If Only...

I always knew he was different. He had never really fit in, for reasons beyond
his rainbow converse and silver studded belt. The way his hips slightly swayed
when he walked, his soothing voice, the way his eyes were always taking in the
world around him and so full of life, everything about him made him stand out.
He didn't stand out in a 'everyone watched him' kinda way but more in a 'I do
things differently way', if that makes sense. I was the guy who normally would
have just ignored the small teenager who dressed in neon colors and black but
not this time. Something about that skinny, slender frame, spiked black hair
with red tips and those big blue eyes just lured me in.

I got up the nerve to talk to him one day while we were both walking around
the track in our p.e. class. He smiled at me and my mind went blank for a
moment, I had cursed myself for letting a stupid guy get me like this. After
getting myself together I had asked him about how he was adjusting to the school
and town and from there we spent the rest of the class talking about the things
we like and other nonsense.

I ended up getting so confused and hated myself for even thinking I could be
falling for a guy, but I couldn't deny that I felt something for the new kid. I
thought long and hard for days afterward and each day I got closer to Skylar.
When he walked into a room my eyes followed him and I just knew that I had to
make him mine or I'd go crazy.

I picked him up one day and drove us down to the beach. We went swimming and
oh my god am I happy that I had decided to wear my baggy shorts cause a friend
of mine decided to make an appearance at the sight of Sky on that day. It seemed
like he was teasing me that day too! The way he slowly took his shirt off, shook
his hips to fix his shorts, swirled his tongue around the ice cream he bought,
even the way he got out of the water shaking his head with water dripping down
him had turned me on.
I had decided that I was going to make my move that day and I couldn't back
down. While he dried off I had laid a blanket on the floor and lit a candle.
When he turned around I held his hands in my shaky ones and gave him a rose. My
heart had been beating so fast I was afraid I was going to pass out, but I knew
I had nothing to worry about when he interlaced our fingers and smiled a smile
that made his eyes twinkle. We had spent the rest of the evening talking,
laughing, watching the sun set and later staring up at the stars, our hands
still locked together.
Our relationship only got better with time. Occasionally i'd steal a kiss
during p.e. when no one was watching just to see him blush and other times we'd
have hard core make out sessions where it was like we were trying to swallow
each others tongues. But everything we did wasn't simply physical we had real
conversations and went on dates.
I loved making my Sky laugh cause he had such an amazing laugh that matched
his gorgeous smile that I'd do anything to see. We were always together and when
we could we always held hands. I had felt complete like I had found that thing
that others spend their whole lives searching for. I was the happiest guy on the
planet.
But it seems that nothing good every lasts because I lost my beautiful Sky the
day we took our relationship to the next level. We had made love to each other
and when we told each other our I love you's that day,we meant it. We held hands
and stared at the stars as i drove him back to his house. He had been smiling
down at the silver band with our initials I had slipped on his finger while I
smiled like an idiot at having gotten him something he liked. After i had
stopped at his house I turned to him and held his face in my hands. He smiled at
me and I stared into his deep blue eyes as i leaned in for a kiss. It had been a
short but sweet kiss and before my lips completely left his we had whispered 'I
love you' to each other just as a bright light surrounded us and the world
around us exploded into chaos.
A drunk driver had smashed his car into mine. Broken glass and metal had
littered the street along with some blood splatters due to the man having been
shot out of his car on impact. Skylar had been on the side that had been hit but
he didn't die immediately, he died holding my hand on the way to the hospital.
He died with a smile in his eyes and my name on his lips, as he whispered, "I
love you Kyle..."