, but it worked well.

"I look like I should be working on street corners or something," Lexie said, glancing down. Her legs looked extra long in the dress she was wearing.

"Well I look like a hooker. Deal," Isabelle said, grabbing her bag. "Ready?"

"Ready," Isabelle and Cassadee said together and walked off the bus where everybody appeared to be waiting for them. They walked over to wear Jack, Rian and Zack were standing.

Cassadee held hands with Rian and they started walking off slowly with everyone else, towards the club.

"Where's Alex?" Isabelle asked.

"Alex is here," came a voice from behind them. Alex closed the door of the bus and stood next to Zack, trying to keep his eyes from gazing over Lexie. He was wearing black skinny jeans, white trainers, a white t-shirt and a denim jacket. He looked absolutely gorgeous.

They all started walking to the club, Isabelle chatting with Jack and Alex walking a little faster infront of them. Lexie talked to Zack on the way there.

"So why are you so dressed up? I wouldn't have thought you'd be trying to attract men now that you're engaged and everything," he said, smirking.

"Oh ha-ha," Lexie said grinning. "A girl can't unleash her inner whore?"

Zack laughed, "Of course you can. I'm sure everyone here appreciates you doing that."

Lexie said nothing, just stared at the ground as they walked. Zack nudged her arm. "Are you trying to attract Alex's attention?"

She blushed, "Maybe."

"Well it worked. I saw him look out of the window on the bus when you guys walked over. He looked like he was going to faint or something."

Lexie laughed, "It wasn't part of the plan to knock him unconcious."

Zack shrugged, "You might not be able to help that."

Lexie laughed again and they just walked in silence until they got to the club. Then they got inside and they all found a place to sit. Lexie just ordered a vodka and coke for the first round of drinks, she wasn't going to drink much. God knows what would happen if she got drunk.

Alex was sitting directly across from her at the table, but she tried not to look at him. Though she noticed that when she sat down infront of him, he gulped and purposely averted his eyes.

Isabelle got kind of drunk and dragged Lexie on the dance floor with her, where they danced like complete idiots. But Lexie didn't care, she was with her best friend and they were going to have a great fucking time.

After about half an hour of dancing, Isabelle dragged Lexie to the bar where she ordered another drink.

Just as she paid the bartender she said, "So, I think I'm going to sleep with Jack."

"What?" Lexie said, spitting out her drink of a fruit cocktail... non alcoholic.

"Yeah. I think I will," Isabelle said. "Where is he?"

"I've no idea," Lexie said. "Why are you going to sleep with him?"

"Because I like him," Isabelle replied simply then walked off, leaving Lexie staring after her in disbelief. She went looking for Jack herself, but she couldn't find him. Isabelle must have got there first...

Lexie sat back down at their table in defeat, pulling her heels off to rest her feet from all the dancing. She had no idea where everybody had gone. The only people she could see were Rian and Cassadee, who were dancing, and Matt who was sitting at the bar.

"I take it that Jack's getting lucky tonight?" Lexie spun around and saw Alex still sitting there, beer in hand. She hadn't even noticed he was there when she sat down... and now he was talking to her?

"What?" she asked bewildered.

"I saw Isabelle drag him off somewhere," he said. "It was only a matter of time until those two hooked up."

Lexie wasn't even really listening to what he was saying, "Why are you suddenly talking to me?"

"Am I not allowed to?" he asked, raising an eyebrow.

"Of course you are, but... you have been a complete bitch to me this past week. Why are you suddenly talking to me now?" she demanded.

"I got lonely," he said.

"Right, so you're only talking to me as a last resort? Fuck you, Alex," she said and stood up, but Alex grabbed her arm.

"Don't go... please," he said, looking at her with pleading eyes, but she wasn't in the mood. She jerked her arm out of his grasp and walked away. She went into the womens bathroom, fussing over her appearance in the mirror. Not a hair out of place.

She leant over the sink, taking deep breaths. What was that all about? Why the hell was he suddenly trying to talk to her now? Men were so confusing.

She walked back out of the bathroom and went to go sit with Matt.

"Not having any fun?" she asked him.

"Not in the slightest," he replied. "This club is terrible."

She sighed, "Tell me about it."

"Come on, I'll walk back to the bus with you," Matt said and took her arm, leading her out of the club. They walked back in silence but Matt was humming a tune that Lexie couldn't quite recognise.

When they got to the bus, Matt said, "Right, now I've got to go back to the club and make sure all those idiots get back here without hurting themselves."

"Then why did you bother walking me back?" she asked confused.

"The streets are not a safe place," he said grinning. "And I don't think Alex or your fiance would appreciate you getting killed."

She laughed, "Well thanks."

"Night, Lexie," he said and walked back down the street. Lexie climbed onto the bus and headed for her bunk, when she noticed Isabelle asleep in her bunk.

Confused, Lexie walked into the back lounge where Jack was sitting on the couch watching TV.

"So is that how you roll?" she asked. "Sex then TV?"

Jack laughed, "I didn't sleep with her."

"Why not?" she asked. "I thought you liked her."

"I do," he said. "But she was completely wasted. I didn't want to take advantage of her when she was drunk, so I brought her back to the bus."

"Aw, look at Jack being all caring," she said, teasing.

"I know, I'm an amazing guy, aren't I?"

"Yes you are," Lexie said earnestly. "Now I'm going to bed."

"Wait!" Jack said. "Have you spoke to Alex tonight?"

"I have actually. He started talking to me at the club but I got pissed off and left," she told him.

Jack didn't question it, just nodded and said, "Night then."

"Goodnight, Jack," she said and climbed into her bunk, instantly falling asleep and for once, she had a dreamless sleep.