Status: Every Friday
I'm Not Retarded, Just Unique
The future
I'm sorry I have abandoned this story. My life took a turn for the worst recently. My therapy is no longer helping, medication failed, and I can't escape my home because no one sees an issue. Basically I am stuck in a toxic environment and no one wants to do anything about it. With a few other issues on the side as well to add on, I am constantly depressed and uninspired.
However, I want to finish this story, I REALLY do. But, I don't know if I can right now. But if I do, it won't be for a while. I promised myself I will never post a story ever again unless I have written the entire story out and have it completed before posting. That way, I know there will be no block, no pause, updates, and happy people.
So, if I do decide to start up again, hopefully soon, I will let you know. But, nothing will be posted until I have every chapter written. Once the chapters are written and I am content, then I will edit them as I post. Hopefully within the next year (Hopefully sooner but I'd hate to break a promise so a year seems long enough) this story will be alive and posting.
Until then, I will think it over, and try to write again. I am a bit rusty (I think at least), and I still have a hard time accepting what I write. I often delete it in fear of thinking it is garbage. I will try to save it though, and work with it. Nothing is perfect, and I don't expect to be a writer when I grow up, so it doesn't need to be. This is a fan fiction, not a book, I just need to remember that sometimes.
I am slowly starting to get better. I've been reading again, and watching Perks of Being a Wallflower and it helps me. My classes this year are very easy and I have a lot of extra time to start writing. I just need the inspiration and motivation. I often have little to no homework, and if I do have homework I actually enjoy it (all but history. We are on a boring part in time right now. It won't get good till the War). I'm just moody some days, a bit schizophrenic some would say. There will always be more bad days than good, and I may not believe in the quote "Things Get Better" but we have to make do with what we have. To quote Perks, "We can't choose were we come from, but we can choose where we go from there." Life is hard and painful, envy those unaware of that. Knowing this, I need to survive this year and wish for a miracle.
Cross your fingers and hope for the best.
Sorry for the wait, I'm as disappointed in myself as you are.
K.N.
However, I want to finish this story, I REALLY do. But, I don't know if I can right now. But if I do, it won't be for a while. I promised myself I will never post a story ever again unless I have written the entire story out and have it completed before posting. That way, I know there will be no block, no pause, updates, and happy people.
So, if I do decide to start up again, hopefully soon, I will let you know. But, nothing will be posted until I have every chapter written. Once the chapters are written and I am content, then I will edit them as I post. Hopefully within the next year (Hopefully sooner but I'd hate to break a promise so a year seems long enough) this story will be alive and posting.
Until then, I will think it over, and try to write again. I am a bit rusty (I think at least), and I still have a hard time accepting what I write. I often delete it in fear of thinking it is garbage. I will try to save it though, and work with it. Nothing is perfect, and I don't expect to be a writer when I grow up, so it doesn't need to be. This is a fan fiction, not a book, I just need to remember that sometimes.
I am slowly starting to get better. I've been reading again, and watching Perks of Being a Wallflower and it helps me. My classes this year are very easy and I have a lot of extra time to start writing. I just need the inspiration and motivation. I often have little to no homework, and if I do have homework I actually enjoy it (all but history. We are on a boring part in time right now. It won't get good till the War). I'm just moody some days, a bit schizophrenic some would say. There will always be more bad days than good, and I may not believe in the quote "Things Get Better" but we have to make do with what we have. To quote Perks, "We can't choose were we come from, but we can choose where we go from there." Life is hard and painful, envy those unaware of that. Knowing this, I need to survive this year and wish for a miracle.
Cross your fingers and hope for the best.
Sorry for the wait, I'm as disappointed in myself as you are.
K.N.