If You Only Knew

Kaley's POV

I was going to kill him.

As soon as we got off the stage, Darren very quickly made himself scarce until the end of the show. He was lucky that he did.

I was so torn. I didn't know if I should smack him upside the head or kiss him again. I honesty didn't know how to feel. Part of me was so mad that he did that, but yet part of me was swooning at the fact that he had kissed me so publicly.

Though people already knew about our relationship, we had never actually come out publicly as being a couple. We had never really discussed when we were going to, or even if we were going to, because neither of us really cared. It didn't matter.

Well, if they weren't sure before, they definitely will be now! I sighed to myself. I could already picture how the fan sites would flood with pictures of the kiss. A part of me was tempted to check Twitter and Tumblr later to see if I was right.

Darren's outfits for the rest of the show were missing from his dressing room. That was the first thing that I noticed once I got there.

Well played, Darren, I chuckled to myself. He had made sure that I wouldn't be able to catch him off-guard when he came back to change.

Instead of pointlessly waiting for him in that room, I decided to go wander the hallways, eventually finding myself back in the stage wings, watching the show. They were in the middle of doing Loser Like Me. It had always been one of my favourite songs. I absolutely loved how they threw cups full of confetti at the audience at the end.

I wonder what it feels like to actually get slushied, I thought as I watched Darren take a cup from one of the stagehands. He looked like he was having a lot of fun out there.

"You wanna be, you wanna be, a loser like me!" the whole cast sang as they tossed their cups' contents at the audience, who let out ecstatic screams.

And then the lights went out and everyone hurried off the stage. I could already hear the chants for "Encore! Encore!" starting. I watched as Lea and Dianna quickly took sips of water before moving back out onto the stage where two stools now sat. The music for Pretty/Unpretty started to play and the audience screamed with excitement as the lights went back on.

There was such a rush in just watching a show like this. Watching the audience's reactions, hearing their screams. It brought back memories of when I used to perform. I never got applauses like these, but I still had gotten the standing ovations and thunderous applause. I kind of wondered what my life would have been like if I had pursued acting and performing instead of writing.

As fun as this would be, I decided. I still wouldn't change a thing. Writing is my true passion.

"Hey, are you still coming on for Kevin's number?" Leah asked, suddenly appearing beside me.

"Oh! Right!" I exclaimed, quickly hurrying back to the change room to put on my Safety Dance outfit. I wasn't really sure why I was even in this number. I could barely dance to save my life, and yet they had decided to put me in a dance in which Kevin got to show off how crazily amazing he was at dancing.

At least I'm in the back, I smiled to myself. That way they can't see me mess up as badly.

I quickly rejoined Leah after changing into my pretty epic looking outfit. They were just finishing up True Colours onstage and then we were on.

"I'm going to butcher this so badly," I whispered to Leah.

"Oh hush!" she scolded. "You'll be fine!"

"Says the Queen of Dance," I mumbled. She just rolled her eyes at me before doing a few stretches to loosen her muscles before going on. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, trying to prepare myself for this dance.

Ok, I slowly opened my eyes. Let's get this train wreck over with.

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Darren's POV

She looked so adorable up there onstage, trying so hard to keep up with the other dancers around her. Though she wasn't the best dancer, I still couldn't help but feel extremely proud of her for going out there and at least trying. She looked like she was enjoying it too, even if she was struggling slightly to keep up.

"I don't understand why Leah didn't go into something for dancing," Chris commented from beside me. "She picks things up so quickly and executes them flawlessly. She could totally make it as a dancer!"

"Maybe she prefers working behind the scenes?" I suggested, my eyes flickering over to where Leah was dancing onstage. Chris was right. She was performing each of the moves flawlessly.

"Do you not see her out there?" Chris exclaimed. "She owns the stage! She was born to dance! Not work backstage! No, she deserves to shine!"

"I know what you mean," I sighed, my eyes falling back on Kaley again. She had an amazing voice, but she hardly ever sang. The first time that I had heard her sing had also been the last, which bothered me. It had been over a week since I had last heard her sing. She could totally make it as a performer, but she didn't believe in herself enough to go for it.

The lights on the stage suddenly dimmed, signalling that the number was over. I looked up in time to see Kaley coming off the stage and heading straight towards me. I wasn't sure how she was going to react, so I quickly prepared myself to be ready to take a step back, should I need to.

"You're in trouble, mister!" she whispered once she was close enough, narrowing her eyes at me. Behind her on the stage, Chris, Amber, Jenna, Kevin, Lea, and Cory had started to sing, Don't Stop Believin'. They thought that it would be fun to have the song start with the original cast members and have the others join in as the song progressed.

Chris would come grab me, Lea would grab Mark, Cory would grab Dianna, Jenna would grab Harry, Amber would grab Chord, and Kevin would grab Naya and Heather. It was showing how the original six pulled the rest of the members into the club, how the family was created.

"I know, I'm sorry!" I whispered back, glancing over her shoulder to see where they were in the song. They were almost through with the first verse, and then Chris would be coming to get me.

"You can punish me later," I said, moving to pass her. "Right now, I've got a show to do." As I passed by her, she gently reached out and grabbed my hand.

"Have fun," she whispered, her touch and soft words making pleasurable shivers run up and down my spine. "Last song. Make it count!"

Oh, I will, I thought with a smile.

"Thanks," I grinned, giving her hand a light squeeze before letting go. I turned away just in time to see Chris coming towards me. He held out his hand to me and I quickly slid my hand into his, allowing him to pull me out onto the stage. Screams filled the room as the audience saw us together. The fans went crazy over anything Klaine related or, in some people's fantasies, anything CrissColfer related.

A singer in a smokey room
The smell of wine and cheap perfume
For a smile they can share the night
It goes on and on and on and on

Strangers waiting
Up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searchin' in the night

Streetlight, people
Livin' just to find emotion
Hidin' somewhere in the night

I quickly joined in singing the song as we all danced around the stage. On a final, spur-of-the-moment idea, I grabbed Chris' hand again and pulled him back off stage with me, letting go to grab Kaley's hand and pull her out onto the stage with me. Chris quickly caught on to my idea and grabbed Leah's hand as well, leading her out onto the stage behind us.

I felt Kaley's grip tighten on mine as we stepped out onto the stage. She was right. This was the last song and we had to make it count. And I wanted to make it count with her.

I let go of her hand once we were about mid-stage and started to clap my hands along with everyone else and do a fun little step dance on the spot. Chris and Leah stopped beside us and joined in as well. I glanced over at Kaley to see a bright, happy smile lighting up her face as she clapped. I nudged her gently, motioning for her to copy me, and then started to do the trademark Warbler dance step. She laughed softly as she quickly copied my actions.

The last round of the chorus came way too quickly as suddenly we were all lined up across the stage, getting ready for the final pose.

Don't stop believin'
Hold on to that feelin'
Streetlight, people

Don't stop believin'
Hold on to that feelin'
Streetlight, people

Don't stop!

We all struck a final pose as the whole theatre blacked out. The room was instantly filled with the screams of the fans and a thunderous applause. There were multiple flashes of cameras going off, blinding us in the darkness. I quickly took Kaley's hand as we started to move back off the stage, guiding her in our blinded state.

As soon as we got offstage, I turned back to ask Kaley what she thought of the show tonight, but was stopped short as her hand smacked across my face.

"Ow!" I exclaimed, cupping my hand over my now tender cheek protectively. "What was that for?"

"That," she replied, placing her hands on her hips. "was for kissing me onstage."

I was flabbergasted. I never actually thought that she would slap me for doing that. I thought that she had actually liked it.
But my thoughts were quickly wiped away as she stepped closer and pressed her lips to mine.

"And that," she whispered as she pulled away. "was for kissing me onstage."

I'll never understand women.

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Kaley's POV

By the time the show had ended, I still hadn't decided whether or not I was mad at Darren. So, since I couldn't decide whether to slap him or kiss him, I just did both. Darren's face afterwards was priceless.

"What?" he exclaimed, looking adorably confused.

I opened my mouth to reply, but stopped as an arm slung around each of our shoulders.

"Guys!" Mark exclaimed. "Why aren't you changed yet? You are coming to the after party, aren't you?"

"After party?" I raised an eyebrow at him questioningly.

"Yeah!" Mark grinned. "I rented us a place! You guys have to come! It's gonna be so awesome!"

"What do you think?" Darren asked, turning to me. "Do you want to go?"

I took a moment to think over my options. On one hand, this would be the last time that I'd get to hang out with the whole Glee cast. But on the other, this was one of the last nights that I had with Darren before he went back to L.A....

But, my subconscious argued. You're still going to see and talk to Darren all the time, even after he goes back. How many other times are you going to see Mark or Lea? Plus, you have all of tomorrow to spend with Darren...

"Okay, we'll come," I smiled, giving them my decision.

"Yes!" Mark cheered, pumping his fist up into the air. "Go get changed then! I've got a car waiting out front!"

"Yes, Sir!" I laughed, taking Darren's hand again and leading him away towards the dressing rooms.

"Hey, Leah!" I called out as I spotted her about to go into Chris' dressing room. She turned around in surprise, but relaxed after a second.

"H-Hey, Kaley," she smiled. "What are you guys up to?"

"Going to change, then going to Mark's party," I replied, smiling as well. "Are you and Chris coming?"

"Umm, I don't know..." she replied slowly, glancing back at the doorway she had been about to go through. "I still have to help pack all of the costumes up so they can load them onto the truck..."

"You don't have to worry about that," a voice behind us said. We all turned around to find Vicky walking towards us. "I was just coming to find you girls to tell you that you don't have to worry about staying tonight. I know that there was talk about a party and I know that you both are probably wanting to go, so don't worry about the costumes. We can cover it here." A big smile spread across her face. "Go, have fun. And I'll hopefully see you guys at the next show!"

"Definitely!" Leah beamed happily. I knew that what Vicky said would mean a lot to her. She basically just told Leah that she would hire her back on to do another show. For Leah, it was a dream come true.

"Thank you," I said, stepping forward and putting my arms around her waist and hugging her tightly. "For everything. This has been such an experience."

"It was a pleasure having you two," Vicky laughed, returning the embrace. Once I let go, she pulled Leah in for a hug as well. "Now, go along to your party and have fun!"

"Thank you!" we said in unison, turning away to go into our dressing rooms.

"Anytime, girls," she laughed. "Anytime."

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Darren's POV

I could tell that Kaley was excited. She didn't have to say it. I could just tell by the way that her knee would not stop bouncing up and down. Then again, it could be the adrenaline rush from meeting fans just a few minutes prior. Mark had had the great idea to have the limos he had rented pick us up in front of the theatre, where all of the fans were still waiting, hoping to catch glimpses of us. As Kaley and I walked out of the building, the whole crowd went chaotic.

"Darren!" the fans screamed instantly when we walked outside, holding hands. I hadn't expected there to be so many. I felt Kaley squeeze my hand tightly, so I returned the gesture before slipping my hand out of hers to go over to talk to the fans. The second I reached them, papers and posters were being held out to me and so many camera flashes went off in my eyes. I just laughed it off though. If I was in their shoes, I'm sure that I'd be pretty ecstatic too.

I had signed a couple of posters before I heard it.

"Kaley!" a group of girls screamed, trying to get her attention. I glanced over at her to see her turning towards the girls in surprise. She blinked a couple of times before glancing over at me. I gave her an encouraging smile and nodded towards the girls, telling her to go over to them. She slowly did so, moving almost cautiously towards them. I couldn't blame her though. She didn't know what to expect.

She seemed surprised when posters and papers were held out to her. She hesitated for a moment before taking one of the markers held out to her and scribbling her signature down on one of the items being extended towards her. I quickly smiled for a picture before sneaking another glance over at her. She was smiling and talking to the girls as she signed their things, even pausing to take a few pictures with some of them. She was doing really well for her first time.

"Is it true that you and Kaley are dating?" the question caught me off guard. I turned to look at the girl who had asked that and smiled. I opened my mouth to answer, but then paused. Should I tell them the truth? Was Kaley ready for that big of a step? I know that I had kissed her onstage, but I could just play that off as being in character. But I didn't want to play it off as being nothing, because it meant something to me.

"Why don't you tell me," I finally answered, giving her a little wink before turning away and walking over to Kaley. She was smiling and laughing at something that one of the girls had said, so I quietly snuck up behind her and wrapped my arms around her waist, casually resting my chin on her shoulder.

"Sorry to interrupt, but we've gotta get going," I said, smiling at the girls. "The car's waiting and I think that Mark is getting impatient." Sure enough, when we glanced over at the waiting limo, Mark was standing there with an "are you coming?" look on his face.

"Alright," Kaley smiled, handing the marker in her hand back to one of the girls. "It was really nice to meet you. Thank you for coming out tonight and supporting the show!"

And with that, I slowly withdrew my arms, sliding my hand into hers as we turned away and walked towards the limo.

"Finally!" Mark exclaimed as we slid into the backseat. He followed us into the vehicle, making our car have seven passengers in total: me, Kaley, Chris, Leah, Mark, Lea, and Cory. It did not go unnoticed that Lea and Cory were holding hands.

"Told you!" Chris whispered in my ear. "I totally called them getting together." I just rolled my eyes at him.

The ride to the place that Mark had rented took about half an hour to get to. Actually, I wasn't really sure exactly how long it took, because whenever I was with Kaley, time just didn't seem to matter.

"Party time!" Mark declared as he got out of the limo. We laughed as we followed him out, pausing for a moment to see where we were.

The place was almost like a little condo. Small and private enough for our party, but big and excluded enough that we could have fun and not worry about disturbing the neighbours with our noise.

We quickly followed Mark inside to find a large room with a huge dance floor, a small stage, and a jukebox/karaoke machine.

I'll have to get Kaley to sing something with me tonight, I thought to myself with a smile. I glanced over at Kaley to find her looking at the karaoke machine. And maybe she's thinking about it too.

"Let's get this party started!" Mark declared, holding up a couple beer bottles in his hands. He started to pass them around but when he got to me and Kaley, I waved him off.

"I'd like to be able to enjoy my day tomorrow," I laughed. "Not spend it hung over in bed!"

"One drink won't get you hammered!" Mark argued.

"Maybe not," I shrugged. "But one drink always leads to two drinks, then three drinks and so on and so forth. I think my chances are better if I don't risk it at all." I looked at Kaley and smiled. "I want my last day here to be memorable, special."

The smile that Kaley gave me was worth my decision. She looked at me with awe and adoration, her eyes softening with passion as she stared at me.

"Fine," Mark pouted, interrupting our moment. "I think there are some nonalcoholic drinks at the bar then."

"I'll go see what I can find us to drink," Kaley said, slipping away from me.

"When are you going to tell her?" Chris' voice asked as he came to stand beside me.

"Tell her what?" I asked, turning my gaze away from Kaley at the bar to look at Chris.

"That you're head over heels in love with her," Chris smiled. I blushed slightly at his words because they were true. I was head over heels in love with her.

"Soon," I smiled as well. "I'm planning out an actual date for next weekend when I come back to see her. We've never actually been on one yet, since we've been so busy with the show."

"What about your ice cream date?" Chris argued.

"That wasn't a date!" I rolled my eyes at him. "It was just two friends hanging out and getting to know each other better."

"Darren, it was a date," Chris stated.

"No, it was- Oh, never mind!" I exclaimed. "Fine, I want to take her on a real date, like out for dinner, a romantic carriage ride through Central Park, stuff like that. And then I'll tell her how I feel. I only hope that she feels the same way..."

"Darren, are you that daft?" Chris exclaimed, looking at me with a dumbfounded expression. "Of course she feels the same! How can you not see that? It's all over her face whenever she looks at you!" I quickly glanced back over at the bar to see if what Chris said was true, but couldn't see Kaley anywhere.

"Here are your drinks, boys," Leah announced, coming up to us and holding out a couple cans of soda, diet cola for Chris, of course.

"Where's Kaley?" I asked, trying to look around behind Leah to see where she might have gone.

"Why don't you see for yourself?" Leah grinned, nodding towards something behind me. I spun around and instantly smiled as I spotted Kaley.

Up on the stage.

"I'd like to dedicate this song to my incredible boyfriend, Darren," she grinned, locking eyes with me. "This song really reflects what it was like when I first met you." She nodded towards Lea, who pushed the start button on the karaoke machine. I instantly recognized the song the second the music started to play and I couldn't help but chuckle. It certainly was the perfect song to describe our first meeting.

I threw a wish in the well
Don't ask me, I'll never tell
I looked to you as it fell
And now you're in my way

I couldn't resist to urge to go up onstage and sing with her, so I quickly grabbed a mic and took over the next part of the song before she could sing it.

I'd trade my soul for a wish
Pennies and dimes for a kiss
I wasn't looking for this
But now you're in my way

She quickly joined back in with me on the song, a huge smile blooming across her face.

Your stare was holdin'
Ripped jeans, skin was showin'
Hot night, wind was blowin'
Where you think you're going, baby?

Hey, I just met you
And this is crazy
But here's my number
So call me maybe

It's hard to look right
At you, baby
But here's my number
So call me, maybe?

Hey, I just met you
And this is crazy
But here's my number
So call me maybe

And all the other girls
Try to chase me
But here's my number
So call me, maybe?

You took your time with the call
I took no time with the fall
You gave me nothing at all
But still, you're in my way

I beg, and borrow and steal (she nudged me slightly at this part and winked at me playfully)
At first sight and it's real
I didn't know I would feel it
But it's in my way

Your stare was holdin'
Ripped jeans, skin was showin'
Hot night, wind was blowin'
Where you think you're going, baby?

Hey, I just met you
And this is crazy
But here's my number
So call me maybe

It's hard to look right
At you, baby
But here's my number
So call me, maybe?

Hey, I just met you
And this is crazy
But here's my number
So call me maybe

And all the other girls
Try to chase me
But here's my number
So call me, maybe?

Before you came into my life
I missed you so bad
I missed you so bad
I missed you so, so bad

Before you came into my life
I missed you so bad
And you should know that
I missed you so, so bad

It's hard to look right
At you, baby
But here's my number
So call me, maybe?

Hey, I just met you
And this is crazy
But here's my number
So call me maybe

And all the other girls
Try to chase me
But here's my number
So call me, maybe?

So call me, maybe?

"Definitely describes how we met," I grinned, nuzzling her nose with mine as everyone applauded our performance.

Mark quickly took our spot on the stage, already slightly intoxicated, as we stepped down and joined Chris and Leah again.

"Before we let Lea take the stage and wow us all with her amazingness," Mark slurred. "I suggest that we play a game!" He held up an empty beer bottle. "Who's up for spin the bottle?"

A mixture of laughter and yeses filled the room. With a look of satisfaction, Mark hopped down off the stage and sat down on the floor, gesturing for us to follow his actions. I quickly sat down, tugging on Kaley's hand for her to sit down too, but she slid her hand out of mine and shook her head.

"If I sit beside you, then there's less of a chance that the bottle will land on me when you spin!" she laughed, quickly moving away and taking a seat over beside Jenna, across the circle from me. I pouted slightly at the fact that she wasn't sitting beside me, but I understood her reasonings. There was a higher chance that the bottle would land on the person across from me and not the one beside me.

Once everyone was seated, Mark placed the bottle in the middle of the circle and grinned.

"Get your lips ready, ladies," he chuckled. "Because Puckerman isn't the only one with mad kissing skills!" He quickly spun the bottle and then sat back to wait for the results. We all watched as the bottle spun around and around, finally slowing to a stop and landing on...

"Kaley!" everyone yelled as the bottle stopped on her. She blushed heavily as she glanced over at me.

"Come here, Grant," Mark laughed, beckoning her with his finger to come closer. "This is my one chance to kiss you when your boyfriend is watching!" Kaley glanced at me again and I just rolled my eyes and smirked, letting her know that I knew that Mark was just teasing. With a sigh, she finally crawled forward into the centre of the circle where Mark was waiting for her.

"Are we going with the regular rules?" Mark asked. "The kiss has to last at least three seconds, if not longer." He winked playfully at Kaley, which made me feel slightly uncomfortable. I didn't like how he was openly flirting with her. But then again, that could be the alcohol talking.

"Regular rules," Cory nodded. "Now hurry up and kiss already! Some of us want a turn too!"

"Alright," Mark grinned. "Ready the countdown!"

He quickly leaned down and pressed his lips to Kaley's. The sight made my stomach churn uncomfortably. I didn't like the way he moved his lips over hers. These three seconds seemed to last an eternity.

"Three!" everyone shouted, signalling the end of their kiss. Kaley instantly pulled away, glancing over at me with worry in her eyes. I had told her about how I had been jealous of how Mark had been acting towards her back on her birthday and she clearly seemed worried about how I was going to react to this.

"So, who kisses better?" I asked lightheartedly, trying to lighten the mood. "Me or Mark?"

"Definitely you," she grinned. "Sorry, Mark, but you're a bit of a sloppy kisser."

"Ouch!" Mark exclaimed, clutching at his heart. "You wound be, Kaley!"

"Okay, okay!" Naya sighed. "Enough of this drama! It's your turn to spin, Kaley."

It seemed like the odds were not in our favour today as her spin landed on Cory. I didn't feel as bad this time as she kissed another guy, as this time I knew that I wasn't the only one feeling jealous. Lea was watching the two of them closely as they kissed, waiting just as impatiently as me for them to be done.

After their kiss, Cory spun and surprise! surprise! He landed on Lea. They shared a much longer than three second kiss and finally broke apart when Naya threatened to become Santana and go all Lima Heights Adjacent on them. Lea then landed on Chris, whose kiss she giggled through.

Then Chris spun and the bottle landed on Leah.

"Ooo, Chris has to kiss Leah," Kaley teased, earning herself a slight glare from Leah. "Leah's going to get another Chris Kiss!"

"Oh shush!" she laughed, crawling into the middle to meet Chris.

"Ready?" he asked, smiling.

"Mhmm," she nodded. He slowly leaned down and pressed his lips to hers, holding them there for the entire three counts.

"That makes my Chris Kiss count up to four now," she laughed as they broke apart. "I mean, three." She blushed heavily. "I meant to say three."

Chris gave her a quick, light peck on her lips.

"There," he grinned. "Now it's four." Everyone laughed at their playfulness. They really were too perfect for each other.

If Chris wasn't gay, I could totally see them dating, I though to myself with a smile as Chris sat back down in his spot in the circle.

"Okay, your turn to spin!" Chris told her once he returned to his seat. She quickly spun it and then sat back to watch it go. Everyone laughed when they saw who it landed on.

"Come here, Leah," Chris chuckled, beckoning her from across the circle. She laughed as well as she met him in the centre again, wasting no time at all in pressing her lips to his. I don't know if it was just me, but they seemed to be almost reluctant to break apart once the countdown hit three.

Chris then took his turn again and spun and the whole room filled with laughter as the bottle landed on yours truly.

"Wow, we get to see two live Klaine kisses in one night!" Kaley exclaimed, her comment directed towards Leah.

"I don't know if I can control myself!" Leah played along, bouncing excitedly in her seat.

"Oh, shush you two!" Chris laughed. "Come here, baby!"

I quickly met Chris in the middle and pressed my lips to his. This action was not unusual to us as we had to do it many times when shooting a romantic Klaine scene for the show. But one thing was definitely confirmed for me as we kissed. I totally preferred kissing Kaley.

"Alright, loverboys," Naya announced. "Time is up! And now it's Darren's turn!"

I shot a quick glance over at Kaley, mentally crossing my fingers that it would land on her as I spun the bottle then sat back to wait. The bottle spun around and around, my heart skipping a beat each time that it passed by Kaley. It finally started to slow as it drew closer to Kaley again. When it finally stopped, the whole room fell silent. I glanced up at Kaley who looked surprised and alarmed. Then I looked at who the bottle had landed on.

Leah looked just as terrified.