Harder Than You Know

October 15, 2008

“Can you believe it’s the last day of tour? I don’t want it to be over. I like it here I made friends…” I whined as I threw myself down on the couch between Craig and Matt.

“Miranda sweetie you say that about every tour you come with us on.” My brother Matt said laughing.

“Well I’ve meant it every time I’ve said it, but I really, really, REALLY mean it this time! Craig is like my evil twin. I have sooo much fun with him and the rest of the guys. Can we keep him Ma-chew pweese ? I promise to feed him and walk him and he’s pretty much house trained.” I jokingly asked Matt batting my eye lashes and jutting out my bottom lip.

“I don’t want to leave either!” Robert added from across the room as he threw his drum sticks on the table he was perched on top of. “This is my dream tour! I’ve loved you guys forever! Being on this tour with you guys is just … I don’t want it to end!” He said crossing his arms and joining me in my pout. “You can keep me!” He added as he jumped up off of the table and ran over to me plopping down on my lap accidently elbowing me in the stomach causing me to burp. “How does that happen? Normally that would knock the air out of someone, but you burped… what kind of woman are you?” He asked raising a brow.

I couldn’t help but laugh at his outburst. “I was having a rockstar chugging contest with Max. I won! I chugged four to his three!” I shouted with a triumphant grin on my face.

“You gave Max three rockstars in a row?! Like back to back?! Why on earth would you do that?” Craig shrieked as he looked at me like I had three heads.

“Well … I just … we were bored.” I mumbled ducking my head and wringing my hands together. “But I mean we have an endless supply of energy drinks and it was bound to happen at some point just be glad it happened on the last day of tour. I was bored and Emily and Zacky are smacking no no’s…” I said with a grimace. “Jimmy is off somewhere antagonizing Johnny, and Brian is being boring and spending hours on his stupid hair. I went over to your bus and Max was just sitting there staring at the ceiling one thing led to another and we…”

“Miranda you didn’t!” Matt yelled looking at me with wide eyes.

I looked at him in shock my face mirroring his own. “What?!” I asked scrunching my eyebrows in confusion. “I already told you that I had a rockstar chugging contest. Speaking of which Robert get your fat ass of me I have to piss!” I whined trying to push him off of me with no avail.

“Aww da widdle baby has to go pee pee?” Craig asked raising his hands a mischievous glint in his eye.

“No don’t!” I screamed as he slowly inched his hands closer to my sides. “Please don’t I’ll piss my pants! I really have to pee. Let me go tinkle!” I squealed when his hands attacked my sides.

“Did you just say you have to tinkle? You haven’t said that since you were little.” Matt laughed from beside me.

“Awe how cute!” Robert cooed from on top of me.

“I swear if you don’t stop I will piss all over this couch!” I screamed as I squirmed trying around trying to get out of reach of Craig’s attack. “I have four energy drinks in my bladder please stop!” I laughed as tears streamed down my face.

“This is your punishment for getting Max all hyped up he’s probably breaking shit or scaring fans as we speak.” Craig replied poking my side.

“Somebody help me!” I screamed at the top of my lungs. “I swear to god if you don’t stop I’ll scream rape!” I warned.

Just then Max came busting down the door. “Never fear super Max is here!” He yelled sticking one of his fists in the air in a super hero stance. “Don’t worry I’ll save you pretty lady!” Max shouted as he pushed Robert off of my lap and onto Craig. In one swift motion he picked me up off the couch and threw me over his shoulder. In the blink of an eye we were already out of the room and down the hall.

“Please put me down I’m about to piss my pants and your bouncing isn’t helping.” I whined laying limp on over his shoulder hoping my dead weight would be too much for him to carry.

“There’s a bathroom down there.” He said pointing to a door. “Now hurry up I’ve got to show you this chick that looks like what I imagine Eeyore and Barney’s child would! She’s wearing like these skin tight purple and green leopard print skinny jeans … just go piss and I’ll show you. I kind of want a picture with her.” He rambled bouncing up and down following me into the bathroom.

“What are you doing?” I asked as I ran over to the toilet and hurriedly pulling my pants down not caring that Max was in the bathroom with me. He didn’t reply he just walked over to the bathroom mirror and started fixing up his stage make up. I let out a sigh of relief as I started relieving myself.

“You really had to fucking piss didn’t you?” Max asked impatiently tapping his foot. “Hurry up and piss I want to show you this … this …Barore? That sounds about right.” Max rambled as I flushed the toilet and pulled my pants back up. “Now come on let’s go!” He shouted grabbing my hand and pulling me out of the bathroom.

“Max I didn’t wash my hands.” I frowned tripping over my own two feet as he pulled me out of the building and into the crowd that had formed at the pavilion.

“Oh well grow a pair and get over it. Oh my god look there she is!” Max screamed bouncing up and down clapping his hands and pointing.

“Dude are you geeking out or something?” I asked as my eyes searched for said the Barney Eeyore spawn.

“Wha? No, not yet. It’s just the energy drinks you made me drink… do you partake?” He asked with a mischievous grin on his face.

“On occasion… Oh my god!” I screeched when my eyes landed on a rather large woman wearing purple and green lepored print tights, a mini skirt, escape the fate shirt, and a purplish grey hoodie which the hood was made to resemble Eeyore’s face.

“Seriously?! We’re so partying tonight!” Max declared picking me up off the ground and spinning me around in a circle.

“Oh my god it’s Max!” A girl screamed.

“Hide me!” Max said as he buried his face in the crook of my neck behind my hair.

“It’s not fun doing it by yourself I’ve been looking for a party buddy all tour.” He whispered into my ear his warm breath causing me to shiver and close my eyes.

“You know that could be interpreted two different ways, but either way I’m down.” When I opened my eyes again there was a crowd of about five or so girls in front of us. “You’ve been found.” I laughed pulling away from Max and smiling at the girls.

“Oh my gosh it’s really you! Can I get a picture with you?” One of them asked handing her camera to her friend and stepping up next to Max before he could answer.

“Yea sure thing!” He replied grinning like a mad man as her friend took the picture and trading places with her friend so she too could get a picture.

“Is that your girlfriend?” Another girl asked her voice laced with venom as she looked me up and down.

Max cocked an eyebrow at her. “Maybe she is.” He replied his voice dripping with annoyance as he smirked at the girl as he pulled me to his side.

I scrunched my face up in confusion. “Umm … I don’t need any false rumors spreading around about me. I’m not his girlfriend. My brother is headlining this tour.” I said with a cocky grin on my face staring the girl from earlier down.

“Way to ruin my moment there Mir!” Max joked before taking another picture with one of his fans.

“I wasn’t trying to bruise your ego you’re sexy as fuck, but I really don’t want my brother to go to jail for killing you. I’m kind of attached to him you know.” I replied nonchalantly with a shrug of my shoulders.

“Awe you think I’m sexy!” He smirked while signing the last girls arm.

“Oh god I’ve inflated your ego now. I take it back whatever I previously said was a lie. I’m not thinking straight with the lack of food I’ve had and the mass amounts of rockstar’s pumping through my veins. I’m going to go back to the bus Emily and I should be leaving soon to get everything ready.” I said giving a wave to everyone and turning to leave. I was about twenty yards away when I was scooped up into someone’s arms causing me to scream in surprise and fright.

“You’re not going to stay and watch me strut my stuff?” He asked in a sad pathetic voice.

“Nope Emily and I are going to drunk proof the suite, make sure there is enough liquor, and make sure they reserved a room for everybody since none of those thing were done right at the last party we had. I had to share a room with Emily and Zacky and they started fucking when I was still awake. I ended up sleeping in bed with my brother and when I woke up he had a tent pitched under the blankets. I know it’s a normal thing for guys but it was deeply disturbing and very traumatizing.” I replied shuddering at the memory.

“Fine be a party pooper!” Max said sticking his tongue out as we neared the Sevenfold bus.

“Sweetie I’m the party starter. You supply the goods and I’ll take care of everything else.” I retorted with a devilish smirk and a wink before walking on the bus.

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“You stole my Jager machine?!” Craig yelled when he walked into the semi cramped suit.

“Sure did and now we don’t have to drink warm Jager. I even brought you some chocolate milk.” I replied with a grimace. You see I despise milk. I eat my cereal dry and I really don’t eat ice cream much cause after a few bites I swear I can taste the milk in it.

“I think I love you!” He yelled throwing himself at me and knocking me down, the red plastic solo cup of straight Jager flying from my hand and splattering over Max’s shirt. “Alcohol abuse!” I screamed pouting on my now empty cup that lay at Max’s feet. “Get off of me fat ass you’re crushing me!” I joked shoving Craig to the floor and jumping on Max’s back. “Onward!” I yelled pointing behind me causing everyone to laugh. “What there is a wall in front of us so we really can’t go forward.”

A few hours and a few too many drinks later I grabbed Max’s hand and tried to secretly pull him out of the suite. “Where are you two going?” Emily asked as she stumbled slightly back to the room with a bucket of ice in her hand.

“Err… to make our own pillow fort since Craig and Jimmy demolished ours in there. Why does Jimmy always have to pretend to be Godzilla?” I whined with a pout causing both of them to laugh.

“I take it he always destroys you’re stuff?” Max asked.

“Oh god I’m leaving before she goes on a rant.” Emily said walking off.

“Come on let’s go!” Max said pulling my hand and leading me towards the elevator and pressing the 6th floor button.

A few second later the elevator dinged and I laced my hand with his and pulled him in the direction to my room. I reached my hand into my shirt and pulled my keycard out of my bra earning a smirk from Max. “What do you see these shorts they barely cover my ass do you honestly think they have pockets in them?” I asked with a laugh as I pushed the door open. I ran over to my IPod dock and hit random on my play list. I smiled to myself and started singing with the song that came on.

“You know who the spooky kids are?” Max asked surprised.

“You’re not a real Manson ran if you don’t.” I smirked at him. “I snagged a bottle of Vodka.” I added skipping over to the mini fridge and pulling out a bottle of absolute twisting off the top and taking a swig out of it and handing it to Max.

“Ladies first.” Max said as he handed me a small clear plastic baggie that held about an eight ball in it.

“Lines or rails?” I asked pouring the contents of the baggie on the marble counter top in the bathroom and chopping the substance into a fine powder with my key card.

“Whatever you’re comfortable with.” He replied leaning against the bathroom wall and watching me.

I shrugged my shoulders and made multiple lines of the fine white powder ranging from two inches long to six. “I figured I’d be more inclined to doing the bigger ones later.” I said with a smirk when I noticed the intrigued look on his face.

“Here…” Max said holding a rolled up twenty out to me.

“Why think you kind sir.” I replied before leaning over one of the smaller lines, plugging up my right nostril, placing the makeshift straw to my nose, and inhaling; quickly following suite with the other side of my nose. I straightened myself up before blinking my eyes a couple times and wiggling my nose around trying to stop the slight burning sensation in my nose.

“You know I originally thought you were like little Miss play by the rule, but clearly I was wrong.” Max said taking the bill from me.

“And what made you think that my red and pink hair, my piercings, the tattoos, the music I listen to, or the people I hang out with?” I asked listing all the reason most people assume the worst of me.

“You’re just so different when you’re around your brother.” He stated after doing a couple of lines himself.

“Looks can be deceiving.” I replied with a shrug. “Dude that’s good shit.” I replied as I chewed on my cheek and noticed it was numb.

“So what do we do now?” He asked with a smirk as he stepped towards me.

“Oh I can think of a thing or two.” I replied with a smirk of my own chewing on my lip ring.

My breath hitched in my throat as he put both of his hands on each side of my head and lowered his head down his lips brushing against my ear. “Would this be one of them?” He asked, his warm breath sending shivers down my spine, as he attached his lips to my neck.

“Mmmhhhmm….” I moaned as his lips made their way back up to my own. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him closer to me as he licked the bottom of my lip and then pulled it between his teeth. I tangled one of my hands into his hair and raked the other one down his back as he darted his tongue into my mouth and started caressing mine with his own. I hiked one of my legs up and wrapped his waist, his hand going down to rest on the bottom of my thigh, as he took that opportunity to push me up against the wall. I smirk into the kiss as I wrapped my arms around his waist and pressed his hips even closer to mine, slightly pressing mine against him.

“No, not innocent at all.” He laughed as we pulled apart for air.

I smiled innocently at him as I batted my eyelashes, before returning my lips to his neck and biting the sensitive skin between his shoulder and neck. I laughed when he shivered against me a slight smirk playing against my lips as I looked into his lust filled eyes. “I’ve got an idea how about we do a few shots a few lines and go build that fort I was talking about earlier?” I asked as I leaned down and pressed a sweet simple kiss to his lips.

“You were reading my mind, well except for the fort part, but what the hell it sounds fun.” He replied with a smile before pulling me over to the marble counter where both the drugs and alcohol were residing.”

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The coke had been snorted some hours ago, and our clothes had been lost somewhere along the way. The pillows, sheets, and comforter had been stripped from my bed, along with the cushions from the couch. We were hidden in the fort we had made earlier in the night. My legs were wrapped around Max’s hips his cock buried deep inside of me. “Mmm Max fuck me harder!” I moaned loudly. He willing obliged as she started thrusting his hips faster and faster. I arched my back angling my hips to where he could thrust in deeper. “Oh right there!” I moaned barely above a whisper as he hit my sensitive spot just about sending me into overdrive.

“Hey Miranda we’re about to go swimming…” Emily’s voice called into the room as the door opened.

“Fucking shit!” I quietly moaned biting my lip in both pleasure and frustration.

“Shh … If we’re both quiet she’ll think you’re asleep.” Max whispered as he continued pumping in and out of me. I was about to object when Max silenced me by placing his lips on top of mine and a very heated and passionate kiss.

“Oh wow you really did make a fort.” Emily slurred as she made her way over to our hide out. “Hey did you hear me?” She asked as she poked her head in the tent. “Oh my fucking hell! Max you have the whitest ass ever!” She shrieked pulling her head out of the fort.

Max jumped in surprise and slammed into me even harder which sent me over the edge. “Oh Max!” I screamed. My walls clenched around his shaft causing him to cum moments later.

“So I’m taking that as a no?!” She stated more then asked.

“I … uhh … just give me a few minutes go in the bathroom and wait for me so Matt doesn’t get worried and come check up on me. I’ll be dress in a few.” I panted out as Max rode out his orgasm.

“That was fucking amazing!” Max mumbled against my chest as he collapsed on top of me.

We laid there in silence for a few minutes before I spoke up. “Come one get off of me. I’ve got to get dressed in my swim suit and go down to the pool.”

“You afraid of what your brother will think if he finds out you fucked a drug addict?” He smirked rolling off of me and on to the floor.

“Oh shut up Max.” I pushed him playfully as crawled out of the fort and stumbled my way to my suitcase. “Are you coming?” I asked as I shimmied into my bikini bottoms.

“I just did.” He retorted with a smirk.

“Oh shut up you know what I mean.” I replied as I smacked him with my bikini top.

“Yea I’m going to go back to my room and wait a few before I show up so it doesn’t look too obvious to your brother. I wouldn’t want to tarnish that hallo of yours.” He joked as he pulled his shirt over his head and buttoned his pants before walking out of my room.

“You ready?” I asked Emily as I poked my head into the bathroom silently thanking god that I had disposed of the drug evidence when we finished.

“So you and Max huh?” He asked as we made our way to the pool.

“It was a onetime thing the tour is over with anyways.” I replied. “So please don’t tell Matt!” I begged as we entered the pool.