Here Goes Nothing

"So how is it like, having a dad who's also a Jackass?" Oprah asked as soon as we were all seated. I was a nervous wreck. I tried to hideit behind a bright smile but I'm pretty sure I wasn't fooling anyone. And that is the main reason why I was so grateful that the first question wasn't directing towards me. 

"I think it's fun!" Roan answered, making everyone laugh at his cuteness. 

"Yeah I mean everyone knows my dad and we get to travel a lot so it's fun." Ruby agreed with her brother. 

"Well that must be one of the best parts! What about you older kids? Are you agreeing with Ruby and Roan?" Oprah asked, looking at both Maddi and Wesley.

"Sometimes it's fun and I'll always be proud of my dad for making it to the big screen, but there are other times when I get frustrated. I know it's selfish but sometimes you just need to have a day under the sun with your family, you know? Just go out to the park or get some ice cream. But it's hard to do those simple things when your dad happens to be on giant billboards." Maddi explains with a shrug. 

"That has to be hard. What about you Wesley?" Oprah asked.And it was Wesley's turn to shrug. 

"Well I'm kind of stuck in the middle I guess. I get what Maddi says and I feelthat way too sometimes but...I don't know. There's more to it than just your dad being famous. I've litterally grown up with the Jackass crew and I got close to all the guys on the Viva La Bam gang as well. I guess what I'm trying to say is that we're lucky. Not everyone gets a shot to have this big of a family." He said and everyone applauded. I couldn't help but smile at him, silently regretting (once again) the fact that I hadn't met him earlier. 

"Well that is very nice! And then there's Kaleigh. Now, if I got it correctly Bam is your cousin, right?" Oprah asked me. I was about to freeze when I felt Wesley's hand gently squeeze my knee. I looked around to see if anyone saw that but Maddi was busy looking at the audience and Ruby and Roan were sitting right in front of us, blocking any of our movements from the chest down to Oprah and the rest of the audience. But I realised that his attempt at reassuring me (though I would never admit it outloud) DID work...a little. 

"That is correct. Both of our mothers are actually sisters." I explained, while being very aware that Wesley's hand was still on my knee, and he moved it carelessly up to my thigh. At that very moment, I was incredibly relieved that I chose to wear jeans and not a short skirt...I honnestly doubted my capacity to resist him if he was touching my bare skin, even in front of an audience (again, I would never admit it out loud).

"So Bam called you to join the tour, am I still on track here?" She asked me with a warm smile.

"Yes, you're still right on track." I said, returning her smile.

"And how is the rockstar life treating you?" She asked and everyone chuckled a little. 

"Well it only just started but I definitely think that I will gain a LOT of life experience this summer." I said and everyone laughed. 

"So now on to the more jucy details...anyone have a boyfriend or girlfriend?" Oprah asked asshe tried to imitate a sixteen year-old girl, making everyone laugh once more. 

"I have a girlfriend! It's Maddi, she's right there!" Roan exclaimed as he pointed to Maddi, making everyone laugh once again. 

"Well isn't she a lucky lady!" Oprah said with a genuine smile as she looked at Roan. 

"My parents think we're to young to date." Ruby said as if she wanted to set the record straight. 

"My dad says the same thing but if I listen to him, I won't date until I'm in my late forties!" Maddi explained and everyone chuckled. 

"I'm single but hopefully that will change over the summer." Wesley explained calmly, giving my thigh one last squeeze before completely letting go. I didn't want to admit it to myself...the way it felt so unusually cold where his hand was not even a minute ago. 

"Oh do you have a girl in mind?" Oprah asked.

"You could say that." He said with a smile. I couldn't help but notice how Maddi looked at him, and the way she blushed...probably thinking how that girl must be her. And if I was absolutely selfless, I would've wished it WAS her. But the sad truth was that I was selfish. Selfish enough to want Wesley all to myself, and maybe even selfish enough to do whatever it takes to get him...even go behind my best friend's back...