I'll Never Let You Go

Dearest Rhia,

I ran into your mum today, but I don't think she noticed me. Either that, or she ignored me.
It fucking sucked.
I always loved your family, as if they were my own. I remember going to your house for Sunday lunch and once we had all finished dinner, I'd play mission impossible in the garden with Jack. He was the sweetest kid ever and you were always such a protective older sister. I don't see Jack around anymore, I guess he's gone to live with your dad after the divorce.
It feels like I'm watching your whole world collapse in front of my eyes, but neither of us can stop it.
If I'm honest, I feel like I'm the one who caused it.
I am the one who caused it.
I fucked up, big time.
I'm still so sorry.

Love, always,
Joshua
x x x