You Were Always There To Hold My Hand

"Oh my god!" Kellin sighed loudly.

He was tired, he never really could stay up all night. I laughed as I ate a few chips.

"Just go to bed"

"No!" he snapped almost instantly.

I rolled my eyes, staring at him. He stuck his tongue at me before smiling.

"So how are your, injuries?"

"Fine" I dragged out, "But I wanna walk downstairs!"

"Okay" he said quickly before picking me up, and going downstairs.

"This is so not what I meant!" I whined.

"Well what do you want me to do? Push you down the stairs and say 'run'? I'm the best transportation you've got." He said hopping down the steps.

"Well in that case, I want some fresh air, go outside and run a mile."

"Ha! You are so, funny" he said as we went outside on his balcony.

He set me down on a chair before plopping beside me. I smiled at Kellin before we started to watch the sun rise.

"Sing me something!" I whined, the silence was killing me.

"Father, father, tell me where have you been?
Its been hell not having you here
I've been missing you so bad
And you don't seem to care
When I go to sleep at night, you're not there
When I go to sleep at night, do you care?

Do you even miss us?
Your bottle's your mistress
I need to know, I need to know

Why are you walking away?
Was it something I did?
Did I make a mistake cause
I'm trying to deal with the pain
I don't understand this, is this how it is?
I will try to understand

Father, father, tell me where are you now?
Its been hell not having you
Last thing I heard, you were fed up, you're skipping town
With no note telling where
When I go to sleep at night, you're not there
When I go to sleep at night, do you care?

I need to know, I need to know

Why are you walking away?
Was it something I did?
Did I make a mistake cause
I'm trying to deal with the pain
I don't understand this, is this how it is?

Why are you running away?
I don't understand this, is this how it is?
Why are you running away?
Tell me please, tell me please, I need to know

Is this what you call a family?
Is this what you call a family?
Is this what you call a family?
Is this what you call a family?

Spent seven years wishing that you'd drop the line
But I carry the thought along with you in my mind
But is this what you call a family?
Is this what you call a family?

Why are you walking away?
Was it something I did?
Did I make a mistake cause
I'm trying to deal with the pain
I don't understand this, is this how it is?

Why are you running away?
I don't understand this, is this how it is?
Why are you running away?
Tell me please, tell me please, I need to know

Is this what you call a family?
Is this what you call a family?
Is this what you call a family?
Is this what you call a family?"

"Why did you write a song about dad?!" I snapped at him.

"Stac-"

"No! He left us! He doesn't care about us, so why the fuck should we even think a single though about him?!" I yelled.

He started laughing.

"Kellin! Why the fuck-"

"This is the exact same thing you said to me when you first listened to this song" he said calmly, before beginning to chuckle again.

"Oh, well why didn't you stop me?"

"Cause' I wanted to see if you would say it word for word, and you did!" he said giggling.

I rolled my eyes, "You were always the girly one in the family, Kellin, always."

"Hey!"