In Love With A 13 year old, I'm Going Straight To Hell.

My eyes landed on his hazel eyes.

Those eyes,

The eyes that I fell for the moment I met him.

'"I had a good time talking to you Gerard and getting to know you better. We should try to do this again."

He laughed "Yeah we should but don't get hurt next time."

I smiled.

"I feel kinda weird doing this but,"

I pulled out a piece of paper and handed it to him.

"Why don't you give me a call while you are on the road. So you don't lose touch." I said looking down at the piece of paper in his hand.

He chuckled and said "I'll promise I'll call you as much as I can. And maybe we can make plans."

I smiled and said "That's just what I wanted to hear."

I leaned in and gave him a kiss on the check and turned to walk away.

"Oh and Jennii."

I turned back to face him.

"Thank you for making this a night to remember." He smiled, kissed my forehead, and turned away on his heel.

I smiled.

"Good night Gerard." '

I smiled as I remembered the first day we ever met.

I turn to look at Matt and say "Hey, I'll be right back."

"Where you going?" Matt asked confused.

"Bathroom, I'll be back." I said and walked off to the bathroom.

I stood in front of the door of the bathroom and knocked on the door to make sure no one was in there.

Just then the door opens.

And I see that girl that was with Mikey earlier.

"Excuse me." She said and walked pasted me.

I sighed and walked in the bathroom closing the door.

Seeing Gerard again drives me crazy.

I still love him.

And I know it.

But now I have Matt, and I don't want to ruin what I have with Matt.

I ran my fingers through my hair.

Then I felt a burning sensation in my stomach.

What the hell is wrong with me?

Then I felt something going up my throat.

I quickly placed my hand on my mouth and ran to the toilet.

As I finished throwing up my guts I fell to the floor and began to cry.

I know that I didn't eat anything bad to make my stomach upset.

There was only one reason that was running through my mind.

Am I pregnant?

I began to hyperventilate.

I can't be!

I shouldn't be!

I slowly got up from the floor.

My legs were weak, I felt like I was about to fall.

I slowly walked to the sink and looked at my reflection.

My face was pale, my eyes were a shade of black.

Not my normal dark brown eyes,

All my eye make-up was running down my cheeks now.

"Damn, stupid make-up."

I have to fix my make-up now.

I quickly washed my face and reapplied my eye make-up.

As I finished with that I took out my toothbrush and brushed my teeth.

Yes I carry a toothbrush everywhere, get use to it!

I put my make-up and toothbrush in my bag and looked back at my reflection.

I am very young, too young to be a mother, to young to have a child.

If I was pregnant I know it has to be Matt's child.

But will Matt be there for me?

What will happen to my life.

I sighed.

I know I can't stay in this bathroom forever, I have to walk out sooner or later.

Better sooner than later.

I fixed my hair and breathed in.

Time to face the world.

I turned the door knob and opened the door.

As I looked up from the door knob I wanted to run away.

There he was, looking gorgeous than ever.

"Jennii," Gerard said staring into my eyes.

I looked around where we were and saw no one.

I looked back at Gerard and ran my fingers through my hair.

"Look, can we talk." Gerard said and pulled me back into the bathroom.

"What the hell!" I yelled and pulled my arm away from his grip.

As I turned around to face Gerard, he pulled me into his arms and his lips met mine.

I froze.

No, I can't, I have to stop.

Oh fuck it!

I wrapped my arms around his neck and made the kiss deeper.

I felt his hands move down to my hips and he pulled me closer to his body.

What about Matt...

My eyes pop open and I pushed Gerard away from me.

"Jennii, what wrong, I- uh." He began.

"I can't do this." I said and opened the bathroom door and walked out.

"Jennii, wait!" I heard Gerard yell.

But I couldn't stop, no matter how badly I wanted to.

I needed to do the right thing.

As I was walking back to where Matt was I saw one person I wasn't really expecting.

That girl named Valary.

She looked at me with a dirty glare and looked so where behind me.

I looked back and saw Gerard walking up to me.

I turned back andran walked back to where Matt was.

As I got closer, and closer my heart beat got faster.

One thing I never thought I would do, was just done...